Things I've always wanted to learn and/or do

[Guest guest]

So I'm not sure what brought this up, but there are some things that I

never attempted to learn or do (hobby things) because of the way my

nada would discourage & belittle me for them. Now, these aren't

necessarily things I wanted to do as a kid, but I think that fear of

trying something new (read: PTSD) kept me from doing it. I've

decided, no more.

I have a fond memory when I was about 11. On weekends, I'd go to my

dad's house and there was a girl about my age that lived across the

street. We would pick flowers & plants and put them in water to make

our own " Perfume " . Since then, I've had an interest in learning how

to make perfume, and so I've been researching it and I'm going to do

it. It's really not that hard. But, it's also spurring something

else I want to learn about.

See, most perfume makers use essential oils. Sure, you can buy them,

but it'd be cool to make my own too! Which leads me to yet something

else I have wanted to learn... gardening! LOL. I also really like to

cook so having fresh veggies, herbs & fruits would be awesome. I also

love strawberries and there are so many different kinds that I really

think I'd like to try a strawberry garden.

So I've been researching and I am going to build what is called a

" salad table " . It's designed by university of land's agricultural

department, and the plans are online free. (If anyone's interested,

here's a link:

http://www.growit.umd.edu/Salad%20Tables%20and%20Salad%20Boxes/index.cfm)

This would be great to keep critters out and to save my back & knees

(bad knees) from having to crawl around on the ground. Plus, it's

easily adaptable... instead of 2 x 4's for the walls, I'm going to use

2 x 8's so I can plant things that require deeper soil. I also want

to build a bit of a frame off the top so I can put chicken wire over

it to keep birds out. This is important for the strawberries

especially since the birds love to eat them.

Sorry this is kind of lengthy, but I realized the reason I never tried

to do any of these things... all of them things I've had an interest

in for quite some time... is due to how often nada would belittle,

ridicule & make fun of me for having ideas like this & wanting to

learn something new. So by God, I'm going to do it! And the salad

table should be easy to build (I'm pretty handy anyway) and

inexpensive =)

Then I would have stuff to cook with, stuff to use to make oil

infusions (need a distiller to get true essential oils, and that's too

expensive, so infusions are another good option for perfumes) and

hey.. something to do that I really think I'll enjoy =)

Oh yeah, also going to make a compost bin =D

Mia

[Guest guest]

Go Mia! What a lovely set of projects that interact with each other!

Yes, its up to us as adults to shovel out that stinking pile of negative

bulls**t that nada heaped up in our heads; that toxic crap needs to go:

Nada sez: " Different=Dangerous "

(S-c-r-a-p-e... that's wrong, and its gone!)

Nada sez: " What a silly, embarrassing, childish, pointless thing to be

interested in. "

(S-c-r-a-p-e... THAT's wrong, and its gone!)

Nada sez: " You're just not smart enough/talented enough/worthy enough to be any

good at that, and at your age? "

(S-c-r-a-p-e... and that's wrong, wrong, wrong, and its gone!)

All that fly-specked, maggoty s**t scraped and shoveled out of your mind. Good!

Nada piled the crap there in the first place in order to hobble us emotionally:

prevent us from growing and learning and ceasing to be totally focused on her.

Instead of drawing her growing child to her by being kind, supportive and

nurturing, nada instead tried to make it impossible for us to go anywhere else

out of fear, shame, and ignorance. That's all kinds of narcissistic, selfish

and cruel.

So, anyway, your projects sound delightful to me!

-Annie

>

> So I'm not sure what brought this up, but there are some things that I

> never attempted to learn or do (hobby things) because of the way my

> nada would discourage & belittle me for them. Now, these aren't

> necessarily things I wanted to do as a kid, but I think that fear of

> trying something new (read: PTSD) kept me from doing it. I've

> decided, no more.

>

> I have a fond memory when I was about 11. On weekends, I'd go to my

> dad's house and there was a girl about my age that lived across the

> street. We would pick flowers & plants and put them in water to make

> our own " Perfume " . Since then, I've had an interest in learning how

> to make perfume, and so I've been researching it and I'm going to do

> it. It's really not that hard. But, it's also spurring something

> else I want to learn about.

