Venting!!!

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It is Saturday and just as it always does the day after my husband's

paycheck is in the bank, he has ALL of these errands HE JUST HAS TO

run. I will admit, we talk about some of them the night before, but

at this point I am getting more and more hurt feelings. He will get

up, take his shower, get dressed and then tell me ALL of the long

list of places he is going, ask if I want anything and then leave.

Now my problem is that I almost never have had much if any sleep the

night before and when I hear him in the shower and drag myself out of

bed, I hurt all over. And that seems to be when the pain is at it's

highest level. Another thing about these Saturdays is that I do wish

he would take his cell phone so that should I need to, I could call

him!!!

But, also, if he DIDN'T have to GO so soon after getting up and would

wait at least an hour, he might find out, just as I am now, that I

could get my shower, dressed and go with him!!!

But I guess I have also realized that there is nothing stopping me

from taking the shower, getting dressed and leaving for 5 or 6

hours. And I could do nothing but run to one or two stores and then

find a place to park and wait to see when he comes home, spent

another thirty minutes doing some of my own " errands " and see what he

thinks when he can't reach me.

I feel as if I am a baby sitting here feeling sorry for myself, but

this is a pattern that he has done since I guit working and it is

beginning to hurt my feelings more and more --- I think this is the

first time I have actually even put it in words and I know it is the

first time I have cried so hard!!!

Sorry for that, but it seems so unfair ==== and especially when he

COULD NOT AFFORD TO DO ALL HE DOES IF I DID NOT HAVE THE MONEY I

INHERITED FROM MY FAMILY, NOR COULD HE HAVE CHANGED JOBS SO OFTEN SO

HE COULD MOVE UP HAD I NOT HAD A DIVORCE SETTLEMENT WHEN WE GOT

MARRIED.

I just feel as if he has no consideration for how I feel!!!

Sorry, for this but I had to get it out.