To tired and hurting to go on

[Guest guest]

I have had some serious thoughts of taking my own life lately. The

pain has been so bad the last 2 days that I can hardly move and I am

in such a horrid state of mind I even take it out on my beloved yorki.

Were are these thoughts coming from? I think of all the ways but want

to make sure it works. I don't want to hurt my kids but I don't want

to hurt anymore.

So many things have been happening in my life that are sad. My

granddaughter that lost her mom (my daughter) asked for my help

getting her off crank, I didn't even know she was on it. I can't take

her in as I live with my aunt. Another granddaughter was taken to

another city and made to do prostition until the police picked her up.

We had no idea where she was as she wouldn't tell the police who she

was for 2 weeks. Now she's home again but so out of control that she

just does what she wants. She's just 15.

I used to think I could handle any situation but now I can't even help

myself. I don't have alot of family left to help me thru this. My

aunt has the perfect son and grandkids so she can't relate.

I am just so unhappy and I don't know where I belong anymore.

I'm working on it.

Thanks for listening.

Little from Las Vegas