hard on myself this morning

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This morning I am feeling kind of down on myself thinking about the medical issues that have arisen due to my weight.  Well, maybe or maybe not, DUE to my weight, but certainly my weight has contributed to the problems of plantar fasciitis, GERD, and sleep apnea.  How did I let myself get to this point?  Had a stress test last week to determine if the problem was my heart or GERD.  Luckily, my heart is great.  The other positive things that I have going for me are great blood pressure and cholesterol.  But going on age 61, I don't want anymore problems popping up.

I guess that I am just feeling really bad that I haven't taken better care of myself over the years.  Instead of being mad at myself, I think that now that I am writing this, I am really feeling sad for myself. I will spend some time today letting myself feel this, then...move on!

OK-so on the positive side, I am proactively taking care of the issues that have arisen and I (hopefully) have many, many more years to take care of myself in a loving, caring way.It helps so much to just write stuff out to you guys!

Sue--