Hey Debra V....read this please...

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Hi Debra....Hun... We have a lot in common. I was molested and raped from

the age of 7 till the age of 23. I had NO idea how it affected me. I was

diagnosed WIth PTSD when I was 25. I had a baby out of wedlock and adopted

him out. I never saw him, and I don't regret it because of the

circumstances...I do wish I would have held him just once tho. This year he

will be 23...and I think about him daily. I was abused in every way you can

imagine, including getting beat with a leather strap, a fist in my face

daily...I was thrown against walls, the floor...you name it...it happened...

Now, I have herniated discs in my neck...and my spinal cord is being

crushed...and I have major pain....it all fits together...I never knew...

Just my thoughts..

Anita

-- Re: PTSD... maybe I DO have it

>

> I was reading the posts here about PTSD. I don't think I have

that. But again, maybe I do.

> I have had some very traumatic life events that just seemed to be

back to back. Extreme emotional pain and major depression from

broken relationships mostly. But also I guess I have shared with

some of the old timers to the site, I was molested from the age of

about 4 or 5 to the age of 7 or so the best I can remember.

> The molestation may have had a much deeper impact on my

subconscious than I ever realized. It is all so cloudy... partly

because I was so young,,, and partly could be a mental block of the

details. I don't think I realized it was traumatic at the time when

I was at such a young age.

> Also I don't think I ever shared much of this here. But I had a

baby at the age of 17 ... I adopted him out. I never saw him. The

minute he was born they took him away before I could see him. (I

think that may have been best though). I never regretted the

decision I made, but then again I believe I have separated myself

completely from that experience. It has never seemed real to me

though I know it was.

> So, I suppose putting all that with the fact that I grew up with

a mother who drank almost everyday during my early childhood though

we were dirt poor.... and her extreme negativity about life.... Maybe

I do have some PTSD.

> Just some thoughts.

> love and hugs,

> Debra V.

>

>

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[Guest guest]

For what it's worth, my counselor says that most of her fibromyalgia

patients were abused or traumatized earlier in their life.

Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island

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Subject: Hey Debra V....read this please...

Hi Debra....Hun... We have a lot in common. I was molested and raped from

the age of 7 till the age of 23. I had NO idea how it affected me. I was

diagnosed WIth PTSD when I was 25. I had a baby out of wedlock and adopted

him out. I never saw him, and I don't regret it because of the

circumstances...I do wish I would have held him just once tho. This year he

will be 23...and I think about him daily. I was abused in every way you can

imagine, including getting beat with a leather strap, a fist in my face

daily...I was thrown against walls, the floor...you name it...it happened...

Now, I have herniated discs in my neck...and my spinal cord is being

crushed...and I have major pain....it all fits together...I never knew...

Just my thoughts..

Anita

-- Re: PTSD... maybe I DO have it

>

> I was reading the posts here about PTSD. I don't think I have

that. But again, maybe I do.

> I have had some very traumatic life events that just seemed to be

back to back. Extreme emotional pain and major depression from

broken relationships mostly. But also I guess I have shared with

some of the old timers to the site, I was molested from the age of

about 4 or 5 to the age of 7 or so the best I can remember.

> The molestation may have had a much deeper impact on my

subconscious than I ever realized. It is all so cloudy... partly

because I was so young,,, and partly could be a mental block of the

details. I don't think I realized it was traumatic at the time when

I was at such a young age.

> Also I don't think I ever shared much of this here. But I had a

baby at the age of 17 ... I adopted him out. I never saw him. The

minute he was born they took him away before I could see him. (I

think that may have been best though). I never regretted the

decision I made, but then again I believe I have separated myself

completely from that experience. It has never seemed real to me

though I know it was.

> So, I suppose putting all that with the fact that I grew up with

a mother who drank almost everyday during my early childhood though

we were dirt poor.... and her extreme negativity about life.... Maybe

I do have some PTSD.

> Just some thoughts.

> love and hugs,

> Debra V.

>

>

> ---------------------------------

> Looking for last minute shopping deals? Find them fast with Yahoo!

Search.

>

>