I am new! JP

February 8, 2008

Hi all

I am new to this group and to the diagnosis of fibromyalgia. I have

intense sharp stabbing pains, mostly in my upper right shoulder

blade, cutting through into my right chest most of the time, and

generalized dull pain throughout my torso to where I really don't want

to move. I also have extreme fatigue, even after sleeping well all

night, I just want to sleep and be still all day. I feel for the first

time extremely mentally fragile, even though I have always lead a

super healthy and balanced lifestyle (For decades I practice yoga,

meditation, strength training eat healthy, and do things in

moderation), but I must say that my outer life has always been

extremely challenging and full of obstacles I could not control.

I have come to the point that I am sad, moody and irritable and can't

handle any tiny problem without it being too much. For example, it

stresses me out when I cannot find the book marker I just had on me 5

minutes ago, because I don't have the energy and vigor, physical and

mental, to find it. If I walk from the bedroom to the kitchen and my

robe snags on something, I start to cry, because I feel everything is

against me, or,to be clearer, I feel as though there is a force

against me that is greater than the force that is for me, my health

and my protection. In essence, I can't tolerate the slightest stress

or dissonance, or I break down. I also can't engage my mind in any

focused activity for any length of time, like collecting information

online, is now a supreme effort.

I was thinking that I would love to go lie on a beach, but the thought

of getting on a plane or driving for a a long while and the

possibility of not meeting with friendly supportive faces on the other

end is all too much for me to handle. All of these mental states are

the opposite of my core personality; I am the ultimate optimist,

forgiving of mistakes, tolerant of problems, etc. Perhaps I have

reached a threshold of stress that I have had to cope with ( I have

had hugely difficult or traumatic events occur throughout my life) and

my body /brain has given up a normal recuperative function. I really

hope this is temporary. Have any of you experienced the intensity of

these symptoms? Or are mine just a really weird combination?

It just took me 1.5 hours to compose this post and I am exhausted from

it... and I am only 41. I thank each of you for your input on any and

all levels, including prayers. I wish each of you the best, too, and

look forward to hearing from you. JP

February 11, 2008

JP just wanted you to know that you are not alone, I too have dealt with

many of what you wrote about.

Thinking of you!

Melody

enjoynowmore wrote:

> Hi all

>

> I am new to this group and to the diagnosis of fibromyalgia. I have

> intense sharp stabbing pains, mostly in my upper right shoulder

> blade, cutting through into my right chest most of the time, and

> generalized dull pain throughout my torso to where I really don't want

> to move. I also have extreme fatigue, even after sleeping well all

> night, I just want to sleep and be still all day. I feel for the first

> time extremely mentally fragile, even though I have always lead a

> super healthy and balanced lifestyle (For decades I practice yoga,

> meditation, strength training eat healthy, and do things in

> moderation), but I must say that my outer life has always been

> extremely challenging and full of obstacles I could not control.

>

> I have come to the point that I am sad, moody and irritable and can't

> handle any tiny problem without it being too much. For example, it

> stresses me out when I cannot find the book marker I just had on me 5

> minutes ago, because I don't have the energy and vigor, physical and

> mental, to find it. If I walk from the bedroom to the kitchen and my

> robe snags on something, I start to cry, because I feel everything is

> against me, or,to be clearer, I feel as though there is a force

> against me that is greater than the force that is for me, my health

> and my protection. In essence, I can't tolerate the slightest stress

> or dissonance, or I break down. I also can't engage my mind in any

> focused activity for any length of time, like collecting information

> online, is now a supreme effort.

>

> I was thinking that I would love to go lie on a beach, but the thought

> of getting on a plane or driving for a a long while and the

> possibility of not meeting with friendly supportive faces on the other

> end is all too much for me to handle. All of these mental states are

> the opposite of my core personality; I am the ultimate optimist,

> forgiving of mistakes, tolerant of problems, etc. Perhaps I have

> reached a threshold of stress that I have had to cope with ( I have

> had hugely difficult or traumatic events occur throughout my life) and

> my body /brain has given up a normal recuperative function. I really

> hope this is temporary. Have any of you experienced the intensity of

> these symptoms? Or are mine just a really weird combination?

>

> It just took me 1.5 hours to compose this post and I am exhausted from

> it... and I am only 41. I thank each of you for your input on any and

> all levels, including prayers. I wish each of you the best, too, and

> look forward to hearing from you. JP

>

> 1. While it is wonderful to share our experiences with everyone on the list as

to what treatments do and don't work for us, pls always check with your dr.

Some treatments are dangerous when given along with other meds as well as to

certain health conditions or just dangerous in general.

>

> 2. If you are in a difficult situation (doesn't matter what it is) pls don't

be afraid to ask for help. It is the first step to trying to make that

situation better.

>

> 3. To unsubscribe the e-mail is:

Fibromyalgia_Support_Group-unsubscribe

>

> 4. Also, it is not uncommon for more than one member to be feeling bad at the

same time when it comes to flares and b/c of that potentially take something

another member says the wrong way. And that includes the things that one member

may find funny (even if it's laughing at fibro itself) even though we who deal

with illness whether one such as fibro or multiple illnesses try to keep a sense

of humor.

>

> 5. Pls let's be gentle with each other, and if you are having a bad day pls

let us know so that we can do our best to offer our support.

>

> Have a nice day everyone.

>

February 12, 2008

Hi JP,

Welcome to the group, you are not alone. We all face differnt issues with life.

The stress of fibro can drive you up a wall. It is hard to face each day as

there will always be some kind of obstacle trying to keep us down. It is all

right to cry, just dont give up ,there is always more positive coming our way we

just dont always see or feel it.We just have to have faith, proceed with life

the best we can each day and live each day to the best of our ability. Good luck

and best wishes for betters days ahead.

hugs, Della

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