Anita~Welcome

[Guest guest]

Welcome to our group. I am , unhappily married 26 yrs, have a teen

daughter 17, 12 kitties, and a Border collie pup named . Have had fibro

over 30 yrs but only finally diagnosed in 12/2006. Also, many other health

issues to go along with that. this group has become a family to me and I hope it

is a help to you also. Glad to have you with us.

Hugs,

" tubelover2u@... " wrote:

Hello everyone...not sure if I'm doing this right...but wanted to jump right

on in. I'm Anita (known online as ButterflyKisses) I'm a 45, married mother

of two, grandmother of one, and am owned by my two mini dach's...lol

After 8 years of pain, going from one doctor to the next...5 years ago I was

diagnosed with MS...but that didn't account for the daily pain...now I'm

sure I'm not the only one out there that has went through the following...

Q. Where do you hurt. A. Depends on the day, and what I'm doing. Q. How

bad is the pain A. Depends on the day, and what I'm doing. Q. Is it a

stabbing pain? A. Depends on the day and what I'm doing (see a pattern

forming??? LOL What other symptoms do you have...well let's see... Fatigue,

numbness, tingling, pin pricks, ... Okay where... UUHHH depends on the day

and what I'm doing! Now I've been playing this little cat and mouse game

for years! My family doctor cared, but had NO clue what was happening. I

ended up being on a Duragesic Patch (75 MG)... Which when taken with my

Neurontin and Elavil really did wonders! Was I pain free? Nope... But at

least I could function.

My world came crashing down last November. You see my family doctor got

sick and ended up having of all things...open heart surgery. She's been my

doctor for over 8 years, and knew all about my struggle. When she got ill,

I had to see another doctor in the same building, since you can't get refill

s on the Patch. This doctor told me it was all in my head, that I just like

getting high, and that it was over. I put on my last patch on the 2nd of

January... Now I'm not sure if you all know this...but...you are NEVER

suppose to go off that patch cold turkey, you're suppose to be weaned...not

me...oohhh nooo... And to be honest....for over a week...I went through the

worst withdraws... I went through hell!

The only GOOD thing about it... I finally was sent to the Cleveland Clinic

(no one within 200 miles wanted to touch me)... But I digress.... Finally .

..I have an answer...it's Fibro....which by the way was the FIRST thing my

family doctor thought it was....will the Cleveland Clinic treat me and help

me??? Not unless I go to Cleveland, stay for a month (in a motel room....)

and go to Physical Therapy, Group Therapy (long story..lol), Individual

Therapy, and various other therapies! Welllll.... Number one my husbands

insurance would have a cow! And we would go bankrupt between the motel cost

and food costs. So where does that leave me??? Struggling! All those

symptoms that had become bearable are now back with fury! Right now it's

impossible to do anything for any length of time. I never wanted to get

high.....I wanted to be able to function!!!

Okay, I'm sorry...I've screamed long enough...I don't want to push you all

away with my first post.... Someone, anyone...tell me there's hope out

there!!!

Thanks for listening...uuhh reading

Anita