Don't worry, about a thing... cause every little thing's gonna be alright...

[Guest guest]

I made it!

I made it!

I made it!

Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm free.

She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not that

person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

The major realizations over the last few months are this:

I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No one

will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for myself.

III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good friend,

a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or will do,

can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

I own me now.

Onward!

Lynnette

[Guest guest]

Congrats, hugs all around! Wha-hoo! And I'm going to use your beautiful list as

my mantra!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

>

> The major realizations over the last few months are this:

>

> I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

>

> II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

>

> III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

>

> IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

>

> I own me now.

>

> Onward!

>

> Lynnette

>

[Guest guest]

Wow. You obviously feel great, and deservedly so! I think it must be contagious,

because I'm starting to feel pretty cheerful myself! Congratulations! You must

have worked really hard.

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

>

> The major realizations over the last few months are this:

>

> I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

>

> II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

>

> III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

>

> IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

>

> I own me now.

>

> Onward!

>

> Lynnette

>

[Guest guest]

Thanks and yes... I feel fantastic!

Funny thing you said, " You must have worked really hard. " That is what my

therapist has said to me over the last 2 1/2 years... " I've never had anyone

WORK so hard to get through this .... you're going to make it because you want

it so badly... "

At first I thought it was just a 'nice thing to say'... now I realize she was

being honest. It was up to me to work through this... it wasn't fair or right

or honest that I was put in a position of having to do it... and I could have (

like a lot of people do) allowed myself to get stuck in that place of anger,

blame, hate, hurt... but I wanted more for my spirit. I wanted to dance in my

heart.. to be who I knew I was (no matter how beat down and denied that little

girl was) I was going to work on survival (insert dirty word here if you like)

and I was going to THRIVE!

Was it easy? Hell no! Those who have been here over the last 2 1/2 years and

know my story can bare witness to that fact. My Nada takes BPD (9:9 btw) to a

whole nuther art form and shows no signs of EVER backing off. But I am stronger

than her. I won my freedom from her chains because I finally decided I was

worth that fight...

So I worked. Against all of my self-destructive programming, my self-loathing,

my unworthiness... I fought. Daily. Hourly. I used the tools therapist gave

me, even if they made me cry and scream and implode because they were foreign to

my programming... I used them. I had to do SOMETHING DIFFERENT from what I was

taught to do because, Lord knows, what I was doing wasn't working and eventually

would kill me. And I'm worth more than that... I'm worth more than as a cork in

Nada's ever leaking soul.

So I worked hard.

We all can.

We just have to decide we're worth it.

Lynnette - Fight on!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

> >

> > The major realizations over the last few months are this:

> >

> > I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her.

I will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

> >

> > II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

> >

> > III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

> >

> > IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

> >

> > I own me now.

> >

> > Onward!

> >

> > Lynnette

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you... mantra on!

We all deserve to be free... no matter what we've been told by anyone.

Lynnette

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

> >

> > The major realizations over the last few months are this:

> >

> > I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her.

I will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

> >

> > II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

> >

> > III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

> >

> > IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

> >

> > I own me now.

> >

> > Onward!

> >

> > Lynnette

> >

>

[Guest guest]

That is awesome!

I'm giving you a virtual salute and cheering for you!

I think the precepts you wrote, it would be great to have those printed on a

card to put in one's purse or pocket and pull out whenever encountering the nada

or fada either in person or on the phone or by mail, etc. It could be like a

" shield of power " to

put up for protection.

Thanks for sharing your inspiring story with us.

-Annie

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

>

> The major realizations over the last few months are this:

>

> I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

>

> II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

>

> III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

>

> IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

>

> I own me now.

>

> Onward!

>

> Lynnette

>

[Guest guest]

Wow, Lynette, congrats sweetie!!

I always thought I would be sad whenever my therapist says it's time to

terminate therapy, but obviously from your experience, I can see it's a great

thing!

Hugs!

Fiona

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

>

> The major realizations over the last few months are this:

>

> I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

>

> II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

>

> III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

>

> IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

>

> I own me now.

>

> Onward!

>

> Lynnette

>

[Guest guest]

I was sad when we started going longer between appointments... I didn't fully

trust my ability to not be wiped out by Nada. Now I do. So it's really a

celebration of my spirit... a validation of my ability to let her craziness just

float on by...

Lynnette

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

> >

> > The major realizations over the last few months are this:

> >

> > I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her.

I will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

> >

> > II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

> >

> > III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

> >

> > IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

> >

> > I own me now.

> >

> > Onward!

> >

> > Lynnette

> >

>

[Guest guest]

I'd write it out if I needed to. I'd suggest it for those who forget. But I'm

now at the point where I automatically go to, " ME FIRST " ... then I deal with

everyone else.

Lynnette - who had never, until this exprience, lived a ME FIRST day in her

LIFE!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > I made it!

> >

> > Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

> >

> > The major realizations over the last few months are this:

> >

> > I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her.

I will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

> >

> > II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

> >

> > III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

> >

> > IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

> >

> > I own me now.

> >

> > Onward!

> >

> > Lynnette

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Lynette,

Your courage is so inspiring and just what the doctor ordered, especially today.

Thank you for sharing that. I am so happy for you!

There is hope!!

Chris

> > >

> > > I made it!

> > >

> > > I made it!

> > >

> > > I made it!

