Re: LINDA ALL TIME LOW/Sharon

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Hi Sharon,

When sleep deprived and hurting I can get crazy over the smallest thing. My

daughter is the same way. She and her husband are trying to night wean their

youngest and so are up all night. The next few days after not sleeping they

just snip at each other all the time. They try to stop, but it just comes out

anyway. They makeup and feel fine with each other when they can get some sleep.

My daughter needs more sleep than some (just like her mother and brother) so it

doesn't take too much for her to be sleep deprived. I'm glad they know they

don't mean it when they feel better.

I really know what you mean about not being able to be independent. I just

can't do all the things that need to be done, so they get left undone. I drove

myself alone for the first time in a year to a doctor's appt 30 min away. I was

so tired when I got back I just fell asleep. She said she could still work out

taking me, but I can't stand being so dependent that I can't even leave the

house. I haven't left the house too much in a long time because of that.

And I feel the same way about making phone calls. I save them for a time I

can sit down and deal with what I know is coming. I had to call the cable co,

my insurance co, and several other places that I knew would put me through the

pressing of one number after another and then put me on hold. I really hate one

of them I have to call that wants you to answer the computer with words and not

pressing numbers. It never understands what I say and keeps saying " I believe I

heard you say..... " and I want to yell at the phone. Well since I'm here alone,

I do yell at the phone.

And yes I do have those negative thoughts that repeat themselves over and over

again, but I push them to the background and try to deal through one more

stressful thing after another.

Most of them are big ones though and are still hard to deal with.

I hope you feel better really soon,

Blessed be,

Marti

sharon studley wrote:

LINDA, THIS HAPPENS, I have also said things like that to my husband

when my overwhelming points are visiting, like now, my husband does everything

for me!, after working, yet I have my moments when I lash out at him for no

reason, and tell him he doesn't understand. The only time he does get me

bothered when he will want to do or go somewhere and physically I am not

mentally rested as I suffer so badly from sleep on top of the pain. I also have

all these new things cropping up. My biggest anger though is that I can't be

independent, and my toleration of other people who want to drain me with

negitive stuff, or the simple phone call I want to make and get all these

different computer voices, and tell all the info then get transferred to live

person, and tell it all over again, then on and on so 45 mins later I am still

on the phone mentally drained, stressed out, and back in discomfort, because I

can't turn off the stress in my life yet. This is a key factor to

dealing with flare-ups and I have had alot of that lately. I wish u the best.

You would not be better off dead, and though we have tought days that go on and

on, remember where would the people that care and love us be without us.

wishing u brighter hour real soon. Sharon

Melody wrote:

you have my prayers!

(((Hugs)))

wrote:

> I have not been doing well lately. Am hoping for a change soon. Last night was

an all time low for me. I even said to hubby that I would rather be dead than

live with him. That if it weren't for , that is what I would want. I did

not mean it and don't know why I said it even, except that I am so tired of

being treated like a door mat and second class citizen. I was saying weird stuff

to my daughter also. Guess I am reacting to all the stress in my life. Anyway, I

don't need to write a book, lol. Please say some prayers for me and my family.

> Glad you are listening to your body and taking good care of you. Missed you

while you were away.

> Hugs,

>

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> DebiAC012553@... wrote:

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> In a message dated 2/6/2008 1:36:59 P.M. Pacific Standard Time,

> herbal7@... writes:

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> How are you?

> Hugs,

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> I'm not doing so bad right now. The main thing is that I am tired a lot, so

> when my body says that it wants to sleep, I go ahead and sleep, because I

> don't know if it is my body's way of fighting pain or if I am starting to come

> down with something again and my body is trying to fight it by sleeping.

> Strangely enough, I have been able to cut back on the ultram and it is

> working...praise the Lord.

>

> How are you?

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> Love and gentle hugs,

> Debi/Central Cal.-55

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