Re: Suicide... and sensitive topic about my beliefs...

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> Please if you read this do not take it as if I am trying to make

others believe what I do. I am only telling you how I have made

sense out of life. I respect all religions, beliefs, and lack of

beliefs. I would not lose a single friend here for the sake of

pushing those beliefs on anyone.

> Just my take on it. OK?

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> Suicide. I tried it too many times. It was not the thing to

do. I will never do it again. I believe that God did not want me to

go or I would have. I had one attempt in particular that should have

been fatal and would have been if there were not some kind of devine

intervetion from somewhere.

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> Ok... Now I also realize how many people I would have hurt if I

had succeeded. My little girl was one of them. She was about 2 at

the time. I did send her with my sister before I attempted such an

idiotic thing. I at least had that much sense. I had also called

her father to come and pick her up from Oklahoma and he was on his

way to my sister's to get her. I was somehow thinking she would not

know the difference later because she would not remember me. (it

would have hurt her... I know that now).

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> Now, the afterlife belief. I have pondered this much. In my

belief, the afterlife for suicide is some kind of limbo. I don't

necessarily believe I would have burned in hell. I do, however,

believe that I would have been in a place that was not pleasant. I

do believe in spirits, or ghosts or whatever you want to call it. I

think that some people do remain in a realm where they don't cross

over and stay in limbo with unresolved issues and sudden deaths that

were not meant to be. Of course, I don't have all the answers and

never will. But I believe that I am intended to be here through all

the never ending trials of my life along with the fibro and all.

There is some purpose to it though I don't know exactly what or why.

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> Just some thoughts. And I don't mind if others have a different

belief. It does not make you wrong and make me right just because I

believe in god. I am not all knowing and all seeing as there are

some on this earth who believe they are. (but, I will respect that

too... because it is their belief system). I say live and let live

in peace and acceptance.

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> love and hugs,

> Debra V.

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