Suicide... and sensitive topic about my beliefs...

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Please if you read this do not take it as if I am trying to make others believe

what I do. I am only telling you how I have made sense out of life. I respect

all religions, beliefs, and lack of beliefs. I would not lose a single friend

here for the sake of pushing those beliefs on anyone.

Just my take on it. OK?

Suicide. I tried it too many times. It was not the thing to do. I will

never do it again. I believe that God did not want me to go or I would have. I

had one attempt in particular that should have been fatal and would have been if

there were not some kind of devine intervetion from somewhere.

Ok... Now I also realize how many people I would have hurt if I had succeeded.

My little girl was one of them. She was about 2 at the time. I did send her

with my sister before I attempted such an idiotic thing. I at least had that

much sense. I had also called her father to come and pick her up from Oklahoma

and he was on his way to my sister's to get her. I was somehow thinking she

would not know the difference later because she would not remember me. (it

would have hurt her... I know that now).

Now, the afterlife belief. I have pondered this much. In my belief, the

afterlife for suicide is some kind of limbo. I don't necessarily believe I

would have burned in hell. I do, however, believe that I would have been in a

place that was not pleasant. I do believe in spirits, or ghosts or whatever you

want to call it. I think that some people do remain in a realm where they don't

cross over and stay in limbo with unresolved issues and sudden deaths that were

not meant to be. Of course, I don't have all the answers and never will. But I

believe that I am intended to be here through all the never ending trials of my

life along with the fibro and all. There is some purpose to it though I don't

know exactly what or why.

Just some thoughts. And I don't mind if others have a different belief. It

does not make you wrong and make me right just because I believe in god. I am

not all knowing and all seeing as there are some on this earth who believe they

are. (but, I will respect that too... because it is their belief system). I

say live and let live in peace and acceptance.

love and hugs,

Debra V.

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Hi everyone,

I have these thoughts once a month. I am in so much pain that I can not handle

it any more. I did try also, but I was a teenager. Now, when I am in pain, I

ask for God's help and I remember my 8 year old son. He only has me and his

father is not around. Plus, if something happens to me, I do not want my

ex-husband fighting my parents for custody of my son. Keep strong guys! We

will get through this together.

Lussia

God Bless You!

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