Re: Alone

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I think it isolates too, very few people get it and after a while even though's

that say they do look at you side ways, and well these days I often feel

paranoid as well, you know what are they " really' saying behind my back ?

My resolve is weak at the moment, after 3 weeks of one problem after another I

am beginning to wonder just exactly how much I can take before I crack. I mean

everyone has a limit, I just wonder how much of this am I prepared to take, I

refuse to let it win, but it does not mean that I am not so imune as to believe

that I have unlimited resources, I am really close to that cliff at the moment

so right now I am pretending the edge is a little further away than I would

like to beleive.

But yeah after yesterday the day before, I am really wondering what would it

take in the end for me to solve it the easy way. I've developed an allergy to

codiene (hence the swollen face). The local Dr does not want to change my pain

pills til I see the specialist (at the end of the month), so he wants me to go

" cold turkey " for 3 weeks. before we look at narcotic's, I can't see me making

it without meds buts can't to seem to fix it either.

So right now I would say I am more scared of having to live without meds than

living with them.

Alone

Is it just me or does this illness really make, you feel alone even if

you're surrounded by people. Days when my husband can't even touch me

because their, is so much pain. I had three really good weeks without

migraines after my first round of shots, and now they are back with a

vengeance. I had some relief with the lower back and now well you can

guess. It's enough to discourage the most positive of people. Needless

to say I'm not that positive. My resolve to continue to fight this

illness is going down. It's getting harder and harder and I begin to

wonder if I will ever have my life back. Even if it's just a shell of

my former life at least it would be better then where I stand now. I

can understand why soo many people opt for a way out. I just hope I

never reach that desperate measure but I wonder.

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4. Also, it is not uncommon for more than one member to be feeling bad at the

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may find funny (even if it's laughing at fibro itself) even though we who deal

with illness whether one such as fibro or multiple illnesses try to keep a sense

of humor.

5. Pls let's be gentle with each other, and if you are having a bad day pls let

us know so that we can do our best to offer our support.

Have a nice day everyone.