Guest guest Posted January 11, 2010 Report Share Posted January 11, 2010 That was so interesting! I love how so many things are connected in our subconscious. Good for you for realizing it. That's got to take some of the power from those foods. Sara > > Yesterday all I wanted was pizza and lots of it. I couldn't initially figure out why, but then it came to me. I had an argument with my husband and domestic tranquility had definitely not been restored. When I was growing up, for many years, my family would get pizza on Sunday nights and watch a couple hours of TV. We all got along during this time even if everything had been crazy right before and got crazy right after. It was a little oasis of peace. I was sad when we stopped doing that. And thinking back now, my major pizza cravings have often coincided with some family problem, my past ones, my current ones, my loved ones families, etc. > > And then I was thinking some more about orange soda. My dad, when he wanted to apologize but didn't want to use words, would buy me 2 liter bottles of orange soda. I showed my forgiveness by drinking the soda. Sometimes there would be bottles and bottles of soda. One day he came home (he had bought 8 bottles the day before) and was furious that some of the soda was still there. > > There was some abuse of varying kinds in my past. And like many, I would from time to time, dissociate. And a major thing that I would do, and I don't know how this got started and I often don't remember starting it, I'd be conscious of doing it somewhere in the middle, of eating really loud, crunchy food as loudly as possible. It did, and still does, bring me back into my body and ground me and bring me back into real time again. I'll still crave this kind of food when something triggers me from my past. > > My mom would sometimes bring me pretzels (the crunchy kind, usually the rods) and say that - see, she loved me, she bought me pretzels. Actually one day when we were making something in the kitchen, I said that I loved her, and she pointed to the pretzels and didn't say anything. And to this day, I still associate eating pretzels (especially those) with actively being loved. > > And I notice now that a lot of my cravings seem to revolve around food that played a significant part in my childhood family dramas.Not just those mentioned above, but others too. We communicated with food. > > It is making it interesting now, as I try to listen to what my body wants, to notice these connections. By the way, I didn't get pizza and I did restore domestic tranquility. And now I am not craving pizza. I am trying to take a look at the underlying emotion (if there is one) behind a food craving now. > > Anyway, thought I'd share, lol. - Georgia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 11, 2010 Report Share Posted January 11, 2010 Awesome georgia! Thanks for sharing. Its great to read about others' " aha " moments. Sounds so simple when we read it but I bet a lot of work went into that rather large bit of self discovery! That was so interesting! I love how so many things are connected in our subconscious. Good for you for realizing it. That's got to take some of the power from those foods. Sara > > Yester... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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