Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 I hope you feel better soon, GS. You are a better mother to yourself than your own mother was, so, you're taking steps to overcoming the trauma. Go GS! -Annie > > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder and > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she sent > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought that > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I might > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. > > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours per > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . anyway > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . . I > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. > > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most of > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted to > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. > > Booo > > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to 100 > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without being > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my parents > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist and > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. We > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had trauma in > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! AHH > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid with > daily emotional and physical trauma. > > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a little > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if I > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a real > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - even > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. > > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go with > it? HA HA > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night when my nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is great. Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. It certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical ills. Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can help. ________________________________ To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM Subject: feeling crappy  So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder and upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she sent me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought that I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I might improve!!! Well, that's exciting. Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours per week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . anyway I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . . I can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most of my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted to do, like grocery store and house cleaning. Booo And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to 100 percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without being enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my parents should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist and all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. We had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had trauma in my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! AHH someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid with daily emotional and physical trauma. So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a little broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if I had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a real mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - even if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go with it? HA HA Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 I live in the Rocky Mountains Long way away, but I am applying to grad school in your neighborhood for next year Thank you Yeah its a crappy day. Our old dog, who we thought was arthritic was miraculously cured this morning and he got up on the counter and broke my (full) bread machine into about 15 pieces while I was at the vet. i was making cranberry bread (he ate the dough for a whole loaf) and now I'm dealing with cran barf. And my little dog is at the vet I think she has seasonal affective, but the vet wanted to do blood work. Ugh spensive. Oh well, they are my pals. I guess we are all having a bad day. I'm proud of myself for canceling my obligations and just doing self care. > ** > > > You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night when my > nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is great. > Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. It > certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical ills. > Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can help. > > > ________________________________ > > To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM > Subject: feeling crappy > > > > > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder > and > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she sent > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought that > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I > might > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. > > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours > per > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . anyway > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . . I > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. > > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most of > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted to > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. > > Booo > > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to 100 > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without being > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my parents > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist and > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. We > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had trauma > in > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! AHH > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid with > daily emotional and physical trauma. > > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a little > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if I > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a > real > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - even > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. > > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go with > it? HA HA > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 Our animals always come first. Got 6 feral kittens (now 10 weeks) that are now looking for homes and my son doesn't understand why I don't want another (we have 2 cats, 3 dogs) although I'm really not opposed to another animal, I just don't financially that's its a such a good move since I might be needing to move soon. I had a cocker spaniel eat a whole box of