Re: In a very bad and scary situation, asking 4 prayer and advice if possible.

[Guest guest]

Oh my dear Laurie! I feel all of this.. there is so much here that I

couldn't stop the pain and fear and I am all shook up..

My intuition says for you to get out.. But I understand this

situation.. truly I do..

But dear heart.. I (SEE)third eye... SOOOO much anger and abuse here..

am I wrong? I feel total terror.. What I (SEE) I need to talk to you

about privately..

You are all in my prayers dear heart..

BUT PLEASE EMAIL ME ASAP..As I have to talk to you.. Spirit speaks and

must be heard.. Please..!!

Love

~Karma

>

> Hi everyone big hugs to u all. Sorry I havn't been around much but I

> nedd advice and prayer cuz i'm not sure what to do.Some of u know some

> of this already ,people who have been in the group 4 a while.

> It's pretty complicated but it boils down to my boyfriend of 7

> years(wicth has been a very toxic relationship )2 Mondays ago they

> found a large mass in his lung ,maybe 3 making it apear as just one

> 18mm lg . He has emphazema and he's been in great pain. He refused to

> go to a doctor 4 years till it got this bad . Now it might be to late.

> Night sweats, can't breath. He also has a cyst or something on his

liver.

> Per his decession they have decided to take the nodule out of his lung

> this Thursday.. his lymph nodes r affected and he's positive e 4 hep

> c. I was very ill before now (it's all in my Blogs),I'm fine I'm

> driving, skating,even working at my friends tattoo shop., but as a

> favor ,not getting paid yet.I can't loose my disability or I'm screwed

> free medical and meds.Medicare Low income. Seth, my boyfriend has been

> living to paycheck to paycheck to pay rent and feed us. He's probably

> going to have to stop working he's in to much pain and is too sick. In

> his current state, not that he wasn't before,has become extremely

> abusive though I know alot of it comes from fear and the hep c. the

> possible cancer might be messing with his mind as well but 2 night ago

> he kicked my dog out of the way she fell against a table and

> everything fell on top of her. I was at work. She is an abused rescue

> ,11 years old and a cancer surviver of 3 years now.When I got home she

> couldn't see straight, she couldn't hold herself up ,her legs would go

> out from under her.She had a panic attack he said and possibly a

> stoke. He said he saw red and couldn't control it from work and the

> people not taking him seriously or caring. .All my animals r terrified

> but my sweet Luna is gone right now.She just not the same I took her

> to the vet the next morning. took x-rays and said shes in pain and

> completely tramatised .It's hard to forgive him she is my child and my

> familiar,but he needs me now as much as I 'd like to leave I have no

> where to go and he took care of me after my spinal fusion.I am in

> depted while everything is crashing down around me. This is the

> scariest feeling ever cuz I'm feeling helpless.

> Thank u

> and much Love to all my brothers and sisters in light.

> Laurie

>

[Guest guest]

Laurie honey, if there's any kind of fear or threat of danger

to you, or your children (pets) then it would be best to get

away from him. If it gets to a point of fear then that bypasses any

obligation you feel towards him for staying with you during your spinal

fusion recovery. Making sure that you're ok is the most important

thing...no matter what.Love alwaysStef>> Hi everyone big hugs to u all. Sorry I havn't been around much but I> nedd advice and prayer cuz i'm not sure what to do.Some of u know some> of this already ,people who have been in the group 4 a while.> It's pretty complicated but it boils down to my boyfriend of 7> years(wicth has been a very toxic relationship )2 Mondays ago they> found a large mass in his lung ,maybe 3 making it apear as just one> 18mm lg . He has emphazema and he's been in great pain. He refused to> go to a doctor 4 years till it got this bad . Now it might be to late.> Night sweats, can't breath. He also has a cyst or something on his liver.> Per his decession they have decided to take the nodule out of his lung> this Thursday.. his lymph nodes r affected and he's positive e 4 hep> c. I was very ill before now (it's all in my Blogs),I'm fine I'm> driving, skating,even working at my friends tattoo shop., but as a> favor ,not getting paid yet.I can't loose my disability or I'm screwed> free medical and meds.Medicare Low income. Seth, my boyfriend has been> living to paycheck to paycheck to pay rent and feed us. He's probably> going to have to stop working he's in to much pain and is too sick. In> his current state, not that he wasn't before,has become extremely> abusive though I know alot of it comes from fear and the hep c. the> possible cancer might be messing with his mind as well but 2 night ago> he kicked my dog out of the way she fell against a table and> everything fell on top of her. I was at work. She is an abused rescue> ,11 years old and a cancer surviver of 3 years now.When I got home she> couldn't see straight, she couldn't hold herself up ,her legs would go> out from under her.She had a panic attack he said and possibly a> stoke. He said he saw red and couldn't control it from work and the> people not taking him seriously or caring. .All my animals r terrified> but my sweet Luna is gone right now.She just not the same I took her> to the vet the next morning. took x-rays and said shes in pain and> completely tramatised .It's hard to forgive him she is my child and my> familiar,but he needs me now as much as I 'd like to leave I have no> where to go and he took care of me after my spinal fusion.I am in> depted while everything is crashing down around me. This is the> scariest feeling ever cuz I'm feeling helpless.> Thank u > and much Love to all my brothers and sisters in light.> Laurie>