Out Of It - Sorry not posting - Pathetic

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Hi gang,

I've been really out of it. I tried a few times to read and answer posts, but

my eyes along with everything else are just plain wonky. I'm supposed to go to

the eye specialist again this week, but my daughter has a bad crunch week at

work getting ready for a big meeting in Atlanta and I just can't take myself.

I'm typing because I can magnify the print to 200% but for some reason reading

the text if I magnify it, a lot of the message on the right is lost.

I've been down a lot of this week and so not own the computer much and I'm

still trying to make myself feel well. And prepare myself to start the Chemo

treatments.

Last evening my daughter Andi took me out to dinner to a " hip " place where you

mostly share several appetizers instead of ordering an entree. I guess it's a

new big thing because all the restaurants she suggested were that way. Then we

were going to that exhibit that's traveling the country called Bodies Revealed.

The restaurant was across the street from the exhibition center and there was

also a UCONN basketball game somewhere in the center, so everything was packed.

This is all new to me because I haven't ventured out too much into the " real "

world in several years. I go places with my son but usually it's right to

a play or theatre or concert (in a small venue) or comedian (we went to a

Poundstone last time out at Mohegan Sun Casino which is huge but not in the same

way as going into the city and it was in a small intimate theatre). Anyway Andi

and I ate and talked which was the first time I've done that with Andi in 10

years. She remains a bit aloof

most of the time and I have no idea what made her change and ask me to go out

with her. (She did have plans with a friend and called me Monday morning to say

she had cancelled and did I want to go but even that hasn't happened before -

the calling me part.) She's one who does what would look bad if she didn't do

it, but otherwise forget it - she doesn't let me in and doesn't want to get

involved in who I am. I wonder if it has something to do with how much

comes down from Boston to do things with me or take care of me and she lives

close and does just what is expected by whoever is watching or hearing about

what she does.

The food was good and the restaurant was fun but it was almost 9 before we got

our check. (They had valet parking since its in the city and it was $8 and she

said that it was because of the basketball game. Normally " the Max's " , the

restaurant, don't charge anything for valet service. This was my first valet

service and my first Max restaurant so I thought it was funny.) She and her

husband Joe and friends do this sort of thing all the time. By 9 I'm about dead

and we were going to have to walk 3 blocks uphill to the entrance we needed to

go into, in the cold. That part had never occurred to me or I wouldn't have gone

in the first place. I had already had the wave of fatigue come over me and when

she looked at me she noticed and said " well, now you look tired. " I hated to

ruin our time but I just didn't think I could do the walk and then do the

exhibit so I admitted that I was. She said she had a big day the next day at

work (and Aidan is still nursing during the

night) and probably wouldn't get much sleep so she was ready to go too. So we

didn't go to the exhibit and it seemed to be OK with her.

Today I am paying for sitting in a chair for so long and eating " fancy " food.

I am so exhausted and my back, neck, and shoulders hurt like hell. Also my IBS

is acting up and I have terrible cramps and am running back and forth to the

toilet that I have to watch carefully because yesterday it overflowed.

Thankfully today it is OK, after I plunged it a lot yesterday. Hey maybe that's

another reason my neck, back, etc. hurt. But when the IBS acts up I get really

shaky inside too and just feel like I have the flu. But I'll not tell Andi,

because I don't want her not to ask me again. Isn't that pathetic.

My eyes are just a nice little addition to the mix.

So this is my vent about why I'm not participating in the group right now. I

love you all and am sorry I'm not on here trying to help where I can. Hopefully

I will be doing that soon.

Marti

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Marti,

What can we do to help you with seeing the type here? I wonder if

there's a work-around to you losing some of the message content when

you enlarge the type. Do you read the posts online or get them in

your e-mail?

Anybody have any ideas?

girlsaylor

>

> Hi gang,

> I've been really out of it. I tried a few times to read and

answer posts, but my eyes along with everything else are just plain

wonky. I'm supposed to go to the eye specialist again this week, but

my daughter has a bad crunch week at work getting ready for a big

meeting in Atlanta and I just can't take myself. I'm typing because I

can magnify the print to 200% but for some reason reading the text if

I magnify it, a lot of the message on the right is lost.

