Negative self talk and anxiety-one of many fleas

[Guest guest]

I have digressed back from my healthy mind set of NC with nada and have found

myself in an anxiety riddled depression. I have had several panic attacks at

work over simple, small details such as a broken AC or low tire pressure in my

car. I have seen a doctor, who prescribed to me some low dosage anti anxiety

medication. I am seeing a therapist(which I changed) and have started my workout

routine again. Still, I find myself throwing a pity party. I am constantly

telling myself " My life sucks. It will never get better. " Instead of being proud

of myself for working out and working through my anxiety and depression, I find

myself saying " Only one week is not going to make it better. " And of cours,

whenever I try to put a face to the negative speak, my nada clearly comes to my

mind.

Now its starting to affect my relationship with my husband. We are not

connecting anymore and I know that is all due to me. He has been so patient with

me during this process, and I keep pushing him away. This is clearly because

almost everyone that I have trusted has hurt me. I am becoming harsh and am

afraid to be vulnerable. I am starting to become everything I hate.

Anyone have any simple strategies? Anything would help

AJ