Re: Just a note from JJ OT

February 1, 2008

honey my son and my husband passed away, the time between the death and the

funeral are the hardest times, after that I sort of retreated into my own mind I

used to pretend that he was late home from work at night and that he had left

early in the morning before I got up. I dont think I ever will get over it and

no it doesnt get better over time, time just moves whether you like it or not. I

found yelling all the way to work in my car with the windows wound up meant that

I cried only to and from work and not during work.. My son's death was the

hardest at 28wks I can still see his lifeless body in my hands, I just pretend

he is with me even when he isnt and i think about him all the time. I wish I had

words of wisdom for you but the only wisdom I have is that at some point you

will be reunited again, just not today..

Just a note from JJ OT

Hi ladies and gents. Its me JJ. I haven't been around in a long time. I've been

having lots a personal things in my life , My Dad and My husband both passed

away on December 22nd.. This was very sad for me and my family. I'm sorry I

didn't write sooner. I just couldn't bring myself to get on here. I've never

been with any one that passed away before but one off my puppies and it was the

awful list cruelest thing I ever seen a human being go throw. I had in home

hospice care for JD . But since he was at home and not in the hospital they

couldn't give him very strong pain medicine . They wouldn't do a iv or

shots..The last 24 hours was pure hell for Jd. and all of us to watch.I hope I

never have to witness another death such as his. . Its over now and life is

going forward.. I want to say I'm praying for all that I see needing it. and

thank you to all who have been praying for me and my family..I have cut my dogs

way down , My grandson Casper,has taken

most of my dogs I have just a few that stay here in my house with me. I have

such a deep depression I find it hard to do any thing. If it wasn't for my

Chihuahuas id probably never get out of bed..I've missed all my Chihuahua

buddies. and hope to email more as time goes by.. Love you all JJ

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