RE: Think it is possible??? (very long)Debra

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Debrorah,

I just wanted to say how sorry I am for all you've been through. You sure

do get my hero of the year award.

Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island

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From: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

[mailto:Fibromyalgia_Support_Group ] On Behalf Of Deborah

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Sent: Monday, January 14, 2008 11:34 AM

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

Subject: Re: Think it is possible??? (very long)

I also had a very bad childhood with an abusive stepfather who threatened

kill my mother if I ever told. I told when I was 24 and he did kill her.

Every time I try to talk about it or write about it the flashbacks are like

a tidal wave. I am now 50 and know in some areas I will never grow up. I

still want my mommy. Debi Y

Zimmy <zimmy2@... <mailto:zimmy2%40cox.net> > wrote:

> And to close those thoughts, it's possible, that if I had such buried

> memories that no one who even talk about, how many others may have had

> pains that were not explained to them?

, this was a tragic tale with interesting implications. I'm so

sorry for your loss. Congratulations on your efforts to investigate

it and make it part of your experience without the mystery and

vagueness that surrounds a 2-year-old's memory. I had a similar

experience with a vague memory and associated fear that was

subsequently explained, quite unexpectedly, by someone else.

I found that although it doesn't make the experience go away, it can

put it into an adult perspective, rather than flashbacks which

essentially have me viewing and feeling it like I did at age 5. As

I said above, it's now part of my experience, part of what makes me

who I am, rather than a vague feeling and unexplained terror.

Good work!

Z