Re: Still hanging around

[Guest guest]

Hi Tammi, I'm like you, edit my posts and then I still don't send. I'm

always afraid I'll say the wrong thing or offend someone. It kind of

just gets easier to not post at all.

Sending gentle hugs to you!

Melody

bluesmokey72 wrote:

> I know I don't post often but I do still " lurk " here. I hope the whole

> religious discussion is at a close. It still makes me uncomfortable.

> I was new to the group and I said something " religious " once and was

> quickly called to accounting. I still haven't felt real comfortable

> writing a lot and I edit it twenty times before posting. Thought I

> would come in and update all that wish to know. School is underway

> with a big rush. Track, tennis, UIL, JROTC, and Folklorico all have

> things in the works and so lots of late practice for my two teens. Nic

> is still off any meds so we are thrilled with that. We are starting

> remodeling part of the house so I have been busy and sore with all

> that. We are doing it ourselves, not much choice since there really

> isn't a contractor in town. It's going to be a long year. I'm mostly

> resting today. I am trying hard not to overdo so that I can at least

> get the kids where they need to go and keep the house " decent " . I will

> try to check back in soon and in the meantime I will read through your

> posts.

>

> Tammi:)

>

[Guest guest]

Melody, thanks for the response. I don't usually get one, I know there

are just a lot of people and a lot of posts so..... Anyway, yeah,

it's hard to write anything without feeling strange. I have a real

phobia about sounding or saying anything stupid. I also am a little

parnoid about it as well. Thanks again for responding and making me

feel not so alone.

Tammi:)

[Guest guest]

I hear ya! And often feel that way too. Hang in there.

bluesmokey72 wrote:

> Melody, thanks for the response. I don't usually get one, I know there

> are just a lot of people and a lot of posts so..... Anyway, yeah,

> it's hard to write anything without feeling strange. I have a real

> phobia about sounding or saying anything stupid. I also am a little

> parnoid about it as well. Thanks again for responding and making me

> feel not so alone.

>

> Tammi:)

>

>

[Guest guest]

> > I know I don't post often but I do still " lurk " here. I hope the

whole

> > religious discussion is at a close. It still makes me

uncomfortable.

> > I was new to the group and I said something " religious " once and

was

> > quickly called to accounting. I still haven't felt real

comfortable

> > writing a lot and I edit it twenty times before posting. Thought

I

> > would come in and update all that wish to know. School is

underway

> > with a big rush. Track, tennis, UIL, JROTC, and Folklorico all

have

> > things in the works and so lots of late practice for my two

teens. Nic

> > is still off any meds so we are thrilled with that. We are

starting

> > remodeling part of the house so I have been busy and sore with

all

> > that. We are doing it ourselves, not much choice since there

really

> > isn't a contractor in town. It's going to be a long year. I'm

mostly

> > resting today. I am trying hard not to overdo so that I can at

least

> > get the kids where they need to go and keep the house " decent " .

I will

> > try to check back in soon and in the meantime I will read through

your

> > posts.

> >

> > Tammi:)

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I loved reading this, ! I'm a totally different person from the

mousy shy one in high school. I can be very outspoken and tell it like

it is, once I get to know you. I do speak my mind now, but I also put

my foot (sometimes BOTH feet) in my mouth more often than I'd like to.

I can blame 'the fog' for not being in my right mind. Because most

times I'll say something during a flare day and then later re-read it

and wonder why in the world I said that, and I'll feel so terrible!

Guilt triggers ibs in me, too, so that's not a good combination.

My heart is good and I like to make others happy, not hurt them. But

when my words hurt or upset someone, I beat up on myself more than

anyone in the world, plus end up with ibs potty issues, and sometimes I

end up so ashamed I'll end up leaving. Teaching myself that no matter

what I cannot please everyone and there will always be someone offended

by something, allows me to feel a bit more comfortable in coming out of

my shell.

I'm in a few women groups where I can totally be myself and let my hair

down, and it's awesome. I consider myself too new here to do that, and

don't want to step out of line while still a newbie. Which I already

have stepped out of line and kind of shrunk back into my mouse hole, so

to speak, trying to be ever so careful now.

I know once I establish a closeness and some friendships here it makes

it more comfortable to let down my guard a bit. But for now, I'll keep

trying to 'tip toe.' And baby step.

> There was a time when I kept my mouth shut, didn't write what I

> really felt or wanted to say. Somewhere over the years that changed -

> -- you could ask all of my classmates (we were the first kindergarten

> and another friend said earlier this week that she thinks they

> changed the name of our high school the fall after we graduated) --

> but there has always been a strange bond between us, however, when I

> finally had an opportunity to go to a class reunion, I think I

> shocked at least 85% of them. I know this has nothing to do with

> fibro, but the classmates who weren't at that reunion were heard

> saying they wished they had been there to see and hear what I said

> and did. So I finally at around the age of 40 had changed so much

> that at times I don't know myself. And I do still fear I will say

> the wrong thing here or that I will offend someone, but if I do, I

> would like to say here, that if I offend anyone, please send me a

> message to my personal email address so that I can explain or

> apologize for whatever may have been offensive.

> And yes, I know I get " long winded and don't know when to quit

> writing or talking!

>

>

[Guest guest]

HEY TAMMI, DON'T FEEL STUPID. NONE OF US KNOW WHAT'S REALLY HAPPENING TO OUR

BODIES WITH THIS MONSTER. THAT'S WHY WE HAV E EACH OTHER AND CAN SOUND OFF OR

BE A SOUNDING BOARD. FIRE AWAY.

GOD BLESS

LITTLE LINDA MORGAN FROM VEGAS

LINDA

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