Re: Alone/Kate or Bonnie?

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Kate or is it Bonnie? - I'm sorry you're feeling at your breaking point.

You have had a lot to deal with after that assault and now this med allergy.

I guess if I were you I'd scream at your doctor and let him know that

there's no way you can go 3 weeks without pain control. I hope it works,

and if these suicidal thoughts get any more real, please call a hotline for

help. If you were to end up on a psych floor, you would probably get the

pain control you really need. Just a thought. I will keep you in my

thoughts.

Jeanne in WI

>I think it isolates too, very few people get it and after a while even

>though's that say they do look at you side ways, and well these days I

>often feel paranoid as well, you know what are they " really' saying behind

>my back ?

>

> My resolve is weak at the moment, after 3 weeks of one problem after

> another I am beginning to wonder just exactly how much I can take before I

> crack. I mean everyone has a limit, I just wonder how much of this am I

> prepared to take, I refuse to let it win, but it does not mean that I am

> not so imune as to believe that I have unlimited resources, I am really

> close to that cliff at the moment so right now I am pretending the edge is

> a little further away than I would like to beleive.

>

> But yeah after yesterday the day before, I am really wondering what would

> it take in the end for me to solve it the easy way. I've developed an

> allergy to codiene (hence the swollen face). The local Dr does not want to

> change my pain pills til I see the specialist (at the end of the month),

> so he wants me to go " cold turkey " for 3 weeks. before we look at

> narcotic's, I can't see me making it without meds buts can't to seem to

> fix it either.

>

> So right now I would say I am more scared of having to live without meds

> than living with them.