Why do I feel like such a loser?

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Does everyone here have the something's wrong with me complex? I hate this so

much, holds me back and ruins opportunities. Don't feel comfortable around

people, perfectionistic and can't do anything good enough. I'm driving MYSELF

crazy now.

Yet, I run a successful business and am earning my master's. People like me and

invite me to more things than I can attend. My kids love me and husband wants

to spend time together over other options.

Why can't I just GET OVER IT??? Deep down inside, I feel so sorry for something

I can't define, maybe the fact that these people in my family can't be what I

wish for them? I want to spend time together and have fun, but my ideal never

happens(even when I adjust it down to the lowest levels of just getting along at

all).

I think I'll sign off and go take one of those BPD tests myself. Funny thing

is, I have taken the actual full-length MMPI test for mental disorders,

personality, etc. TWICE! I score normal but defensive and overly private, in

other words holding myself back around other people a bit. No, really?

Am I allowed to ask if I'm BPD on here?