Re: young children.../Kate

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My ex has no insight into his own behaviour at all.

I say to him what do you want, you can have it,

he replied 'I want you to stay out of it " ,

I say " ok, then she goes to your house "

he says " thats right put the blame on me'.

If he was truly honest his sentence would be

'I want what I want, when I want it " .

In which case my answer is 'go find out what

you want and get back to me " .

I mean he calls her a pest, he tells her she can't stay

because she won't behave, but if I say " ok she can

stay with me " I am withholding her from him.

I swear despite my issues I am still the SANEST

person I know. I swear he is passive aggressive..

In all reality, the problem is that this women has

moved into his house, set up home, has brought

her kids along,and reality has just set in (she didn't

save him from a life of misery). He's pissed she's

not the one, but he also is too gutless to stick up

his hand and say " im sorry your not the one, we need

to work out how to get you your own place, or return

to the UK or whatever " . I mean that conversation is

way too hard so better to dump on the ex its heaps

easier and of course she can nurse his bruised ego

everytime we exchange words. I mean the first time

I met her the first words out of her mouth were " so your the

fat one " . I used to wonder how people could degrade

themselves and go on Jerry Springer, now I know ,

I AM THE JERRY SPRINGER SHOW.

Anyway I only wish there was delete button on my life

right now.

Re: Fears with fibro and young children....

You know....the same thoughts have been going through my head lately.

DH really wants kids...I am totally indifferent about it, but I

seriously don't know how I could handle it. But, I also know that he

really wants them...and if we don't have kids I know that will really

effect our marriage. But, at the end of the day...he works so much so

it would be ME that would mainly be caring for them. He is such a

momma's boy it is a big enough job taking care of him!

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> Ok another post. I guess my fingers won't stop today..

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> I will share something with you. I have thought over and over

about how I would manage by myself with my kids. I fear I could

not. This makes me feel very insecure. It is a fact of my life I

have to internalize. I fear I would lose them if I had to do it

alone. I honestly can say that my body won't take much more than it

does already.. It takes every fiber of my being to go to work. That

is all I can do.. Flashback to 5 or 6 years ago, I could have done it

without even worrying about it. I could get up, take them to school,

go to work, take care of them, keep up the house and everything on my

own. Fibromyalgia not only stole the person I once was, but it has

taken away my independence and ability to care for my children.

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> I sometimes imagine a life without the d/h. Then it hits me....

I wake up in the morning not hardly able to walk or move, I hurt

everywhere, I am weak.... And I think " how the hell would I get them

to school if I had too " .

> And now I know that if I did not work the 2pm to 10pm shift, I

don't think I could get to work. It takes me several hours to be

able to go to work now.

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> Now I love the d/h. But if I ever needed to do this by

myself.... I fear I could not. At this point I could work to support

us, but the rest of it would be near impossible.

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> Just sharing,

> love,

> Debra V.

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