Re: Re: the little things slap you in the face

[Guest guest]

Yes ma'am, I have those creepy experiences. So on the agenda for tomorrow

I'm going to talk to T about defining families - " family " to me is a

frightening, yucky, violent word that means pain is on its way. . . She says

I need to begin to realize that I have made my own wonderful family. . .

On Sun, Nov 7, 2010 at 11:05 AM, anuria67854 wrote:

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> Not to worry, sometimes RL necessities get in the way. Glad you're back.

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> Yep. I have experienced that sort of thing. Sometimes a memory or

> realization is triggered by observing friends or acquaintances interacting

> with each other in sweet, caring ways. Sometimes watching a movie does that

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> I've even been propelled into a flashback by watching my nada interacting

> with some small children. That was an eerie experience. I actually had the

> sensation that suddenly I was floating somewhere above and behind my own

> body as I observed my nada deliberately ignoring one child and hurting the

> child's feelings as she totally focused on a different child.

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> -Annie

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> > Hi All, So sorry I have been MIA (not that you all missed me, lol), but I

> have been drowning in school and depositions lately.

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> > Anyway, I have a new nanny and she is soooo good with the kids. She's 22

> and the sweetest girl ever. So today I took her home for a few off days

> since she's been here for a week and her mom was really glad to see her. She

> hugged her and told her she missed her. Then she handed her her mail and

> said, " it looks like you have something from the college there. " This girl

> goes to online school.

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> > And immediately, I thought, " Wow, my mother would have opened every,

> single piece of mail with my name on it she could.! " And then I said it. I

> don't know, but it flew out of my mouth and her mom said, " Well, it has her

> name on it and she's an adult, so I don't invade her privacy. "

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> > Man, how something so little can be so eye opening to me. When I was 21,

> I had to go get a PO Box because my mother was opening my mail. When she

> found out, she accused me of all kinds of things....badgered me for months

> on what I was hiding and even claimed she had " friends " who worked at the

> post office that were going to call and " tell on me. "

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> > Does this happen to you? You're going along your day and then something

> so benign feels like it cuts to your core? To a typical person, these little

> things aren't a huge deal, but when mixed with a BPD mother who never

> respected my privacy and combined with all the other weird crap she

> did...it's all very damaging.

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