Larry and Self Courting

[Guest guest]

Hi Larry and all,

Hon, the heart is the hardest to heal and it is the soul's eyes and ears. I'm on

the Grad list and I'm also a shrink. I've experienced much of your pain and I

know the fear as we awake from our bed of thorns after having slept for 40

years. You must move S L O W, darlin. The first romantic relationship you should

pursue is one with yourself and only yourself. It's time to court Larry, Larry.

And I mean that. You have to learn how to court another and how to accept

another's care by first courting and caring for yourself. People repeatedly tell

us to love ourselves and we repeatedly nod but many of us have no clue so the

words are useless. I am suggesting that you dress you up and take you out for a

long walk each day. As you walk and see your reflection in a rain pool or store

window, smile. Stroke your arms. Stroke your hands. Look at those arms. Look at

those hands. Take some time to do this. Those arms and hands are aching not for

another's touch but for your own. Embrace y!

ourself, hug you. If tears come,

allow them. At first these exercises will feel odd; you may even feel some

disgust since that's how you've come to view yourself on the emotional level.

Well, it's time to fix it cause fixing your size is easy but if you don't follow

it by fixing your relationship with yourself you most likely will sabotage the

WLS. And, unfortunately, I share some of your fears regarding therapists and

counselors, my own profession. You are welcome to contact me privately. I can

talk to you more about that subject but in the meantime, you must begin to take

care of you by doing the deeds and showing the care through those deeds. You

need to know that Larry is coming home; you are not there yet, hon, but you're

nearing the door and you're scared, real scared. Just remember that the person

on the other side of that door is a scared little kid who has been waiting for

you to grab him and love him for many a lonely night. He use to wait for others

but they passed him by or stopped long enough to!

wound him. He's the only person

waiting for you, Larry. The others have long since found others to beat up on.

Isn't it time you stopped heaping dung on top of dung on that little guy? If you

run, where will you go and if you get fat again no one will ever open that door

and pick that boy child up and cry with him until you don't. And when the tears

stop, you can begin to play. And when you play, you can begin to feel puberty

and self love and eventually romance with one of the millions of kind hearted

women who have also known your pain. Once you've healed yourself sufficiently,

you'll not hurt another who trys to love you but until then, there's a good

chance that you, the victim, will be her perpetrator in the name of protecting

that little guy inside. Again, move S L O W, hon but you can do this....many of

us have.

Hugs,

Crow