Re: Soul Searching... Guess What Angie

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YOU Just told MY story almost word for word, except I am waiting for a

disability approval at this point, was turned down for food assitance, and my

electricity is going to get shut off after 1 more week as I did get the Dr.

embarresinly call and tell them they could not as I wear a CPAP machine at

night, They held off for 30 days and now am into day 22. I don't know where I

am suppose to get help until SDI even makes the decision if I can get my measly

amt. a mo. though I have worked many many hrs through my life. I also was told

no help for me on utility funds in my town, call the churches!!!! I don't even

attend them here. I do know that it is to our best interest to work on getting

rid of all the negitive people in our life, but how do we these type of people.

I look around this town I am in and know that more then 1/2 of them are hard

core coffee brandy drinkers, I see when I can get about and get to the grocery

store., and most don't work because that get's

in there way not these decieving diseases, but they get all the help they want,

rent pd, foodstamps, free house repairs, and anything else they may need. I on

the other hand have been dealt this crazy messed up pain controlling disease,

and can't get help. So on top of being in a big flare-up, I can not turn off my

worry on how am I going to get these necessary bills pd, where will I live when

I get evicted, etc., so I am just feeding this flare-up, as it loves stress. My

advice to you is hang on to that shrink u have, as wish at this point I could

afford one, I need someone to yell out at, and won't care. But the brighter

side, we have entered Feb. and though we had snow dumped on us last night, and

again spitting now and then and more due, we will soon see March and let's hope

spring comes early, if I don't get evicted, at least the utility bills will

lower. Best to U

Sharon

Angie wrote:

I've been to 2 'shrinks' in 2 days (1 with my daughter, 1 for me) and

now I've got a bunch of " assignments " I'm working on this week. For the most

part I'm trying desperately to drag myself up out of the deep hole of

depression, frustrations, and a dozen other negative 'tions' I'm in.

On that note, I got some money yesterday but the bank put a 2 week hold on it.

So now they have my money for 2 weeks and I can't use it. I can't believe it.

It's their way of " punishing me " for having been overdrawn back in October. I

just started crying, right there. They finally agreed to give me enough to get

the gas back on; so we have heat and hot water again. I haven't paid half of

January's rent or any of Feb yet. I'm pretty sure the electricity is about to

get shut off. My phone is already off. Work is taking their time filling out

paperwork so I may lose my foodstamps. Yet, I'm supposed to find a way to shake

being depressed!!!

OK so let's say I'm not too far along on my assignments yet.

Yes, I've filed for assistance with my utilities but they haven't processed it

yet.

Yes I tried reasoning with the bank but they were just insulting to me. You know

what, I didn't do anything wrong, I just got sick. My damn job backed money out

that they paid me for sick leave; and my account went negative and I didn't have

any way to put new money in there for a while. Plus I told them that then!! So

why didn't they hold that first deposit? Why do it to me 4 months later? It

hasn't been overdrawn since then. Oh and they won't give me an atm card either

for 6 months. So I'm being punished for being sick and losing my income. I'm

supposed to somehow let go of feeling guilty when everyone around me is trying

to MAKE me feel guilty.

So for now, all the utilities are back on and we have food in the house. So

maybe I can find a way not to worry about the inevitable and just go with the

flow until the inevitable comes.

On the upside, I'm not feeling too bad today. Just these headaches I can't seem

to shake off and some normal overall level of pain. Nothing screaming so far.

These are pluses... all is not lost... right???

Take care everyone... I'm off to the showers!!

Angie Harley Mama Double-D

Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats, snow skiing,

camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers

member, LFA Advocate, independent, opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

" It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

" While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is to allow

part of us to die - whether it is our spirit,our creativity, or our glorious

uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

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[Guest guest]

I'm right there with you guys, the attorney says another yaer

probably. But I have been scraping through for 2 years now, someone

is watching over me. I have to believe that someone is watching over

you too. I know how hard this is I'm living it too. but keep your

chins up and keep making phone calls. You don't have to attend a

church for them to help, and most ministers are required to be

educated in social work or counseling and they are great to talk to.

The least judgemental church I have ever dealt with is The United

Church of Christ, Check and see if you have one close. When I wasn't

in so much pain I did alot of mission work with them. They are not

real preachy and you don't have to be a devout churchgoer or even a

member for them to help you.

I hope things get easier for you soon,

> I've been to 2 'shrinks' in 2 days (1 with my daughter, 1

for me) and now I've got a bunch of " assignments " I'm working on this

week. For the most part I'm trying desperately to drag myself up out

of the deep hole of depression, frustrations, and a dozen other

negative 'tions' I'm in.

>

> On that note, I got some money yesterday but the bank put a 2 week

hold on it. So now they have my money for 2 weeks and I can't use it.

I can't believe it. It's their way of " punishing me " for having been

overdrawn back in October. I just started crying, right there. They

finally agreed to give me enough to get the gas back on; so we have

heat and hot water again. I haven't paid half of January's rent or

any of Feb yet. I'm pretty sure the electricity is about to get shut

off. My phone is already off. Work is taking their time filling out

paperwork so I may lose my foodstamps. Yet, I'm supposed to find a

way to shake being depressed!!!

>

> OK so let's say I'm not too far along on my assignments yet.

>

> Yes, I've filed for assistance with my utilities but they haven't

processed it yet.

>

> Yes I tried reasoning with the bank but they were just insulting to

me. You know what, I didn't do anything wrong, I just got sick. My

damn job backed money out that they paid me for sick leave; and my

account went negative and I didn't have any way to put new money in

there for a while. Plus I told them that then!! So why didn't they

hold that first deposit? Why do it to me 4 months later? It hasn't

been overdrawn since then. Oh and they won't give me an atm card

either for 6 months. So I'm being punished for being sick and losing

my income. I'm supposed to somehow let go of feeling guilty when

everyone around me is trying to MAKE me feel guilty.

>

> So for now, all the utilities are back on and we have food in the

house. So maybe I can find a way not to worry about the inevitable

and just go with the flow until the inevitable comes.

>

> On the upside, I'm not feeling too bad today. Just these headaches

I can't seem to shake off and some normal overall level of pain.

Nothing screaming so far.

>

> These are pluses... all is not lost... right???

>

> Take care everyone... I'm off to the showers!!

>

> Angie Harley Mama Double-D

> Carson City, NV; Single, five children (3 at home), 2 dogs, 4 cats,

snow skiing, camping, Harley Rider, Lone Wolf, Blue Thong

Society/High Sierra Thong Snappers member, LFA Advocate, independent,

opinionated, outspoken, and open minded.

>

> " It's always something. " ~~~Gilda Radner

>

> " While we have the gift of life, it seems to me the only tragedy is

to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit,our creativity,

or our glorious uniqueness. " ~~~Gilda Radner

>

> http://360.yahoo.com/lovinglifeinnv

> http://www.myspace.com/amkg

> http://doripost.agrato.info/

>

> http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=592316375

> http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/LupusSurvivorsU/

> http://www.revolutionhealth.com/blogs/angiemg

>

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