>

> I've been down a lot of this week and so not own the computer

much and I'm still trying to make myself feel well. And prepare

myself to start the Chemo treatments.

>

> Last evening my daughter Andi took me out to dinner to a " hip "

place where you mostly share several appetizers instead of ordering

an entree. I guess it's a new big thing because all the restaurants

she suggested were that way. Then we were going to that exhibit

that's traveling the country called Bodies Revealed. The restaurant

was across the street from the exhibition center and there was also a

UCONN basketball game somewhere in the center, so everything was

packed. This is all new to me because I haven't ventured out too

much into the " real " world in several years. I go places with my son

but usually it's right to a play or theatre or concert (in a

small venue) or comedian (we went to a Poundstone last time out

at Mohegan Sun Casino which is huge but not in the same way as going

into the city and it was in a small intimate theatre). Anyway Andi

and I ate and talked which was the first time I've done that with

Andi in 10 years. She remains a bit aloof

> most of the time and I have no idea what made her change and ask

me to go out with her. (She did have plans with a friend and called

me Monday morning to say she had cancelled and did I want to go but

even that hasn't happened before - the calling me part.) She's one

who does what would look bad if she didn't do it, but otherwise

forget it - she doesn't let me in and doesn't want to get involved in

who I am. I wonder if it has something to do with how much

comes down from Boston to do things with me or take care of me and

she lives close and does just what is expected by whoever is watching

or hearing about what she does.

> The food was good and the restaurant was fun but it was almost 9

before we got our check. (They had valet parking since its in the

city and it was $8 and she said that it was because of the basketball

game. Normally " the Max's " , the restaurant, don't charge anything

for valet service. This was my first valet service and my first Max

restaurant so I thought it was funny.) She and her husband Joe and

friends do this sort of thing all the time. By 9 I'm about dead and

we were going to have to walk 3 blocks uphill to the entrance we

needed to go into, in the cold. That part had never occurred to me or

I wouldn't have gone in the first place. I had already had the wave

of fatigue come over me and when she looked at me she noticed and

said " well, now you look tired. " I hated to ruin our time but I just

didn't think I could do the walk and then do the exhibit so I

admitted that I was. She said she had a big day the next day at work

(and Aidan is still nursing during the

> night) and probably wouldn't get much sleep so she was ready to go

too. So we didn't go to the exhibit and it seemed to be OK with her.

>

> Today I am paying for sitting in a chair for so long and

eating " fancy " food. I am so exhausted and my back, neck, and

shoulders hurt like hell. Also my IBS is acting up and I have

terrible cramps and am running back and forth to the toilet that I

have to watch carefully because yesterday it overflowed. Thankfully

today it is OK, after I plunged it a lot yesterday. Hey maybe that's

another reason my neck, back, etc. hurt. But when the IBS acts up I

get really shaky inside too and just feel like I have the flu. But

I'll not tell Andi, because I don't want her not to ask me again.

Isn't that pathetic.

>

> My eyes are just a nice little addition to the mix.

>

> So this is my vent about why I'm not participating in the group

right now. I love you all and am sorry I'm not on here trying to

help where I can. Hopefully I will be doing that soon.

> Marti

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks for asking. I could magnify yours to 150% and see it. Evidently we

can't use large type to write a message and have it come through that way like

on some sites. So I don't know what can be done. I read the posts in my

e-mail.

Marti

jeribelle2000 wrote:

Marti,

What can we do to help you with seeing the type here? I wonder if

there's a work-around to you losing some of the message content when

you enlarge the type. Do you read the posts online or get them in

your e-mail?

Anybody have any ideas?

girlsaylor

>

> Hi gang,

> I've been really out of it. I tried a few times to read and

answer posts, but my eyes along with everything else are just plain

wonky. I'm supposed to go to the eye specialist again this week, but

my daughter has a bad crunch week at work getting ready for a big

meeting in Atlanta and I just can't take myself. I'm typing because I

can magnify the print to 200% but for some reason reading the text if

I magnify it, a lot of the message on the right is lost.

