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I've been away for some time from the board... dealing with a normal life and

maining LC with nada... until 48 hours ago.

Need input.

48 hours ago I spoke to Nada for the first time sinc July 11. She spent 20

minutes on, 'Im sorry.. I've been horrible to you your whole life... I've done

so much damage... I'm sorry... I love you.... Please let's find a way....I've

been seeing a therapist 2x a week for 4 months and know now how badly I messed

you up " etc. etc. etc. I held boundaries firm. " Thank you mom but, honestly, I

don't believe " I'm sorry " fixes or changes things. I don't trust you now. I

love you but you've done too much damage for me to make me and teen vulnerable

again wihtout demonstrating sincere and tangible change.... "

She didn't rage. She didn't waif. She said, " I understand that and will do

whatever it takes. " I then mentioned BPD.

GASP!

Here's where my world stopped spinning.

" I've heard of that. 15 years ago another therapist told me I had that... "

Fellow KO's...... SHE KNEW????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've spoken to my therapist. Am told to expect a whole lot of anger.

Lynnette - feeling like a wounded fool. She knew. She knows. But it wasn't

enough to keep her from acting up on me or her grandchild. Now what?