ptsd

March 9, 2011

So gang,

I have a lot of health problems. Fibromyalgia, migraines and now a stabbing

pain in my side. I go through minor ups and major downs health wise. I seem

to start out pretty strong in the morning, but I run out of steam around 6

p.m.

In addition, I have days, at least once a quarter, where my body just kind

of shuts down on me. I usually have to leave wherever I am and go home. The

pain gets really really bad.I put on comfy clothes and go to bed with a

heating pad/ice. When I'm sick I have to completely escape sensory

stimulation.

After having an episode on my birthmas (ha ha ok my NC anniversary) 2 days

ago, I wonder if it is PTSD. Annie - could it be?

Here are my major threat of bodily harm childhood traumas (I've been

researching). Warning, this might be upsetting info - but what do we share

that isn't.

1) Having rape described for me graphically before I knew what sex was.

Thanks to nada of course. I think around age 3 but who knows.

2) Having object rape explained to me - in context of it happening to

someone I vaguely knew - again graphically in terms I could understand.

Probably before age 6.

3) My best friend's cousin age 6 months (a baby) died in a car/train

accident. I was about age 4. Again the detail from nada.

4) Soon after. watching a movie on TV where Jane Fonda's TV daughter is run

over by a train and her legs are cut off.

5) At age 9.5 or 10, my cousin went with his family to a millitary area,

picked up a millitary shell and was blown to bits. He was taken to a

hospital about 1 block from my house. Nada went over, and was furious about

it because he was related on my dad's side and therefore not her

responsability. My baby brother was concieved that night. Yes, detail, down

to what the cousin looked like laying in his coffin and the mortuary putty.

6) My baby bro, concieved on the night of that violent death dies. And guess

what - i was 10 and I know every detail including where nada hid the condoms

to keep it from happening again (file cabinet, top drawer, I know because

she showed me).

7) and on and on nada loved to tell me about bad things that happened to

people.

8) And in my early 20s my next door neighbor and pal rode his atv into a

mine shaft and died. This time I got to see him in his coffin with the putty

on his face. My ex husband LAUGHED when I told him how my friend died. What

a douchebag.

So, PTSD? The migraines and pain started around 3rd grade - what is that 8

years old?

Thanks guys. Diagnose me.

Hugs, GS

March 9, 2011

((((Girlscout)))) you've been through enough for many lifetimes no wonder you've

got PTSD. Have you done many therapy treatments from that angle? Like EMDR,

EFT or alternative body based trauma releasing stuff? I haven't looked into it

much but I've heard there's treatments out there based on how memories are

stored in our bodies and not just our brains.

hope you feel better

>

> So gang,

>

> I have a lot of health problems. Fibromyalgia, migraines and now a stabbing

> pain in my side. I go through minor ups and major downs health wise. I seem

> to start out pretty strong in the morning, but I run out of steam around 6

> p.m.

>

> In addition, I have days, at least once a quarter, where my body just kind

> of shuts down on me. I usually have to leave wherever I am and go home. The

> pain gets really really bad.I put on comfy clothes and go to bed with a

> heating pad/ice. When I'm sick I have to completely escape sensory

> stimulation.

>

> After having an episode on my birthmas (ha ha ok my NC anniversary) 2 days

> ago, I wonder if it is PTSD. Annie - could it be?

>

> Here are my major threat of bodily harm childhood traumas (I've been

> researching). Warning, this might be upsetting info - but what do we share

> that isn't.

>

> 1) Having rape described for me graphically before I knew what sex was.

> Thanks to nada of course. I think around age 3 but who knows.

> 2) Having object rape explained to me - in context of it happening to

> someone I vaguely knew - again graphically in terms I could understand.

> Probably before age 6.

> 3) My best friend's cousin age 6 months (a baby) died in a car/train

> accident. I was about age 4. Again the detail from nada.

> 4) Soon after. watching a movie on TV where Jane Fonda's TV daughter is run

> over by a train and her legs are cut off.

> 5) At age 9.5 or 10, my cousin went with his family to a millitary area,

> picked up a millitary shell and was blown to bits. He was taken to a

> hospital about 1 block from my house. Nada went over, and was furious about

> it because he was related on my dad's side and therefore not her

> responsability. My baby brother was concieved that night. Yes, detail, down

> to what the cousin looked like laying in his coffin and the mortuary putty.

> 6) My baby bro, concieved on the night of that violent death dies. And guess

> what - i was 10 and I know every detail including where nada hid the condoms

> to keep it from happening again (file cabinet, top drawer, I know because

> she showed me).

> 7) and on and on nada loved to tell me about bad things that happened to

> people.

> 8) And in my early 20s my next door neighbor and pal rode his atv into a

> mine shaft and died. This time I got to see him in his coffin with the putty

> on his face. My ex husband LAUGHED when I told him how my friend died. What

> a douchebag.