>

> I've been down a lot of this week and so not own the computer

much and I'm still trying to make myself feel well. And prepare

myself to start the Chemo treatments.

>

> Last evening my daughter Andi took me out to dinner to a " hip "

place where you mostly share several appetizers instead of ordering

an entree. I guess it's a new big thing because all the restaurants

she suggested were that way. Then we were going to that exhibit

that's traveling the country called Bodies Revealed. The restaurant

was across the street from the exhibition center and there was also a

UCONN basketball game somewhere in the center, so everything was

packed. This is all new to me because I haven't ventured out too

much into the " real " world in several years. I go places with my son

but usually it's right to a play or theatre or concert (in a

small venue) or comedian (we went to a Poundstone last time out

at Mohegan Sun Casino which is huge but not in the same way as going

into the city and it was in a small intimate theatre). Anyway Andi

and I ate and talked which was the first time I've done that with

Andi in 10 years. She remains a bit aloof

> most of the time and I have no idea what made her change and ask

me to go out with her. (She did have plans with a friend and called

me Monday morning to say she had cancelled and did I want to go but

even that hasn't happened before - the calling me part.) She's one

who does what would look bad if she didn't do it, but otherwise

forget it - she doesn't let me in and doesn't want to get involved in

who I am. I wonder if it has something to do with how much

comes down from Boston to do things with me or take care of me and

she lives close and does just what is expected by whoever is watching

or hearing about what she does.

> The food was good and the restaurant was fun but it was almost 9

before we got our check. (They had valet parking since its in the

city and it was $8 and she said that it was because of the basketball

game. Normally " the Max's " , the restaurant, don't charge anything

for valet service. This was my first valet service and my first Max

restaurant so I thought it was funny.) She and her husband Joe and

friends do this sort of thing all the time. By 9 I'm about dead and

we were going to have to walk 3 blocks uphill to the entrance we

needed to go into, in the cold. That part had never occurred to me or

I wouldn't have gone in the first place. I had already had the wave

of fatigue come over me and when she looked at me she noticed and

said " well, now you look tired. " I hated to ruin our time but I just

didn't think I could do the walk and then do the exhibit so I

admitted that I was. She said she had a big day the next day at work

(and Aidan is still nursing during the

> night) and probably wouldn't get much sleep so she was ready to go

too. So we didn't go to the exhibit and it seemed to be OK with her.

>

> Today I am paying for sitting in a chair for so long and

eating " fancy " food. I am so exhausted and my back, neck, and

shoulders hurt like hell. Also my IBS is acting up and I have

terrible cramps and am running back and forth to the toilet that I

have to watch carefully because yesterday it overflowed. Thankfully

today it is OK, after I plunged it a lot yesterday. Hey maybe that's

another reason my neck, back, etc. hurt. But when the IBS acts up I

get really shaky inside too and just feel like I have the flu. But

I'll not tell Andi, because I don't want her not to ask me again.

Isn't that pathetic.

>

> My eyes are just a nice little addition to the mix.

>

> So this is my vent about why I'm not participating in the group

right now. I love you all and am sorry I'm not on here trying to

help where I can. Hopefully I will be doing that soon.

> Marti

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Never miss a thing. Make Yahoo your homepage.

>

>

[Guest guest]

Phew! I'm relieved to see your post, Marti. You are not pathetic. You are

battling an enormous bundle of health problems. Even if all you can post,

is " I'm still here! " , it will help us not to worry. I'm glad you had a nice

evening with your daughter. And with regards to toilet plunging, I believe

that is what caused my bad back pain on Saturday. Rest up, and feel better

soon.

Jeanne in WI

> Hi gang,

> I've been really out of it. I tried a few times to read and answer

> posts, but my eyes along with everything else are just plain wonky. I'm

> supposed to go to the eye specialist again this week, but my daughter has

> a bad crunch week at work getting ready for a big meeting in Atlanta and I

> just can't take myself. I'm typing because I can magnify the print to 200%

> but for some reason reading the text if I magnify it, a lot of the message

> on the right is lost.

