Re: Ok another post... menopause - To Jeanne

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Thanks sweetie. I am trying so hard to pick myself up. I appreciate what you

say. I may need to change my antidepressant or something. I promise I won't

hurt myself sweetie. I am more frustrated lately than I use to be. I need to

deal with the anger. I am so angry inside at this disease and at the people in

my life who refuse to understand it. I don't let that anger show much except

for here. That is because I feel such a sense of trust here and understanding.

It is the only place I feel I am understood.

I keep trying to convince myself that I can have friends that are friends even

if they don't believe that fibro is real. But then it just makes me so angry.

On the outside, at work I show a pretty positive attitude most of the time.

People seem to like me. I am kind to them. I listen to their problems and try

to be there for them. But it seems so unfair to have friends who don't want to

understand what a miserable disease you have. I don't even want sympathy. I

guess they think I do. All I want is for them to understand and believe.

What kind of a friend would I be to them if they had the flu and I never acted

like I gave a shit? They don't see that is the way I am treated everyday. Oh

well. Such is life.

love and hugs,

Debra V.

Jeanne and Dave wrote:

Debra - What you describe does sound like menopausal symptoms. The

only

thing that concerns me are your extreme feelings of anger and frustration.

This is where I was at about 18 months ago. I almost thought I'd have to be

hospitalized because even though I wasn't suicidal, I wanted to try hurting

myself by cutting to see if physical pain could relieve the emotional pain.

Luckily, I got help before I actually did myself any harm.

If you ever get to this extreme, please seek help. I know you don't

have insurance, so getting psychiatric care could be really difficult. But

I know how awful it is to feel that almost out of control anger and

frustrations and not know how to make it better. I hope you feel better

soon.

Jeanne in WI

> Gosh my mood swings of late have been horrific. I have been so mad lately

> as you all can tell from the last week or so. I get periods of anger. I

> get so depressed. I get this damn fibro flaring and hormones flying out

> of range, and it takes me over. I am 43. I think my mom had menopause at

> 44. I have been so irritable, my periods are heavy when they get here and

> then they stop in about 2 short days. I get flashes of heat sometimes

> where sweat pours off my face for no reason. Well, all you females get

> the picture. (sickening picture too... LOL)... sorry.

>

> Coupled with the fibro, it is beginning to be a real challenge. I

> believe that the hormone changes are making the fibro worse at times. I

> do not want to take any hormone replacement therapy though....... unless I

> absolutely have to. I guess I will start taking the black cohosh again.

> (natural remedy). It seemed to help a little when I took it about a year

> ago.

>

> I still love you all. Dont know what I would do without you.

>

> Debra V.

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