>

> So, PTSD? The migraines and pain started around 3rd grade - what is that 8

> years old?

>

> Thanks guys. Diagnose me.

>

> Hugs, GS

>

March 9, 2011

Girlscout, given all you have been through, including things not listed, I

think it could be PTSD. I have complex PTSD, the main difference between

CPTSD & PTSD being that complex refers to long term abuse.

As for migraines, it could or may not be related. I don't get them very

often at all. Some people are just more prone to them. I do have fibro,

but, I also have history of chronic pain from the endo. My doctor was

telling me that I kind of have the set up to have fibro... history of

depression, history of severe chronic pain and IBS. Lovely, eh? I can say

without a doubt that when I am stressed my IBS does flare up, but not always

the fibro pain. Amazingly right now it's not flaring up. I say " amazing "

because with all the grandnada b.s. and now I'm sick, I actually am not

feeling too bad pain wise. Wiped out, yeah, but I feel my fibro pain is

managed pretty well with the meds I take.

I think there could be a connection. you've lived through repeated traumas,

so it doesn't hurt to talk to your doctor or T about it.

As for that stabbing pain, I know you thought it may have been gall bladder

and said they ruled it out, so I'm guessing it's on your right side? I

think you should have it reassessed. Not to say it IS your gall bladder,

but it could be other things, including pleurisy or some kind of referred

pain (pain that hurts somewhere else in the body other than where the injury

or problem is. An example is left jaw or left arm pain during heart attack.)

Hang in there GS *HUGS*. I'm sorry you've not felt very well lately and I am

sending some good vibes your way. And still think it would be a good idea

to talk to your doc and/or T about possible PTSD and also about the pain.

Pain is not fun =(

Mia

On Wed, Mar 9, 2011 at 7:30 PM, Girlscout Cowboy <girlscout.cowboy@...

> wrote:

>

> So gang,

>

> I have a lot of health problems. Fibromyalgia, migraines and now a stabbing

> pain in my side. I go through minor ups and major downs health wise. I seem

> to start out pretty strong in the morning, but I run out of steam around 6

> p.m.

>

> In addition, I have days, at least once a quarter, where my body just kind

> of shuts down on me. I usually have to leave wherever I am and go home. The

> pain gets really really bad.I put on comfy clothes and go to bed with a

> heating pad/ice. When I'm sick I have to completely escape sensory

> stimulation.

>

> After having an episode on my birthmas (ha ha ok my NC anniversary) 2 days

> ago, I wonder if it is PTSD. Annie - could it be?

>

> Here are my major threat of bodily harm childhood traumas (I've been

> researching). Warning, this might be upsetting info - but what do we share

> that isn't.

>

> 1) Having rape described for me graphically before I knew what sex was.

> Thanks to nada of course. I think around age 3 but who knows.

> 2) Having object rape explained to me - in context of it happening to

> someone I vaguely knew - again graphically in terms I could understand.

> Probably before age 6.

> 3) My best friend's cousin age 6 months (a baby) died in a car/train

> accident. I was about age 4. Again the detail from nada.

> 4) Soon after. watching a movie on TV where Jane Fonda's TV daughter is run

> over by a train and her legs are cut off.

> 5) At age 9.5 or 10, my cousin went with his family to a millitary area,

> picked up a millitary shell and was blown to bits. He was taken to a

> hospital about 1 block from my house. Nada went over, and was furious about

> it because he was related on my dad's side and therefore not her

> responsability. My baby brother was concieved that night. Yes, detail, down

> to what the cousin looked like laying in his coffin and the mortuary putty.

> 6) My baby bro, concieved on the night of that violent death dies. And

> guess

> what - i was 10 and I know every detail including where nada hid the

> condoms

> to keep it from happening again (file cabinet, top drawer, I know because

> she showed me).

> 7) and on and on nada loved to tell me about bad things that happened to

> people.

> 8) And in my early 20s my next door neighbor and pal rode his atv into a

> mine shaft and died. This time I got to see him in his coffin with the

> putty

> on his face. My ex husband LAUGHED when I told him how my friend died. What

> a douchebag.

>

> So, PTSD? The migraines and pain started around 3rd grade - what is that 8

> years old?

>

> Thanks guys. Diagnose me.

>

> Hugs, GS

>

March 10, 2011

Yes I heard from my T. She thinks it is PTSD too. Ahh well, I guess knowing

is half the battle.

> Girlscout, given all you have been through, including things not listed, I

> think it could be PTSD. I have complex PTSD, the main difference between

> CPTSD & PTSD being that complex refers to long term abuse.