>

> I've been down a lot of this week and so not own the computer much and

> I'm still trying to make myself feel well. And prepare myself to start

> the Chemo treatments.

>

> Last evening my daughter Andi took me out to dinner to a " hip " place

> where you mostly share several appetizers instead of ordering an entree.

> I guess it's a new big thing because all the restaurants she suggested

> were that way. Then we were going to that exhibit that's traveling the

> country called Bodies Revealed. The restaurant was across the street from

> the exhibition center and there was also a UCONN basketball game somewhere

> in the center, so everything was packed. This is all new to me because I

> haven't ventured out too much into the " real " world in several years. I

> go places with my son but usually it's right to a play or theatre or

> concert (in a small venue) or comedian (we went to a Poundstone last

> time out at Mohegan Sun Casino which is huge but not in the same way as

> going into the city and it was in a small intimate theatre). Anyway Andi

> and I ate and talked which was the first time I've done that with Andi in

> 10 years. She remains a bit aloof

> most of the time and I have no idea what made her change and ask me to go

> out with her. (She did have plans with a friend and called me Monday

> morning to say she had cancelled and did I want to go but even that hasn't

> happened before - the calling me part.) She's one who does what would

> look bad if she didn't do it, but otherwise forget it - she doesn't let me

> in and doesn't want to get involved in who I am. I wonder if it has

> something to do with how much comes down from Boston to do things

> with me or take care of me and she lives close and does just what is

> expected by whoever is watching or hearing about what she does.

> The food was good and the restaurant was fun but it was almost 9 before

> we got our check. (They had valet parking since its in the city and it

> was $8 and she said that it was because of the basketball game. Normally

> " the Max's " , the restaurant, don't charge anything for valet service.

> This was my first valet service and my first Max restaurant so I thought

> it was funny.) She and her husband Joe and friends do this sort of thing

> all the time. By 9 I'm about dead and we were going to have to walk 3

> blocks uphill to the entrance we needed to go into, in the cold. That part

> had never occurred to me or I wouldn't have gone in the first place. I had

> already had the wave of fatigue come over me and when she looked at me she

> noticed and said " well, now you look tired. " I hated to ruin our time but

> I just didn't think I could do the walk and then do the exhibit so I

> admitted that I was. She said she had a big day the next day at work (and

> Aidan is still nursing during the

> night) and probably wouldn't get much sleep so she was ready to go too.

> So we didn't go to the exhibit and it seemed to be OK with her.

>

> Today I am paying for sitting in a chair for so long and eating " fancy "

> food. I am so exhausted and my back, neck, and shoulders hurt like hell.

> Also my IBS is acting up and I have terrible cramps and am running back

> and forth to the toilet that I have to watch carefully because yesterday

> it overflowed. Thankfully today it is OK, after I plunged it a lot

> yesterday. Hey maybe that's another reason my neck, back, etc. hurt. But

> when the IBS acts up I get really shaky inside too and just feel like I

> have the flu. But I'll not tell Andi, because I don't want her not to ask

> me again. Isn't that pathetic.

>

> My eyes are just a nice little addition to the mix.

>

> So this is my vent about why I'm not participating in the group right

> now. I love you all and am sorry I'm not on here trying to help where I

> can. Hopefully I will be doing that soon.

> Marti

[Guest guest]

Hi Jeanne, You always cheer me up with your caring posts. Thank you for caring

about me and what I'm going through. I hope to be on the giving end of the

support soon and not just the accepting. It would surely be better if my eyes

cleared up and I could read the posts better. It really strains them to try to

read the small print.

I'm sorry you had the toilet plunging episode too. It was probably that more

than the evening out that caused my pain too. I just wish the sick feeling

didn't come with the pain. Oh well.