>

> See, most perfume makers use essential oils. Sure, you can buy them,

> but it'd be cool to make my own too! Which leads me to yet something

> else I have wanted to learn... gardening! LOL. I also really like to

> cook so having fresh veggies, herbs & fruits would be awesome. I also

> love strawberries and there are so many different kinds that I really

> think I'd like to try a strawberry garden.

>

> So I've been researching and I am going to build what is called a

> " salad table " . It's designed by university of land's agricultural

> department, and the plans are online free. (If anyone's interested,

> here's a link:

http://www.growit.umd.edu/Salad%20Tables%20and%20Salad%20Boxes/index.cfm)

>

> This would be great to keep critters out and to save my back & knees

> (bad knees) from having to crawl around on the ground. Plus, it's

> easily adaptable... instead of 2 x 4's for the walls, I'm going to use

> 2 x 8's so I can plant things that require deeper soil. I also want

> to build a bit of a frame off the top so I can put chicken wire over

> it to keep birds out. This is important for the strawberries

> especially since the birds love to eat them.

>

> Sorry this is kind of lengthy, but I realized the reason I never tried

> to do any of these things... all of them things I've had an interest

> in for quite some time... is due to how often nada would belittle,

> ridicule & make fun of me for having ideas like this & wanting to

> learn something new. So by God, I'm going to do it! And the salad

> table should be easy to build (I'm pretty handy anyway) and

> inexpensive =)

>

> Then I would have stuff to cook with, stuff to use to make oil

> infusions (need a distiller to get true essential oils, and that's too

> expensive, so infusions are another good option for perfumes) and

> hey.. something to do that I really think I'll enjoy =)

>

> Oh yeah, also going to make a compost bin =D

>

> Mia

>

[Guest guest]

Awesome ideas!!! I want to come play! Look around on etsy.com for hand/home

made frangrance ideas, if you havent already.

How are you feeling post surgery? I bet you can have a beautiful garden

planned out by spring.

On Wed, Feb 9, 2011 at 6:20 PM, anuria67854 wrote:

>

>

> Go Mia! What a lovely set of projects that interact with each other!

>

> Yes, its up to us as adults to shovel out that stinking pile of negative

> bulls**t that nada heaped up in our heads; that toxic crap needs to go:

>

> Nada sez: " Different=Dangerous "

> (S-c-r-a-p-e... that's wrong, and its gone!)

>

> Nada sez: " What a silly, embarrassing, childish, pointless thing to be

> interested in. "

> (S-c-r-a-p-e... THAT's wrong, and its gone!)

>

> Nada sez: " You're just not smart enough/talented enough/worthy enough to be

> any good at that, and at your age? "

> (S-c-r-a-p-e... and that's wrong, wrong, wrong, and its gone!)

>

> All that fly-specked, maggoty s**t scraped and shoveled out of your mind.

> Good!

>

> Nada piled the crap there in the first place in order to hobble us

> emotionally: prevent us from growing and learning and ceasing to be totally

> focused on her. Instead of drawing her growing child to her by being kind,

> supportive and nurturing, nada instead tried to make it impossible for us to

> go anywhere else out of fear, shame, and ignorance. That's all kinds of

> narcissistic, selfish and cruel.

>

> So, anyway, your projects sound delightful to me!

>

> -Annie

>

>

>

> >

> > So I'm not sure what brought this up, but there are some things that I

> > never attempted to learn or do (hobby things) because of the way my

> > nada would discourage & belittle me for them. Now, these aren't

> > necessarily things I wanted to do as a kid, but I think that fear of

> > trying something new (read: PTSD) kept me from doing it. I've

> > decided, no more.

> >

> > I have a fond memory when I was about 11. On weekends, I'd go to my

> > dad's house and there was a girl about my age that lived across the

> > street. We would pick flowers & plants and put them in water to make

> > our own " Perfume " . Since then, I've had an interest in learning how

> > to make perfume, and so I've been researching it and I'm going to do

> > it. It's really not that hard. But, it's also spurring something

> > else I want to learn about.

