Tired of Rain and Pain, Tigger

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Hi Tigger,

I'm so sorry you've had such a bad several days. I've been looking for that

bus to throw myself under lately, but something keeps me from it, which I know

is good.

It's good that you don't too. I care how you feel and will always listen to

how bad your day was in addition to a good day thrown in now and then.

This rain is driving me crazy too. I'm not too much north of you and we've had

that same constant rain day in and day out. Today it snowed and two days ago it

snowed but not much and it barely covers the ground. I'm not really complaining

about not having a lot of snow, but when it snows. it's usually so sunny and

beautiful afterward. I miss sunshine!

Chronic pain is a bitch and so is brain fog and constant fatigue. I at least

have a doctor who gives me 5mg hydrocodone to take up to 3 X day and doesn't

give me any flack about it. I wish you had someone like that to understand and

help you.

What is this stuff about not being able to ease the pain because it would mask

it. Mask away. Isn't that what we're hoping for. We know what is wrong and

masking it would be just great. HECK, PUT A WHOLE COSTUME ON IT!

I wish I could ease your pain.

Blessings,

Marti

Tigger wrote:

You could have written that post for me today. Every other day has

been

rain. Every other day I want to throw myself under a bus. Every day I have

two kitties that tell me they love me and need me.

Chronic pain is a bitch. No getting around that. I just wish they could do

something about it. I had a doctor tell me that he couldn't give me pain

meds because it would mask the problem. duh! There is no cure, so let's

mask the pain. It's ridiculous the logic they try to use on us. Most of us

a smart enough and have done enough research to know this. The last time a

doctor told me that I said, " Good bye and have a nice pain free life. " He

said I took him wrong. No. He was either going to treat me or not.

I hate doctors.

Tigger (Ruth) in Rhode Island

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From: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

[mailto:Fibromyalgia_Support_Group ] On Behalf Of Jeanne and

Dave

Sent: Saturday, February 09, 2008 3:14 PM

To: Fibromyalgia_Support_Group

Subject: Re: Tired of pretending, anger, and tears

I'm sorry you were so upset, Debra. I know it gets hard to just go on like

things are normal. I really wonder if you posted a letter at work it would

help people to understand you better. Or make up a small poster for the

work area that reads, " Debra has FM. She is not a drug addict or alcoholic.

Thanks for understanding. " I don't know. These are just what comes off the

top of my head.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

Jeanne in WI

>I just have to vent today. I am just feeling do down. I am so tired of

>pretending I am fine when I am not. Yesterday was like trying to run a

>marathon just going to work. They could not see under the makeup and the

> " cheerful attitude " that I felt like $hit. What is worse is they don't

>give a damn. I know it too.

> Things come back to me when I feel this bad. I remember the comments my

> supervisor has made to me about a sister in law of hers with FM. She

> depicted her to me as lazy. She said " she slept all day " .... what she

> does not understand is that this damn crap comes with sleep disorders on

> top of it all. And she had made a comment that " she did not work like you

> do " . And said " she is a prescription drug addict " . Well, I am not able

> to freaken work. Damn it! Not a person on earth gives a crap but the

> people here.

> I also remember what the nurse that I work with said one day. When she

> told me about her friend who has fibro. She said she does not talk to

> that friend anymore because " she just wants people to feel sorry for

> her " .. and made comments about her pain meds and how she can hardly stay

> awake. (It is probably from the damn fibro fog and not her pain meds).

>

> I am fed up with people just not believing this shit. It hurts me

> greatly. If I have larnyngitis or a cold, I get " oh, I can tell you feel

> so bad " . Then they acknowledge that I am sick. But not with the fibro.

> I know that any comment I make about it probably makes them roll their

> eyes.

>

> I am angry, pissed, and so fed up. I just don't know how much longer I

> can take the " don't give a shit " attitude of these people. I don't expect

> any special treatment, but I don't want to be considered an idiot either.

> And if I call in and say " I am sick... It is the fibro " .... they will just

> talk about me then the next time I come in NO ONE will even ask how I am.

>

> I am just so angry. Thanks for listening. Guess what? They get me

> today without makeup. I don't care. Let them see how I look and feel

> every day of my life without me trying to hide it.

>

> love ya all,

> Debra V.