Re: Anxious

[Guest guest]

Hope things went OK, Melody. I get anxious about stuff like that ahead of

time, too.

Jeanne in WI

> We're about to go out and I'm a little nervous. I don't usually go out

> anymore because it hurts to sit in those chairs for long. I've been kind

> of dreading this all day but we said we'd go and be designated driver.

> Well hubby said he would drive. I just hope I don't hurt all evening and

> ruin everyone else's fun. I just usually pretend, even when I hurt bad.

>

> I'm kind of depressed this week, I've felt pretty worthless and I just

> can't seem to do or say anything right lately! Then I did very little in

> the way of cleaning this week so the housework has suffered. Some days I

> just want to be a little more normal. I always feel like the dud, and

> wonder if perhaps hubby got the raw end of the deal with me. I jokingly

> say 'would you like to trade me in?' he of course says no, and is always

> so understanding and patient with me. Would his life have been better

> with a non fibro person? The house would be MUCH cleaner I'm sure. There

> would be two incomes too.

>

> I took one aleve. I hurt today, probably should have taken more than just

> one.

>

> Okay well I'm off. Can't wait til Sunday morning church. I always feel

> like church helps me feel better when I'm conflicted or depressed. Then I

> can be 'Sunshine' again. I hope......

>

> Have a good evening,

>

> Melody

[Guest guest]

It went better than I thought! I thought for sure today I'd be paying

dearly, but amazingly I feel really good today.

We went to a bar, so there was a LOT of cigarette smoke. So today I'm

clogged, eyes burn, and my voice is deep.

We danced a little, but my body feels pretty good today! I'm tender to

the touch on certain areas, but I don't have that flare type pain all

over, I don't have that 'beaten by a baseball bat' feeling, so maybe

laughing til my sides hurt is good medicine.

I drank one beer, but my tolerance is low so that was enough to make me

laugh and forget about the fibro.

I had fun. It's been a long time since we went out to a bar and danced.

Dave and Jeanne wrote:

> Hope things went OK, Melody. I get anxious about stuff like that ahead of

> time, too.

> Jeanne in WI

>

>

[Guest guest]

Hi Melody,

I so glad you had a good time. It's great that you got out and danced some

and had a beer and laughed. I think that is good medicine. Got your mind off

of IT for a bit.

I'm doubly glad that you aren't paying for it too much. I would have been

afraid of the payback too. I'm sorry for all the cigarette smoke. Don't think

I could take that. Connecticut is a smoke free state.

I hope you remain payback free.

Marti

Melody wrote:

It went better than I thought! I thought for sure today I'd be paying

dearly, but amazingly I feel really good today.

We went to a bar, so there was a LOT of cigarette smoke. So today I'm

clogged, eyes burn, and my voice is deep.

We danced a little, but my body feels pretty good today! I'm tender to

the touch on certain areas, but I don't have that flare type pain all

over, I don't have that 'beaten by a baseball bat' feeling, so maybe

laughing til my sides hurt is good medicine.

I drank one beer, but my tolerance is low so that was enough to make me

laugh and forget about the fibro.

I had fun. It's been a long time since we went out to a bar and danced.

Dave and Jeanne wrote:

> Hope things went OK, Melody. I get anxious about stuff like that ahead of

> time, too.

> Jeanne in WI

>

>

[Guest guest]

I'm an ex smoker, and normally being around a smoker doesn't bother me.

But when it is a bar filled with smoke, it seeps into my clothes and

hair. Then it takes forever to get the smell out.

Today my voice is all deep and hoarse, reminding me of when I DID smoke

and would have a late night with too many ciggies. But I didn't smoke,

I just breathed in enough second hand I guess.

I still don't hurt much. It's mostly sinuses and pressure, but the body

isn't complaining. I'm starting to wonder if I'm in the twilight zone.

Marti Boguski wrote:

> Hi Melody,

> I so glad you had a good time. It's great that you got out and danced some

and had a beer and laughed. I think that is good medicine. Got your mind off

of IT for a bit.

> I'm doubly glad that you aren't paying for it too much. I would have been

afraid of the payback too. I'm sorry for all the cigarette smoke. Don't think

I could take that. Connecticut is a smoke free state.

> I hope you remain payback free.

> Marti

>

>

[Guest guest]

I know what you mean about the Twilight Zone. If I ever get a pain free day or

a day when the brain fog has lifted I don't know what to do with myself.

~~~~~~~~~~weird.

The second hand smoke is a gross thing. I'm sorry it bothered you so much. I

hope your sinuses feel better soon. I started out at Christmas with a sinus

infection that went into bronchitis and now is pneumonia complicated by my

sarcoidosis (lung disease), so I know how the sinus pressure can be really bad.

Probably the smoke did that to you too.

I hope you continue to not hurt and that your sinuses get better soon.

Marti

Melody wrote:

I'm an ex smoker, and normally being around a smoker doesn't bother

me.

But when it is a bar filled with smoke, it seeps into my clothes and

hair. Then it takes forever to get the smell out.

Today my voice is all deep and hoarse, reminding me of when I DID smoke

and would have a late night with too many ciggies. But I didn't smoke,

I just breathed in enough second hand I guess.

I still don't hurt much. It's mostly sinuses and pressure, but the body

isn't complaining. I'm starting to wonder if I'm in the twilight zone.

Marti Boguski wrote:

> Hi Melody,

> I so glad you had a good time. It's great that you got out and danced some and

had a beer and laughed. I think that is good medicine. Got your mind off of IT

for a bit.

> I'm doubly glad that you aren't paying for it too much. I would have been

afraid of the payback too. I'm sorry for all the cigarette smoke. Don't think I

could take that. Connecticut is a smoke free state.

> I hope you remain payback free.

> Marti

>

>

[Guest guest]

I cleaned like a mad woman. If I have a good day, I take full advantage

of it by cleaning like crazy. Sure it means I'll pay dearly tomorrow

but at least my house is clean.

Marti Boguski wrote:

> I know what you mean about the Twilight Zone. If I ever get a pain free day

or a day when the brain fog has lifted I don't know what to do with myself.

~~~~~~~~~~weird.

> The second hand smoke is a gross thing. I'm sorry it bothered you so much.

I hope your sinuses feel better soon. I started out at Christmas with a sinus

infection that went into bronchitis and now is pneumonia complicated by my

sarcoidosis (lung disease), so I know how the sinus pressure can be really bad.

Probably the smoke did that to you too.

> I hope you continue to not hurt and that your sinuses get better soon.

> Marti

>

>

[Guest guest]

Wow are you industrious Melody. Good for you.

Me now if I ever get a pain and fog free day and I guess I do sometimes, I'm

sure I would play. Maybe go out to meet a friend. Or read a good book I

haven't been able to understand with the fog. Or just dance around the house.

Gosh anything fun would be great! Not a lot of fun in my life right now, but I

do OK.

Marti

Melody wrote:

I cleaned like a mad woman. If I have a good day, I take full advantage

of it by cleaning like crazy. Sure it means I'll pay dearly tomorrow

but at least my house is clean.

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