Thanks again,

Marti

Jeanne and Dave wrote:

Phew! I'm relieved to see your post, Marti. You are not pathetic. You

are

battling an enormous bundle of health problems. Even if all you can post,

is " I'm still here! " , it will help us not to worry. I'm glad you had a nice

evening with your daughter. And with regards to toilet plunging, I believe

that is what caused my bad back pain on Saturday. Rest up, and feel better

soon.

Jeanne in WI

> Hi gang,

> I've been really out of it. I tried a few times to read and answer

> posts, but my eyes along with everything else are just plain wonky. I'm

> supposed to go to the eye specialist again this week, but my daughter has

> a bad crunch week at work getting ready for a big meeting in Atlanta and I

> just can't take myself. I'm typing because I can magnify the print to 200%

> but for some reason reading the text if I magnify it, a lot of the message

> on the right is lost.

>

> I've been down a lot of this week and so not own the computer much and

> I'm still trying to make myself feel well. And prepare myself to start

> the Chemo treatments.

>

> Last evening my daughter Andi took me out to dinner to a " hip " place

> where you mostly share several appetizers instead of ordering an entree.

> I guess it's a new big thing because all the restaurants she suggested

> were that way. Then we were going to that exhibit that's traveling the

> country called Bodies Revealed. The restaurant was across the street from

> the exhibition center and there was also a UCONN basketball game somewhere

> in the center, so everything was packed. This is all new to me because I

> haven't ventured out too much into the " real " world in several years. I

> go places with my son but usually it's right to a play or theatre or

> concert (in a small venue) or comedian (we went to a Poundstone last

> time out at Mohegan Sun Casino which is huge but not in the same way as

> going into the city and it was in a small intimate theatre). Anyway Andi

> and I ate and talked which was the first time I've done that with Andi in

> 10 years. She remains a bit aloof

> most of the time and I have no idea what made her change and ask me to go

> out with her. (She did have plans with a friend and called me Monday

> morning to say she had cancelled and did I want to go but even that hasn't

> happened before - the calling me part.) She's one who does what would

> look bad if she didn't do it, but otherwise forget it - she doesn't let me

> in and doesn't want to get involved in who I am. I wonder if it has

> something to do with how much comes down from Boston to do things

> with me or take care of me and she lives close and does just what is

> expected by whoever is watching or hearing about what she does.

> The food was good and the restaurant was fun but it was almost 9 before

> we got our check. (They had valet parking since its in the city and it

> was $8 and she said that it was because of the basketball game. Normally

> " the Max's " , the restaurant, don't charge anything for valet service.

> This was my first valet service and my first Max restaurant so I thought

> it was funny.) She and her husband Joe and friends do this sort of thing

> all the time. By 9 I'm about dead and we were going to have to walk 3

> blocks uphill to the entrance we needed to go into, in the cold. That part

> had never occurred to me or I wouldn't have gone in the first place. I had

> already had the wave of fatigue come over me and when she looked at me she

> noticed and said " well, now you look tired. " I hated to ruin our time but

> I just didn't think I could do the walk and then do the exhibit so I

> admitted that I was. She said she had a big day the next day at work (and

> Aidan is still nursing during the

> night) and probably wouldn't get much sleep so she was ready to go too.

> So we didn't go to the exhibit and it seemed to be OK with her.

>

> Today I am paying for sitting in a chair for so long and eating " fancy "

> food. I am so exhausted and my back, neck, and shoulders hurt like hell.

> Also my IBS is acting up and I have terrible cramps and am running back

> and forth to the toilet that I have to watch carefully because yesterday

> it overflowed. Thankfully today it is OK, after I plunged it a lot

> yesterday. Hey maybe that's another reason my neck, back, etc. hurt. But

> when the IBS acts up I get really shaky inside too and just feel like I

> have the flu. But I'll not tell Andi, because I don't want her not to ask

> me again. Isn't that pathetic.

>

> My eyes are just a nice little addition to the mix.

>

> So this is my vent about why I'm not participating in the group right

> now. I love you all and am sorry I'm not on here trying to help where I

> can. Hopefully I will be doing that soon.

> Marti

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