Re: Does someone have some happy pills I can borrow?

[Guest guest]

Amy, I am so sorry. I can relate. I wonder from day to day to just how this

thing will progress with me. It has been 10 times worse just in the last 5

years. I am 43.... I use to be pretty energetic, liked to go out and have a

good time, could wake up in the morning without pain and not feel exhausted all

the time. Oh how I have changed.

But we don't all progress the same. I guess we just take one day at a time.

The car wreck is definately what probably put this FM into motion for you.

However, I wonder if it would have happened anyway at some point..... I believe

it is a disease that will rear its ugly head sometime no matter what. But I

sure understand the anger with the person who you had the wreck with.

I can't tie mine down to any specific event. I can tie it to a string of life

events that came one after another and were just emotionally traumatic.

I understand the anger and fear that you have.

hugs,

Debra V.

Amy Brand wrote:

I am so tired of being in this pain....and sometimes reading all the

posts makes me think of

all the things to come & I just wonder what things will be like when I'm 70. I

am so depressed

today. It is coming up on the 3rd year anniversary of my auto accident that left

me with this

condition. I always wonder what if. I am so different then I am now. I don't

have the energy

or motivation to do anything anymore. The girl that hit me has NO IDEA what has

happened

to me & that really upsets me. She should know.

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[Guest guest]

I wish I did, Amy. Sorry you are feeling so down and worried about the

future. I think if we look too far ahead it is scary and worries us and

gets us more depressed. Try to just take things one day at a time. In

regards to the girl who hit you in the accident, have you ever written her a

letter to vent about your life since then? You don't even have to send it,

but just getting it all out on paper might help unburden you some. Good

luck.

Jeanne in WI

>I am so tired of being in this pain....and sometimes reading all the posts

>makes me think of

> all the things to come & I just wonder what things will be like when I'm

> 70. I am so depressed

> today. It is coming up on the 3rd year anniversary of my auto accident

> that left me with this

> condition. I always wonder what if. I am so different then I am now. I

> don't have the energy

> or motivation to do anything anymore. The girl that hit me has NO IDEA

> what has happened

> to me & that really upsets me. She should know.

[Guest guest]

Yes....I do that all the time. I am a big writer & I also journal.....I write

songs also.

So...yeh....I can get it out on paper...but I just still don't feel closure. I

am coming up on

the anniversary of it in a few days.

Anyway...I have only been " diagnosed " now for a few weeks. I feel like crap &

have not had

a good day yet. I just want to get some meds working for me so I can get some

relief &

TRY to get my life back.

Thanks everyone!

>

> I wish I did, Amy. Sorry you are feeling so down and worried about the

> future. I think if we look too far ahead it is scary and worries us and

> gets us more depressed. Try to just take things one day at a time. In

> regards to the girl who hit you in the accident, have you ever written her a

> letter to vent about your life since then? You don't even have to send it,

> but just getting it all out on paper might help unburden you some. Good

> luck.

> Jeanne in WI

>

>

> >I am so tired of being in this pain....and sometimes reading all the posts

> >makes me think of

> > all the things to come & I just wonder what things will be like when I'm

> > 70. I am so depressed

> > today. It is coming up on the 3rd year anniversary of my auto accident

> > that left me with this

> > condition. I always wonder what if. I am so different then I am now. I

> > don't have the energy

> > or motivation to do anything anymore. The girl that hit me has NO IDEA

> > what has happened

> > to me & that really upsets me. She should know.

>

[Guest guest]

Amy,

I can relate (sort of); my pcp has verbally dx'd me but because I'm

already out of work on disability for several other chronic issues

(and of course, fighting SSI), they want the rheum to make that call.

The good thing is, because they know I'm in pain, they gave me

robaxin and also darvocet. The bad thing is, because I have 8 yr old

twins, I can't take the darvocet until daddy is home because I fall

asleep (the robaxin relaxes me but doesn't put me to sleep). So I

can't get ahead of the pain and it's making me kind of witchy and

because I know it, I'm being very quiet. Horrible circle to be in.

Plus our flipping weather changed.....again. I think that's what has

me in this flare. But if it helps get me dx'd, I'll tough it out.

I think that every day I get out of bed, regardless of how stiff,

sore, achy or just plain hurting I am, is a successful day. There are

people who are far worse than I am, so I try to remember that (but

it's not easy when everything's throbbing and there's nothing you'd

like better than to just find the magic button to make it stop!) I

may not get much more done than a shower and the bed made, but if I

chill out and try to relax after dropping off my kids, I am able to

cook dinner, etc. later that day.

I am finding I can no longer " cram " days like I used to - I pay for

it for days. As an example, yesterday it was my daughter's turn to go

to Marcus Institute (for kids with FAS, etc.) for her annual testing

(something the birth parents and foster parents should have done but

I guess that's why DH and I are the final parents, huh?). Anyhow,

it's about 60 miles one way, I have my rt thumb in a splint due to a

dog bit to the joint, my left arm is aching from the tetanus shot and

I ache all over from the " alleged " FM. We spend 4 hours up there then

drive back down to our neck of the woods for her play therapy (they

suffered abuse, etc. and she was the one most affected; he has slight

mental retardation which is actually a blessing for him, I suppose;

she took the brunt); then after that, got home and put together the

rest of the goodies for a baby shower I was attending (dinner for

them was reheats from Monday's dinner). Got home around 9pm. FINALLY

took the pain meds. Have been draggin' butt all day today. So I know

I " did too much " on Tuesday. I'm just going to have to schedule

better......

The good news is....I am going to the rheumatologist next Thurs 17th

so may have some answers pretty soon. I would ask for folks to cross

their fingers, etc., but I know how painful that can be, so positive

thoughts and prayers are appreciated!

Darlene

> >

> > I wish I did, Amy. Sorry you are feeling so down and worried

about the

> > future. I think if we look too far ahead it is scary and worries

us and

> > gets us more depressed. Try to just take things one day at a

time. In

> > regards to the girl who hit you in the accident, have you ever

written her a

> > letter to vent about your life since then? You don't even have

to send it,

> > but just getting it all out on paper might help unburden you

some. Good

> > luck.

> > Jeanne in WI

> >

> >

> > >I am so tired of being in this pain....and sometimes reading all

the posts

> > >makes me think of

> > > all the things to come & I just wonder what things will be like

when I'm

> > > 70. I am so depressed

> > > today. It is coming up on the 3rd year anniversary of my auto

accident

> > > that left me with this

> > > condition. I always wonder what if. I am so different then I am

now. I

> > > don't have the energy

> > > or motivation to do anything anymore. The girl that hit me has

NO IDEA

> > > what has happened

> > > to me & that really upsets me. She should know.

> >

>