Second guessing, dread & childishness

March 16, 2011

Wondering if other KOs constantly second guess themselves like I do.

Sigh... I had to sit out of school for 4 months due to having surgery. I

had a GREAT group of people that were with me then. We had no drama, all

got along great, etc. Now I'm with a new group of people and oh dear god...

we have some drama-mamas in my class.

Today, our instructor was out sick. Because it's a one class a month thing,

when this happens (which is rare), the head of the nursing program will come

in and give us projects (busy work) to do. BUT, it's still a way for us to

use the time to LEARN what we're supposed to cover in class that day. No,

it's not particularly fun, but hey... we're all adults, right? right?

There's been all kinds of crazy drama in class & clinical this month with

some of these girls. Today, two of them got up and left when the head of

the program stepped out, after she told us that another

administrator/instructor would be in to lecture shortly. Well, that

instructor had also been in & out of the room and noticed that the drama

mamas had left. They were bitching & moaning " Hey, we're all adults here,

right? We can leave if we want to! " . Yes, they're right. But because of

their decision, they put some of us in an uncomfortable position and they

will be marked absent for the day, which I know is going to tick one of them

off because she goes on & on about her " perfect attendance " . Anyway, the

uncomfortable position was when this other instructor asked us who they

were! We had to rat out our classmates. Thanks, ladies. Thanks a lot.

Because now I know they're just going to be livid pissed and bring more

drama.

In clinical yesterday, one of them was about an hour late. I was doing med

pass with my clinical instructor, and she comes up to us and starts telling

her how she got pulled over & blah blah blah but got off with a warning.

Later that day, just as we were getitng ready to wrap up, she tells me and

a couple other students how she LIED about it and didn't even wake up until

7:12 am (we have to be there at 6:45 am). She was bragging about it! " I so

totally pulled one over on <instructor> " . Really? That's SO GROWN UP of

you, " adult " . Oh that just bothers me so much, but I decided to keep my

mouth shut because I have to put up with these broads for 8 more months.

And it causes a moral dilemma for me as well... if she can so easily whip

up some lie to manipulate the instructor, is she lying on her

paperwork/charting regarding her patient care? Something says she might be

doing that... considering that usually the instructor is busy with someone

doing med pass and those two can almost always be found sitting on their

asses at the nurses station, B.S'ing. Yes, we all have to do some work at

the nurse's station to do our notes & things, but I'm BUSY! I am with my

patient, or helping others who need it. But it never fails, any time I need

to find a fellow student, I can find those two at the nurse's station just

yapping. And do you think I want to ask either of them for help? Oy.

OMG, I could go on & on and I've only been back to school 3 weeks. It's

ridiculous! But of course after today with being asked by the other

instructor for their names (Myself & 2 other students) I'm expecting the

worse from these bullies. Yes, I do put them in the bully category as well

because they will make fun of other students for asking questions.

Grrrraaarrrr!

So I'm second guessing myself now. I had to stop & think of the one girl's

name because I'm new to this group of people. Then another girl remembered

it. This was right before lunch and of course then just about the rest of

the class was bitching about her asking other students to name names. Come

on! No it was not a great situation, but on the other hand I was asked and

I am not going to lie to my instructors or anyone else for that matter.

Geezus. The school was trying to find an alternative way to educate us.

We're all paying for that education, after all. Just shut up & do the

work, it was really not a big deal at all! " Oh no, we have to self study &

*gasp* do homework?! " (Most instructors do NOT assign homework, grades come

from tests & quizzes, papers, etc... but not really homework. But I still

study my ass off).

You know, none of us are perfect. We ALL make mistakes, and when I do I try

my best to learn from them. One of my motto's for life is, " If you mess up,

fess up " . And given what I've had to listen to & witness this month, they

are so not like that. They were running their mouths again after the

instructor pointed out some errors in their nursing notes. We all had

errors, some more than others. But there goes drama mama #1 " My notes were

PERFECT. She just HAD to find something to mark wrong on them. " Guess

what, kiddo? They weren't. Because we were all waiting to have our notes

checked, and some of us were listening to her correct YOUR papers to pick up

tips & pointers. Sheesh.

Sorry, this is long, rambly & VERY much a rant, but I am ready to scream.

They are very intrusive to the learning process, especially in lecture with

their snide little remarks & swearing. NOT professional at all. I sure as

hell wouldn't want them to be my nurse or the nurse of someone I love.

Mia the frustrated 2nd guesser.

March 16, 2011

Yes, I second guess myself constantly.

My T would tell me to say " Look drama mama, shut up and do the work. "

I would. It will feel good. And the drama mama will have more respect for

you after.

Hugs

>

> Wondering if other KOs constantly second guess themselves like I do.

>

> Sigh... I had to sit out of school for 4 months due to having surgery. I

> had a GREAT group of people that were with me then. We had no drama, all

> got along great, etc. Now I'm with a new group of people and oh dear god...

> we have some drama-mamas in my class.

>

> Today, our instructor was out sick. Because it's a one class a month thing,

> when this happens (which is rare), the head of the nursing program will

> come

> in and give us projects (busy work) to do. BUT, it's still a way for us to

> use the time to LEARN what we're supposed to cover in class that day. No,

> it's not particularly fun, but hey... we're all adults, right? right?

