glass half full -- LIVE in this moment

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Ok, I am somewhat back to myself. LOL. Really. I am feeling better

emotionally. (I did wake up feeling like someone beat me with a board while I

slept).... It is better now. I took my medicine and the sun is shining today

and I don't really mind going to work now.

I have to try to understand why others DONT understand. I think that will get

us alot further than being pissed at the lack of compassion. If I did not live

with this damn curse of a disease everyday, I would not understand it

completely. (I would believe it, but if I had not walked in these shoes.... I

would not have a clue as to how bad it is). So, that said, I must learn to

forgive and accept others in my life who don't have fibro and dont believe or

understand. I must realize that they are friends, BUT not friends I can share

my life altering disease with. I am trying to get rid of the anger. It is

tearing me apart.

Now, if I lost everything I had right now, it would be a tragedy. I must be

thankful for the fact I still can work, I have two beautiful kids, I have a nice

place to live, I have a d/h who I would like to strangle sometimes... but I love

him anyway. He helps me with everything I am not able to take care of. I also

have a good doctor right now who knows fibro is real and will treat me. I have

pain medication to help the pain and exhaustion. I have a glass that is half

full today. (not half empty).

I also know that though fibro is progressive with alot of us, it is not with

all of us. I know mine progressed, but it MIGHT not get worse. If it does, I

will deal with it then.

If we think about today and this minute...... we can handle it. If we think

about tomorrow and 5 years from now... the unknown is sure to fill us with fear.

Today, I will live and try to enjoy each moment the best I can.

Signing off... gotta let others have some space on the board here. LOL. Will

go and take care of the little old folks that love me at work.

love and hugs,

Debra V.

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