> >

> > See, most perfume makers use essential oils. Sure, you can buy them,

> > but it'd be cool to make my own too! Which leads me to yet something

> > else I have wanted to learn... gardening! LOL. I also really like to

> > cook so having fresh veggies, herbs & fruits would be awesome. I also

> > love strawberries and there are so many different kinds that I really

> > think I'd like to try a strawberry garden.

> >

> > So I've been researching and I am going to build what is called a

> > " salad table " . It's designed by university of land's agricultural

> > department, and the plans are online free. (If anyone's interested,

> > here's a link:

> http://www.growit.umd.edu/Salad%20Tables%20and%20Salad%20Boxes/index.cfm)

> >

> > This would be great to keep critters out and to save my back & knees

> > (bad knees) from having to crawl around on the ground. Plus, it's

> > easily adaptable... instead of 2 x 4's for the walls, I'm going to use

> > 2 x 8's so I can plant things that require deeper soil. I also want

> > to build a bit of a frame off the top so I can put chicken wire over

> > it to keep birds out. This is important for the strawberries

> > especially since the birds love to eat them.

> >

> > Sorry this is kind of lengthy, but I realized the reason I never tried

> > to do any of these things... all of them things I've had an interest

> > in for quite some time... is due to how often nada would belittle,

> > ridicule & make fun of me for having ideas like this & wanting to

> > learn something new. So by God, I'm going to do it! And the salad

> > table should be easy to build (I'm pretty handy anyway) and

> > inexpensive =)

> >

> > Then I would have stuff to cook with, stuff to use to make oil

> > infusions (need a distiller to get true essential oils, and that's too

> > expensive, so infusions are another good option for perfumes) and

> > hey.. something to do that I really think I'll enjoy =)

> >

> > Oh yeah, also going to make a compost bin =D

> >

> > Mia

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks Annie! I'm getting even more excited for spring now so it will be

warm enough to go outside & build my salad table thingie hehe. I found an

excellent grower with fabulous reviews online too who sells all kinds of

variety of strawberries (plants & seeds). He has some " pineberry " bushes

too... you may have seen photos of them online within the last year or so.

They are white strawberries with red seeds and people say they taste like

pineapple, hence the name. I've been dying to try these suckers which is

what origionally sparked my interest in a strawberry garden (after years of

wanting a veggie garden). I emailed to ask if they were seeds or plants,

they are what they call quick start plants. So I'm going to order a couple

of those and I think a couple of other variety!

I'm excited to try it!

And yes, you are right, I think it is some sort of narcissistic cross over

in that line of thinking from our nadas that makes us " scrape the sh** " out

of our minds and not do it.

Mia

On Wed, Feb 9, 2011 at 8:20 PM, anuria67854 wrote:

>

>

> Go Mia! What a lovely set of projects that interact with each other!

>

> Yes, its up to us as adults to shovel out that stinking pile of negative

> bulls**t that nada heaped up in our heads; that toxic crap needs to go:

>

> Nada sez: " Different=Dangerous "

> (S-c-r-a-p-e... that's wrong, and its gone!)

>

> Nada sez: " What a silly, embarrassing, childish, pointless thing to be

> interested in. "

> (S-c-r-a-p-e... THAT's wrong, and its gone!)

>

> Nada sez: " You're just not smart enough/talented enough/worthy enough to be

> any good at that, and at your age? "

> (S-c-r-a-p-e... and that's wrong, wrong, wrong, and its gone!)

>

> All that fly-specked, maggoty s**t scraped and shoveled out of your mind.

> Good!

>

> Nada piled the crap there in the first place in order to hobble us

> emotionally: prevent us from growing and learning and ceasing to be totally

> focused on her. Instead of drawing her growing child to her by being kind,

> supportive and nurturing, nada instead tried to make it impossible for us to

> go anywhere else out of fear, shame, and ignorance. That's all kinds of

> narcissistic, selfish and cruel.

>

> So, anyway, your projects sound delightful to me!