> > >

> > > Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

> > >

> > > The major realizations over the last few months are this:

> > >

> > > I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not

her. I will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her

discontent.

> > >

> > > II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me.

No one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

> > >

> > > III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

> > >

> > > IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

> > >

> > > I own me now.

> > >

> > > Onward!

> > >

> > > Lynnette

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Hope happened when I decided Nada was crazy and she's not ever going to NOT be

crazy.

But I wasn't... nor was I going to be. So I 'quit.'

It can happen to you... it's not easy and there are a lot of tears and

frustrations along the way as you begin to rage against all that was done to

you... all you lost 'then'... all the BPDer wants to take/to own/to control...

but it CAN happen... when you decide you're tired of it and you just walk away

and take care of YOU!

Lynnette

> > > >

> > > > I made it!

> > > >

> > > > I made it!

> > > >

> > > > I made it!

> > > >

> > > > Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy,

I'm free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are

not that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue

coming here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things

considered, you're free. "

> > > >

> > > > The major realizations over the last few months are this:

> > > >

> > > > I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not

her. I will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her

discontent.

> > > >

> > > > II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me.

No one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

> > > >

> > > > III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

> > > >

> > > > IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

> > > >

> > > > I own me now.

> > > >

> > > > Onward!

> > > >

> > > > Lynnette

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Awesome! Congratulations!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

>

> The major realizations over the last few months are this:

>

> I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

>

> II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

>

> III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

>

> IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

>

> I own me now.

>

> Onward!

>

> Lynnette

>

[Guest guest]

An A for Lynette - you scaled the mountain and made it down the other side with

your soul whole and healed. You're proof there's life after nadaland.

Em

> Hope happened when I decided Nada was crazy and she's not ever going to NOT be

crazy.

>

> But I wasn't... nor was I going to be. So I 'quit.'

>

> It can happen to you... it's not easy and there are a lot of tears and

frustrations along the way as you begin to rage against all that was done to

you... all you lost 'then'... all the BPDer wants to take/to own/to control...

but it CAN happen... when you decide you're tired of it and you just walk away

and take care of YOU!

>

> Lynnette

[Guest guest]

Thank you... I think the big lesson here is that I dared to look outside of the

world I was shown and made a conscious decision to find the world I only dreamed

of.

Of course that's so much easier to say now than it was then... I will never ever

sit here and say it was easy and everyone can/should... what false words that

come close to condesention... what I will say is each person can take one step

from where they are now. Just a tiny one... and maybe that one step will spark

another... that's how it was with me... one little tiny step... painful as it

was... lead to running.

So, for today, I propose... let us all take " Just one tiny step " and together we

can support eachother to change our lives.

Lynnette

>

> > Hope happened when I decided Nada was crazy and she's not ever going to NOT

be crazy.

> >

> > But I wasn't... nor was I going to be. So I 'quit.'

> >

> > It can happen to you... it's not easy and there are a lot of tears and

frustrations along the way as you begin to rage against all that was done to

you... all you lost 'then'... all the BPDer wants to take/to own/to control...

but it CAN happen... when you decide you're tired of it and you just walk away

and take care of YOU!

> >

> > Lynnette

>

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

" Thank you... I think the big lesson here is that I dared to look outside of the

world I was shown and made a conscious decision to find the world I only dreamed

of. "

Lynette, I've only seen shadows of what the world I dream of looks like. It

doesn't seem possible.

Thank you for saying it is.

[Guest guest]

Oh it is possible. It is blissfull and quiet and honest and transparent. It is

a place where I control me... sure, there are things that go wrong and sometimes

it's not perfect... but really... after all I've dealth with, and eventually

conquered, it's not that difficult or stressful or scary.

Decide to make the journey... it'll be hard but you'll have helpers along the

way as long as you ask for their assistance.

Lynnette

>

> " Thank you... I think the big lesson here is that I dared to look outside of

the world I was shown and made a conscious decision to find the world I only

dreamed of. "

>

>

> Lynette, I've only seen shadows of what the world I dream of looks like. It

doesn't seem possible.

>

> Thank you for saying it is.

>

[Guest guest]

Congratulations, Lynette!! I really love your mantra... I think I'll have to

" borrow " it for myself. I know what you mean about wanting to reclaim your

spirit.

It's wonderful to hear a success story, and to see that you had such an

empowering therapist.

Wishing you all the best,

-Cvidz

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> I made it!

>

> Therapist released me Tuesday. After 2 years and 6 months of therapy, I'm

free. She said, " You arrived broken, abused, and traumatized ... you are not

that person any longer. I can't think of any reason to have you continue coming

here. I'll leave the door open if you need me but, all things considered,

you're free. "

>

> The major realizations over the last few months are this:

>

> I. Nada is who she is. She will always be a BPD crazy mess. I am not her. I

will not be responsible for her. I will not live to quiet her discontent.

>

> II. I am me. I have always been me. My first responsiblity is to me. No

one will choose, ever again, what that means. I will make that choice for

myself.

>

> III. I will not accept lesser than with regards to my heart. Ever.

>

> IV. I am beautiful, powerful, intelligent and thoughtful. I am a good

friend, a good lover, a good mother, a good human being. Nothing Nada did, or

will do, can ever change that or erase those truths from my core being.

>

> I own me now.

>

> Onward!

>

> Lynnette

>