I have to say this to you guys!

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Tell me if you can connect to this. I was just watching a movie--okay--where

a lady leaves her baby on a stoop and abandons it. Normal, I get this

doesn't bug me one bit. Then a caring and concerned priest picks it up and

has compassion for it and I start crying so baaaaad.

So for a long time in my life it's not the cruelty that gets me but when I

see an act of kindness, real or fictional, it tears me up!

Am I the only one? It hurts me because human kindness is rare! How is this

possible?!

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> Hmmm. I am still finding how to organize all my history (47 yrs.) in face

> of knowing now that my mother, sister and sadly my daughter are diagnosed

> BPD. I only found out 2 yrs ago.

> I left home at 18yrs. I moved across country from PA to CA at 20 yrs. For

> most of my life I have cutoff my mother, definitely my sister and for the

> last 18 mths my daughter (18yr.) hasn't initiated any contact directly to me

> or her sisters. I could " rescue " her by doing the contact myself but I know

> she needs to learn to do for heself and not to get " stuck in her emotions " .

> And after all this time she really needs to understand the cost of cutting

> off. I didn't cutoff my nada until it was so past time being absolutely

> necessary. I am feeling very good with my separation to my nada. I am not

> angry or enmeshed(although I would be if in relationship)I love her very

> much but ahe made to determination not to be well and to continue being

> abusive.

> I consider my position as evolved. I am not plagued by guilt because I

> chose to care for myself and my family. Of course my nada never once said

> she was sorry or that she ever had any ownership- it was always me! So my

> situation is pretty black and white. And the times I have had her visit have

> always ended up as complete F***ing nightmares. So I am really clear.

> Sue

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