>

> As for migraines, it could or may not be related. I don't get them very

> often at all. Some people are just more prone to them. I do have fibro,

> but, I also have history of chronic pain from the endo. My doctor was

> telling me that I kind of have the set up to have fibro... history of

> depression, history of severe chronic pain and IBS. Lovely, eh? I can say

> without a doubt that when I am stressed my IBS does flare up, but not

> always

> the fibro pain. Amazingly right now it's not flaring up. I say " amazing "

> because with all the grandnada b.s. and now I'm sick, I actually am not

> feeling too bad pain wise. Wiped out, yeah, but I feel my fibro pain is

> managed pretty well with the meds I take.

>

> I think there could be a connection. you've lived through repeated

> traumas,

> so it doesn't hurt to talk to your doctor or T about it.

>

> As for that stabbing pain, I know you thought it may have been gall bladder

> and said they ruled it out, so I'm guessing it's on your right side? I

> think you should have it reassessed. Not to say it IS your gall bladder,

> but it could be other things, including pleurisy or some kind of referred

> pain (pain that hurts somewhere else in the body other than where the

> injury

> or problem is. An example is left jaw or left arm pain during heart

> attack.)

>

> Hang in there GS *HUGS*. I'm sorry you've not felt very well lately and I

> am

> sending some good vibes your way. And still think it would be a good idea

> to talk to your doc and/or T about possible PTSD and also about the pain.

> Pain is not fun =(

>

> Mia

>

> On Wed, Mar 9, 2011 at 7:30 PM, Girlscout Cowboy <

> girlscout.cowboy@...

> > wrote:

>

> >

> > So gang,

> >

> > I have a lot of health problems. Fibromyalgia, migraines and now a

> stabbing

> > pain in my side. I go through minor ups and major downs health wise. I

> seem

> > to start out pretty strong in the morning, but I run out of steam around

> 6

> > p.m.

> >

> > In addition, I have days, at least once a quarter, where my body just

> kind

> > of shuts down on me. I usually have to leave wherever I am and go home.

> The

> > pain gets really really bad.I put on comfy clothes and go to bed with a

> > heating pad/ice. When I'm sick I have to completely escape sensory

> > stimulation.

> >

> > After having an episode on my birthmas (ha ha ok my NC anniversary) 2

> days

> > ago, I wonder if it is PTSD. Annie - could it be?

> >

> > Here are my major threat of bodily harm childhood traumas (I've been

> > researching). Warning, this might be upsetting info - but what do we

> share

> > that isn't.

> >

> > 1) Having rape described for me graphically before I knew what sex was.

> > Thanks to nada of course. I think around age 3 but who knows.

> > 2) Having object rape explained to me - in context of it happening to

> > someone I vaguely knew - again graphically in terms I could understand.

> > Probably before age 6.

> > 3) My best friend's cousin age 6 months (a baby) died in a car/train

> > accident. I was about age 4. Again the detail from nada.

> > 4) Soon after. watching a movie on TV where Jane Fonda's TV daughter is

> run

> > over by a train and her legs are cut off.

> > 5) At age 9.5 or 10, my cousin went with his family to a millitary area,

> > picked up a millitary shell and was blown to bits. He was taken to a

> > hospital about 1 block from my house. Nada went over, and was furious

> about

> > it because he was related on my dad's side and therefore not her

> > responsability. My baby brother was concieved that night. Yes, detail,

> down

> > to what the cousin looked like laying in his coffin and the mortuary

> putty.

> > 6) My baby bro, concieved on the night of that violent death dies. And

> > guess

> > what - i was 10 and I know every detail including where nada hid the

> > condoms

> > to keep it from happening again (file cabinet, top drawer, I know because

> > she showed me).

> > 7) and on and on nada loved to tell me about bad things that happened to

> > people.

> > 8) And in my early 20s my next door neighbor and pal rode his atv into a

> > mine shaft and died. This time I got to see him in his coffin with the

> > putty

> > on his face. My ex husband LAUGHED when I told him how my friend died.

> What

> > a douchebag.

> >

> > So, PTSD? The migraines and pain started around 3rd grade - what is that

> 8

> > years old?

> >

> > Thanks guys. Diagnose me.

> >

> > Hugs, GS

> >

March 10, 2011

GS,

Ugh, my nada did this to me too. She'd graphically describe violent

things/situations etc to me and then later she'd get angry at me for knowing

what things were! But she told me!? I guess I thought it was normal for mothers

to tell their children terrible, horrible things that had happened to them and

others.

It definitely could be PTSD. And it could be that the PTSD exaggerates

pre-existing conditions/chronic pain etc. It certainly doesn't help anything. If

the pain started when you were so young, it does seem very possible that the

pain is a direct correlation to the graphic things your nada told you! I have

never heard of (healthy) children getting such terrible pain so young. When do

migraines normally begin?

Feel better,

- Cvidz