RE: hi! my name is cynthia~~~Hello & Welcome ! ! !

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Hi , We are glad to have YOU join US!!! I am and I was once active

like yourself,cycling, martial arts, vollyball and all despite loosing my left

hip joint due to osteomyolitis, Butt following my 1st hip-replacement I became

sedintary and unable to due all the things I once enjoyed.

Following the sudden death of my 1st wife due to a presumable accidental drug

overdose of antideppressants for postpartum depression my life was engulphed in

a whirlwind of depression and suicidal wreckless behavoir.

THE Professionals failed to recognise my state of PTSS.

I HATE labels especialy the LAZY & CRAZY ones. Like you I feel like a 70yr old

in a 43yr old body. All of my muscles were being pulled in evry direction

yesterday and lastnight as the results of doing just a few of what are commonly

considered evryday routine chores. So you can see I relate to what

you have written! I HOPE You find the Love, encouragement that I've

found since joining.

GOD Bless YOU ! ! ! . . . ............................ . . .

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group@...: cidersfancy@...:

Sat, 5 Jan 2008 21:53:10 +0000Subject: hi! my name is cynthia

afternoon everyone!my name is cynthia. i am almost 43 y/o, live in western ny,

have 6 children, am almost divorces and live in pain everyday of my life. i have

been like this for what seems like an eternity. i have been diagnosised with

rhymatoid arthiritis and now osteo as well. i have type 2 diabetes and fall in

the criteria and then some for fibro. it runs in my family, about 5 of my

cousins of various levels of being related have been diagnosised. i see a

rhymotologist and his n.p. is my primary when i go there. i am on methotrexate 8

pills a week, as well as many many many other meds for the pain and diabetes...i

know what i have. i know that for some reason the n.p doesn;t want to diagnosis

me with the fibro. i don;t know why. i can;t work anymore, as i can;t stand, for

long periods, or sit or even lay down. i don;t sleep well, i have a hard time

thinking, i hurt, am stiffer then a body that has been dead for 100 years and it

takes forever to get the siffness out. i swell, my hands and my feet alwasy seem

to feel like they are balloons. my jaw hurts, feels tight or like i am grinding

my teeth, i get headaches...i feel like i have the flu all the time. i ache, i

hurt, i am tired, so bad that getting up to take a shower is an effort. i am

depressed as i can not do the things i used to enjoy...crocheting, crafting,

embroidery, swimming ( although floating feels SO good )hiking, walking, riding

my bike, the last time i went dancing i made it to the floor did one turn around

and had to sit down, we wound up going home early due to the pain, even shopping

or lunch with my friends is too much strain for me anymore.... chasing my kids

around, whatever...i feel like i am a 300 y/o woman trapped in a young woman's

body. i don't understand why i cna't get diagnosised and get started on the path

of healing or even just releiving the pain. i know, you probably have all gone

thru this...so tell me, how do you get a doctor to listen and acknowledge these

symptoms? how do you get someone to help you? how do you feel just a little bit

human? how do you manage to explain to people you aren't lazy or trying to get

out of stuff, that you are sick...in pain....that you feel like your muscles are

being pulled into 18 different directions and the fire shots of pain you feel

aren't all in your head? am i crazy? have i lost my mind? did i die and this is

a form of hell for whatever transgression i may have made? sigh...anyways, i

hope to find friendship here and be able to be honest and open with others in

the same boat as me...so until then, i hope you are all able to enjoy the

evening and that your weekend is full of love and ease of pain....cynthia

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[Guest guest]

thakn you john..and i hope you are feeling better soon...i've gotten to the

point of just thinking, " life is too short ot sit on the sidelines anymore...so

let's chair dance! " lol! enjoy your evening!

cynthia

john honeycutt wrote:

Hi , We are glad to have YOU join US!!! I am and I was once active

like yourself,cycling, martial arts, vollyball and all despite loosing my left

hip joint due to osteomyolitis, Butt following my 1st hip-replacement I became

sedintary and unable to due all the things I once enjoyed.

Following the sudden death of my 1st wife due to a presumable accidental drug

overdose of antideppressants for postpartum depression my life was engulphed in

a whirlwind of depression and suicidal wreckless behavoir.

THE Professionals failed to recognise my state of PTSS.

I HATE labels especialy the LAZY & CRAZY ones. Like you I feel like a 70yr old

in a 43yr old body. All of my muscles were being pulled in evry direction

yesterday and lastnight as the results of doing just a few of what are commonly

considered evryday routine chores. So you can see I relate to what

you have written! I HOPE You find the Love, encouragement that I've

found since joining.

GOD Bless YOU ! ! ! . . . ............................ . . .

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group@...: cidersfancy@...:

Sat, 5 Jan 2008 21:53:10 +0000Subject: hi! my name is cynthia

afternoon everyone!my name is cynthia. i am almost 43 y/o, live in western ny,

have 6 children, am almost divorces and live in pain everyday of my life. i have

been like this for what seems like an eternity. i have been diagnosised with

rhymatoid arthiritis and now osteo as well. i have type 2 diabetes and fall in

the criteria and then some for fibro. it runs in my family, about 5 of my

cousins of various levels of being related have been diagnosised. i see a

rhymotologist and his n.p. is my primary when i go there. i am on methotrexate 8

pills a week, as well as many many many other meds for the pain and diabetes...i

know what i have. i know that for some reason the n.p doesn;t want to diagnosis

me with the fibro. i don;t know why. i can;t work anymore, as i can;t stand, for

long periods, or sit or even lay down. i don;t sleep well, i have a hard time

thinking, i hurt, am stiffer then a body that has been dead for 100 years and it

takes forever to get the siffness out. i

swell, my hands and my feet alwasy seem to feel like they are balloons. my jaw

hurts, feels tight or like i am grinding my teeth, i get headaches...i feel like

i have the flu all the time. i ache, i hurt, i am tired, so bad that getting up

to take a shower is an effort. i am depressed as i can not do the things i used

to enjoy...crocheting, crafting, embroidery, swimming ( although floating feels

SO good )hiking, walking, riding my bike, the last time i went dancing i made it

to the floor did one turn around and had to sit down, we wound up going home

early due to the pain, even shopping or lunch with my friends is too much strain

for me anymore.... chasing my kids around, whatever...i feel like i am a 300 y/o

woman trapped in a young woman's body. i don't understand why i cna't get

diagnosised and get started on the path of healing or even just releiving the

pain. i know, you probably have all gone thru this...so tell me, how do you get

a doctor to listen and acknowledge

these symptoms? how do you get someone to help you? how do you feel just a

little bit human? how do you manage to explain to people you aren't lazy or

trying to get out of stuff, that you are sick...in pain....that you feel like

your muscles are being pulled into 18 different directions and the fire shots of

pain you feel aren't all in your head? am i crazy? have i lost my mind? did i

die and this is a form of hell for whatever transgression i may have made?

sigh...anyways, i hope to find friendship here and be able to be honest and open

with others in the same boat as me...so until then, i hope you are all able to

enjoy the evening and that your weekend is full of love and ease of

pain....cynthia

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