Something I realized this morning

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I realized something this morning on the way to work.  Most of my  dad and

stepmom's friends think they are good people, and most of the people I know

think I am a good person, so the only people who think that any of us are " bad "

are each other.  Well, except for my stepsisters.   They will believe whatever

their mom tells them.  And, I don't think my dad and stepmom are really " bad " , I

think they are people who made some wrong choices in life and instead of owning

up to them, they justify their behavior to make themselves feel good, even if

that means making my brother and I, and possibly my mom,  out to be the bad

guys.  Now, that doesn't mean I don't wish that the whole thing would come out

and people would see what I went through during those years.  One of my prayers,

lately, has been that this whole thing comes out in the open.  The only

difference between me and them, is that I am willing to admit to my share of the

issues, but

they are not.  My heart, arms, and home are always open to them, but they have

to want it for themselves, and they have to be willing to admit to their share

of the problems and take the ball I left in their court.  If they choose not to

do so, then that's their problem, not mine.  I am willing to let bygones be

bygones and start over.  And, I know there are times that I am going to start

thinking about the whole thing and get a little depressed about the whole

thing.  My dad and stepmom are the ones who started this silence, and since my

attempt to end it didn't work, they are the ones who are going to have to end

the silence.  I know that in the meantime, I have to leave it in God's hands,

even if it means waiting a long time.

Janet

 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own

understanding.

 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

 Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.

 It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.

Proverbs 3:5-8

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Amen.

In a message dated 5/18/2011 1:22:02 P.M. Eastern Daylight Time,

dreamytouches@... writes:

I realized something this morning on the way to work. Most of my dad and

stepmom's friends think they are good people, and most of the people I know

think I am a good person, so the only people who think that any of us are

" bad " are each other. Well, except for my stepsisters. They will believe

whatever their mom tells them. And, I don't think my dad and stepmom are

really " bad " , I think they are people who made some wrong choices in life

and instead of owning up to them, they justify their behavior to make

themselves feel good, even if that means making my brother and I, and possibly

my

mom, out to be the bad guys. Now, that doesn't mean I don't wish that

the whole thing would come out and people would see what I went through

during those years. One of my prayers, lately, has been that this whole thing

comes out in the open. The only difference between me and them, is that I

am willing to admit to my share of the issues, but

they are not. My heart, arms, and home are always open to them, but they

have to want it for themselves, and they have to be willing to admit to

their share of the problems and take the ball I left in their court. If they

choose not to do so, then that's their problem, not mine. I am willing to

let bygones be bygones and start over. And, I know there are times that I

am going to start thinking about the whole thing and get a little depressed

about the whole thing. My dad and stepmom are the ones who started this

silence, and since my attempt to end it didn't work, they are the ones who

are going to have to end the silence. I know that in the meantime, I have

to leave it in God's hands, even if it means waiting a long time.

Janet

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own

understanding.

In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil.

It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones.

Proverbs 3:5-8

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