>

> -Annie

>

>

>

> >

> > So I'm not sure what brought this up, but there are some things that I

> > never attempted to learn or do (hobby things) because of the way my

> > nada would discourage & belittle me for them. Now, these aren't

> > necessarily things I wanted to do as a kid, but I think that fear of

> > trying something new (read: PTSD) kept me from doing it. I've

> > decided, no more.

> >

> > I have a fond memory when I was about 11. On weekends, I'd go to my

> > dad's house and there was a girl about my age that lived across the

> > street. We would pick flowers & plants and put them in water to make

> > our own " Perfume " . Since then, I've had an interest in learning how

> > to make perfume, and so I've been researching it and I'm going to do

> > it. It's really not that hard. But, it's also spurring something

> > else I want to learn about.

> >

> > See, most perfume makers use essential oils. Sure, you can buy them,

> > but it'd be cool to make my own too! Which leads me to yet something

> > else I have wanted to learn... gardening! LOL. I also really like to

> > cook so having fresh veggies, herbs & fruits would be awesome. I also

> > love strawberries and there are so many different kinds that I really

> > think I'd like to try a strawberry garden.

> >

> > So I've been researching and I am going to build what is called a

> > " salad table " . It's designed by university of land's agricultural

> > department, and the plans are online free. (If anyone's interested,

> > here's a link:

> http://www.growit.umd.edu/Salad%20Tables%20and%20Salad%20Boxes/index.cfm)

> >

> > This would be great to keep critters out and to save my back & knees

> > (bad knees) from having to crawl around on the ground. Plus, it's

> > easily adaptable... instead of 2 x 4's for the walls, I'm going to use

> > 2 x 8's so I can plant things that require deeper soil. I also want

> > to build a bit of a frame off the top so I can put chicken wire over

> > it to keep birds out. This is important for the strawberries

> > especially since the birds love to eat them.

> >

> > Sorry this is kind of lengthy, but I realized the reason I never tried

> > to do any of these things... all of them things I've had an interest

> > in for quite some time... is due to how often nada would belittle,

> > ridicule & make fun of me for having ideas like this & wanting to

> > learn something new. So by God, I'm going to do it! And the salad

> > table should be easy to build (I'm pretty handy anyway) and

> > inexpensive =)

> >

> > Then I would have stuff to cook with, stuff to use to make oil

> > infusions (need a distiller to get true essential oils, and that's too

> > expensive, so infusions are another good option for perfumes) and

> > hey.. something to do that I really think I'll enjoy =)

> >

> > Oh yeah, also going to make a compost bin =D

> >

> > Mia

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks Girlscout! I love etsy, I'm not sure they would list the

" tones " of the perfume and the oils used in them if they're selilng

(you know, trade secrets & all lol) but I might just take a peek. I

found a couple of recipes from a site that's all about perfume making

that I will try as my first perfume experiments ;-)

I'm feeling FABULOUS since surgery! I've been doing a lot more around

the house and even went out shopping both Tuesday & yesterday. I went

to wallmart both days... found a winter coat finally (no more doubling

up on hoodies, brrr!) that was half off, so it was only $17.50! Then

yesterday I went to a couple of places to look at essential oils,

spent about 1.5 hours doing that and ended up back at walmart to pick

up stuff for my favorite dinner, came home & made that (It's a kind of

big dinner with a bit more work than usual)... All in all I was on my

feet about 7 hours straight & felt fine! My stamina's not quite back

to where it was, and my back & legs hurt but my pelvis was fine lol.

I'm really happy!

I also have appointments with the dean of my nursing program & someone

from readmission & fin. aid next week. If all goes well I should be

back in classes next month =D

Ty so much for asking =) I'm really doing good! I'm hoping Ms. Jaie is too!

Mia

On Wed, Feb 9, 2011 at 9:35 PM, Girlscout Cowboy

wrote:

> Awesome ideas!!! I want to come play! Look around on etsy.com for hand/home

> made frangrance ideas, if you havent already.

>

> How are you feeling post surgery? I bet you can have a beautiful garden

> planned out by spring.