>

> There's been all kinds of crazy drama in class & clinical this month with

> some of these girls. Today, two of them got up and left when the head of

> the program stepped out, after she told us that another

> administrator/instructor would be in to lecture shortly. Well, that

> instructor had also been in & out of the room and noticed that the drama

> mamas had left. They were bitching & moaning " Hey, we're all adults here,

> right? We can leave if we want to! " . Yes, they're right. But because of

> their decision, they put some of us in an uncomfortable position and they

> will be marked absent for the day, which I know is going to tick one of

> them

> off because she goes on & on about her " perfect attendance " . Anyway, the

> uncomfortable position was when this other instructor asked us who they

> were! We had to rat out our classmates. Thanks, ladies. Thanks a lot.

> Because now I know they're just going to be livid pissed and bring more

> drama.

>

> In clinical yesterday, one of them was about an hour late. I was doing med

> pass with my clinical instructor, and she comes up to us and starts telling

> her how she got pulled over & blah blah blah but got off with a warning.

> Later that day, just as we were getitng ready to wrap up, she tells me and

> a couple other students how she LIED about it and didn't even wake up until

> 7:12 am (we have to be there at 6:45 am). She was bragging about it! " I so

> totally pulled one over on <instructor> " . Really? That's SO GROWN UP of

> you, " adult " . Oh that just bothers me so much, but I decided to keep my

> mouth shut because I have to put up with these broads for 8 more months.

> And it causes a moral dilemma for me as well... if she can so easily whip

> up some lie to manipulate the instructor, is she lying on her

> paperwork/charting regarding her patient care? Something says she might be

> doing that... considering that usually the instructor is busy with someone

> doing med pass and those two can almost always be found sitting on their

> asses at the nurses station, B.S'ing. Yes, we all have to do some work at

> the nurse's station to do our notes & things, but I'm BUSY! I am with my

> patient, or helping others who need it. But it never fails, any time I need

> to find a fellow student, I can find those two at the nurse's station just

> yapping. And do you think I want to ask either of them for help? Oy.

>

> OMG, I could go on & on and I've only been back to school 3 weeks. It's

> ridiculous! But of course after today with being asked by the other

> instructor for their names (Myself & 2 other students) I'm expecting the

> worse from these bullies. Yes, I do put them in the bully category as well

> because they will make fun of other students for asking questions.

> Grrrraaarrrr!

>

> So I'm second guessing myself now. I had to stop & think of the one girl's

> name because I'm new to this group of people. Then another girl remembered

> it. This was right before lunch and of course then just about the rest of

> the class was bitching about her asking other students to name names. Come

> on! No it was not a great situation, but on the other hand I was asked and

> I am not going to lie to my instructors or anyone else for that matter.

>

> Geezus. The school was trying to find an alternative way to educate us.

> We're all paying for that education, after all. Just shut up & do the

> work, it was really not a big deal at all! " Oh no, we have to self study &

> *gasp* do homework?! " (Most instructors do NOT assign homework, grades come

> from tests & quizzes, papers, etc... but not really homework. But I still

> study my ass off).

>

> You know, none of us are perfect. We ALL make mistakes, and when I do I try

> my best to learn from them. One of my motto's for life is, " If you mess up,

> fess up " . And given what I've had to listen to & witness this month, they

> are so not like that. They were running their mouths again after the

> instructor pointed out some errors in their nursing notes. We all had

> errors, some more than others. But there goes drama mama #1 " My notes were

> PERFECT. She just HAD to find something to mark wrong on them. " Guess

> what, kiddo? They weren't. Because we were all waiting to have our notes

> checked, and some of us were listening to her correct YOUR papers to pick

> up

> tips & pointers. Sheesh.

>

> Sorry, this is long, rambly & VERY much a rant, but I am ready to scream.

> They are very intrusive to the learning process, especially in lecture with

> their snide little remarks & swearing. NOT professional at all. I sure as

> hell wouldn't want them to be my nurse or the nurse of someone I love.

>

> Mia the frustrated 2nd guesser.

>

March 16, 2011

Wow, I am amazed that these students you describe who are so disrespectful that

they just bail out of class, who are blatantly uncooperative, who are not doing

their assignments properly, who talk during class, and complain and whine when

caught cheating or doing a sub-standard job on their assignments... why aren't

these jerks just tossed out of the program altogether?

Why are they allowed to remain in the program if they behave like that, show up

late, and don't do the assigned work satisfactorily?

I don't get it!

I'm amazed because I was in an employee chorus for a few years (back when I

worked for a large, very high profile corporation). The chorus was part of a

big annual Christmas show at a large theme park, a very lavish production, etc.

So, we're talking a semi-pro level of performance... but nothing like as serious

and professional as a nursing program.

And yet for this amateur, volunteer employee chorus the Rule was that if you

missed TWO rehearsals you were out of the chorus. Period, end of sentence.

Turn in your robe and collar, you were history. If you were over 10 minutes

late for rehearsal, you were counted " absent. "

How is it that a professional nursing school allows such childish,

unprofessional, bratty behavior from their students, is what I'd like to know.

Jeez, Louise!

That's awful!

-Annie

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