peanut brittle, I made him stay out in the yard(this was nice weather) I just wasn't into the clean up. If you do make it up this way please let me know, I'll be happy to show you around. I assume you do mean by Upstate Rochester? ________________________________ To: WTOAdultChildren1 Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 2:39 PM Subject: Re: feeling crappy I live in the Rocky Mountains Long way away, but I am applying to grad school in your neighborhood for next year Thank you Yeah its a crappy day. Our old dog, who we thought was arthritic was miraculously cured this morning and he got up on the counter and broke my (full) bread machine into about 15 pieces while I was at the vet. i was making cranberry bread (he ate the dough for a whole loaf) and now I'm dealing with cran barf. And my little dog is at the vet I think she has seasonal affective, but the vet wanted to do blood work. Ugh spensive. Oh well, they are my pals. I guess we are all having a bad day. I'm proud of myself for canceling my obligations and just doing self care. > ** > > > You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night when my > nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is great. > Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. It > certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical ills. > Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can help. > > > ________________________________ > > To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM > Subject: feeling crappy > > > > > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder > and > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she sent > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought that > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I > might > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. > > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours > per > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . anyway > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . . I > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. > > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most of > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted to > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. > > Booo > > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to 100 > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without being > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my parents > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist and > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. We > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had trauma > in > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! AHH > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid with > daily emotional and physical trauma. > > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a little > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if I > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a > real > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - even > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. > > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go with > it? HA HA > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 Upstate would be either Syracuse or Keene New Hampshire. I won't know for about 8 months aggh. I'm trying to get a second master's in family therapy of all things HA HA There is one program in my state at my alma mater (I hope they take me back) and then another at a strictly LDS school that wouldnt take me with my tattoos and peircings and lack of belief in their religion in a million years. On that topic, do you think I should mention my background as a KO in my essays to the schools? I am wrestling with that and I am going to discuss it with my T. I was thinking of presenting it not emotionally, but the way one of the theorists would have looked at it. . . About animals ha ha. When i met my boyfriend I had a rescued hound dog sumthin sumthin mut of some sort (about 60 lb) and a show dog Welsh Terrier (20 lbs). My Airedale had just died and I loved her SO much and anyway. . . my new dogs (I call them The Replacements sometimes) they were both pups. And he has an old rottweiler mix. so we had three dogs, 2 rescued. That went on for 6 years. Then about 3 weeks ago I saw a male Airedale pup about 4 hours from my home who needed a home really badly. He was only 15 months old. I drove all night, got him and now I have four dogs, 3 rescues. I know its a lot but it isn't bad when they are your babies. In fact, a coworker of mine just rescued a dog from an animal hoarder and I joked that I was one. He said, No you are not, I've seen that side and your dogs are adored and cared for - I happened to have my airedale w me right then. that made me feel good, esp since he usually has nothing nice to say about me. Anyway, I gave up going to the coffee shop in trade for the universe letting me have my male airedale, I figure out I will end up money ahead. In fact right now I am typing while extracting a rawhide from his throat. He loves them but chokes on them so he can only have them when mama is close, like 1 foot away. My pets are Cowboy, Girlscout and the new one is Armor of GAWD, which makes me laugh every time I say it. HA HA HA I sort of wish I had named him Chaos Theory though. That also makes me laugh. I knew two dogs at the dog park named darwin and bacchus. I thought that was funny too. > ** > > > Our animals always come first. Got 6 feral kittens (now 10 weeks) that > are now looking for homes and my son doesn't understand why I don't want > another (we have 2 cats, 3 dogs) although I'm really not opposed to another > animal, I just don't financially that's its a such a good move since I might > be needing to move soon. > > I had a cocker spaniel eat a whole box of peanut brittle, I made him stay > out in the yard(this was nice weather) I just wasn't into the clean up. > > If you do make it up this way please let me know, I'll be happy to show you > around. I assume you do mean by Upstate Rochester? > > > ________________________________ > > To: WTOAdultChildren1 > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 2:39 PM > Subject: Re: feeling crappy > > > I live in the Rocky Mountains Long way away, but I am applying to grad > school in your neighborhood for next year > > Thank you > > Yeah its a crappy day. Our old dog, who we thought was arthritic was > miraculously cured this morning and he got up on the counter and broke my > (full) bread machine into about 15 pieces while I was at the vet. i was > making cranberry bread (he ate the dough for a whole loaf) and now I'm > dealing with cran barf. > > And my little dog is at the vet I think she has seasonal affective, but > the vet wanted to do blood work. Ugh spensive. > > Oh well, they are my pals. I guess we are all having a bad day. I'm proud > of > myself for canceling my obligations and just doing self care. > > > > > ** > > > > > > > You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night when > my > > nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is > great. > > Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. It > > certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical ills. > > Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can help. > > > > > > ________________________________ > > > > To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > > > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM > > Subject: feeling crappy > > > > > > > > > > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like > > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems > > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder > > and > > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she > sent > > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought > that > > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I > > might > > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. > > > > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours > > per > > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is > > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . > anyway > > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . . > I > > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. > > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. > > > > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most > of > > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be > > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I > > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted to > > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. > > > > Booo > > > > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to > 100 > > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without > being > > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my parents > > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist > and > > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. > We > > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They > > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often > > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had trauma > > in > > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! > AHH > > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid with > > daily emotional and physical trauma. > > > > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a > little > > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if I > > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a > > real > > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - > even > > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. > > > > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go > with > > it? HA HA > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 Ok Addendum - I went and got scout. She may have a thyroid problem ee gads. Plus they cleaned her teeth (which is good) but she is still semi anesthetized and I hate to see her like that. So cowboy rode with me to get her, it is like 4 blocks away and he loves to go in the truck. Anyway, I got her and brought them home, no drama. Then I left Cow in the truck and brought my poor little sleepy girl inside. Then I went to get Cow and my truck was ROLLING down the driveway FAST!!! I was freaking - because of Cowboy being in there my baby. If I had a brain i would have been freaking about it heading for my gorgeous garage door. Anyway, I managed to shove him aside and pulll the emergency brake. It stopped really sudden and basically gave me whiplash, but side to side not front to back. So now I think my gear must be going out because that's never happened before - I don't always set the brake. Dear day of poo, anesthesia, thyroid probs, general malaise and bread dough barf, you are more than welcome to end now. On Fri, Oct 14, 2011 at 3:55 PM, Girlscout Cowboy < girlscout.cowboy@...> wrote: > Upstate would be either Syracuse or Keene New Hampshire. I won't know for > about 8 months aggh. I'm trying to get a second master's in family therapy > of all things HA HA There is one program in my state at my alma mater (I > hope they take me back) and then another at a strictly LDS school that > wouldnt take me with my tattoos and peircings and lack of belief in their > religion in a million years. > > On that topic, do you think I should mention my background as a KO in my > essays to the schools? I am wrestling with that and I am going to discuss it > with my T. I was thinking of presenting it not emotionally, but the way one > of the theorists would have looked at it. . . > > About animals ha ha. When i met my boyfriend I had a rescued hound dog > sumthin sumthin mut of some sort (about 60 lb) and a show dog Welsh Terrier > (20 lbs). My Airedale had just died and I loved her SO much and anyway. . . > my new dogs (I call them The Replacements sometimes) they were both pups. > And he has an old rottweiler mix. so we had three dogs, 2 rescued. That went > on for 6 years. > > Then about 3 weeks ago I saw a male Airedale pup about 4 hours from my home > who needed a home really badly. He was only 15 months old. I drove all > night, got him and now I have four dogs, 3 rescues. I know its a lot but it > isn't bad when they are your babies. In fact, a coworker of mine just > rescued a dog from an animal hoarder and I joked that I was one. He said, No > you are not, I've seen that side and your dogs are adored and cared for - I > happened to have my airedale w me right then. that made me feel good, esp > since he usually has nothing nice to say about me. Anyway, I gave up going > to the coffee shop in trade for the universe letting me have my male > airedale, I figure out I will end up money ahead. In fact right now I am > typing while extracting a rawhide from his throat. He loves them but chokes > on them so he can only have them when mama is close, like 1 foot away. My > pets are Cowboy, Girlscout and the new one is Armor of GAWD, which makes me > laugh every time I say it. HA HA HA I sort of wish I had named him Chaos > Theory though. That also makes me laugh. I knew two dogs at the dog park > named darwin and bacchus. I thought that was funny too. > > > > >> ** >> >> >> Our animals always come first. Got 6 feral kittens (now 10 weeks) that >> are now looking for homes and my son doesn't understand why I don't want >> another (we have 2 cats, 3 dogs) although I'm really not opposed to another >> animal, I just don't financially that's its a such a good move since I might >> be needing to move soon. >> >> I had a cocker spaniel eat a whole box of peanut brittle, I made him stay >> out in the yard(this was nice weather) I just wasn't into the clean up. >> >> If you do make it up this way please let me know, I'll be happy to show >> you around. I assume you do mean by Upstate Rochester? >> >> >> ________________________________ >> >> To: WTOAdultChildren1 >> Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 2:39 PM >> Subject: Re: feeling crappy >> >> >> I live in the Rocky Mountains Long way away, but I am applying to grad >> school in your neighborhood for next year >> >> Thank you >> >> Yeah its a crappy day. Our old dog, who we thought was arthritic was >> miraculously cured this morning and he got up on the counter and broke my >> (full) bread machine into about 15 pieces while I was at the vet. i was >> making cranberry bread (he ate the dough for a whole loaf) and now I'm >> dealing with cran barf. >> >> And my little dog is at the vet I think she has seasonal affective, but >> the vet wanted to do blood work. Ugh spensive. >> >> Oh well, they are my pals. I guess we are all having a bad day. I'm proud >> of >> myself for canceling my obligations and just doing self care. >> >> >> >> > ** >> >> > >> > >> > You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night when >> my >> > nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is >> great. >> > Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. It >> > certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical ills. >> > Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can help. >> > >> > >> > ________________________________ >> > >> > To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > >> > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM >> > Subject: feeling crappy >> > >> > >> > >> > >> > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like >> > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems >> > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder >> > and >> > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she >> sent >> > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought >> that >> > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I >> > might >> > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. >> > >> > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours >> > per >> > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is >> > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . >> anyway >> > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . >> . I >> > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. >> > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. >> > >> > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most >> of >> > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be >> > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I >> > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted >> to >> > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. >> > >> > Booo >> > >> > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to >> 100 >> > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without >> being >> > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my >> parents >> > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist >> and >> > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. >> We >> > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They >> > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often >> > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had >> trauma >> > in >> > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! >> AHH >> > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid >> with >> > daily emotional and physical trauma. >> > >> > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a >> little >> > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if >> I >> > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a >> > real >> > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - >> even >> > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. >> > >> > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go >> with >> > it? HA HA >> > >> > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 ok I'm sorry, youre day was crappy but you sure brightened mine! Couldn't stop laughing, because cowboy didn't get hurt. I have so many stories to tell. Usually involving my 3 legged terrier mix that always not only gets out of my fenced in yard but thorough about 6 more before always landing in the same yard, on the other street and I have to walk her, correction carry her back because now she's too tired to walk. The neighbors laugh at my cursing.. ________________________________ To: WTOAdultChildren1 Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 6:22 PM Subject: Re: feeling crappy Ok Addendum - I went and got scout. She may have a thyroid problem ee gads. Plus they cleaned her teeth (which is good) but she is still semi anesthetized and I hate to see her like that. So cowboy rode with me to get her, it is like 4 blocks away and he loves to go in the truck. Anyway, I got her and brought them home, no drama. Then I left Cow in the truck and brought my poor little sleepy girl inside. Then I went to get Cow and my truck was ROLLING down the driveway FAST!!! I was freaking - because of Cowboy being in there my baby. If I had a brain i would have been freaking about it heading for my gorgeous garage door. Anyway, I managed to shove him aside and pulll the emergency brake. It stopped really sudden and basically gave me whiplash, but side to side not front to back. So now I think my gear must be going out because that's never happened before - I don't always set the brake. Dear day of poo, anesthesia, thyroid probs, general malaise and bread dough barf, you are more than welcome to end now. On Fri, Oct 14, 2011 at 3:55 PM, Girlscout Cowboy < girlscout.cowboy@...> wrote: > Upstate would be either Syracuse or Keene New Hampshire. I won't know for > about 8 months aggh. I'm trying to get a second master's in family therapy > of all things HA HA There is one program in my state at my alma mater (I > hope they take me back) and then another at a strictly LDS school that > wouldnt take me with my tattoos and peircings and lack of belief in their > religion in a million years. > > On that topic, do you think I should mention my background as a KO in my > essays to the schools? I am wrestling with that and I am going to discuss it > with my T. I was thinking of presenting it not emotionally, but the way one > of the theorists would have looked at it. . . > > About animals ha ha. When i met my boyfriend I had a rescued hound dog > sumthin sumthin mut of some sort (about 60 lb) and a show dog Welsh Terrier > (20 lbs). My Airedale had just died and I loved her SO much and anyway. . . > my new dogs (I call them The Replacements sometimes) they were both pups. > And he has an old rottweiler mix. so we had three dogs, 2 rescued. That went > on for 6 years. > > Then about 3 weeks ago I saw a male Airedale pup about 4 hours from my home > who needed a home really badly. He was only 15 months old. I drove all > night, got him and now I have four dogs, 3 rescues. I know its a lot but it > isn't bad when they are your babies. In fact, a coworker of mine just > rescued a dog from an animal hoarder and I joked that I was one. He said, No > you are not, I've seen that side and your dogs are adored and cared for - I > happened to have my airedale w me right then. that made me feel good, esp > since he usually has nothing nice to say about me. Anyway, I gave up going > to the coffee shop in trade for the universe letting me have my male > airedale, I figure out I will end up money ahead. In fact right now I am > typing while extracting a rawhide from his throat. He loves them but chokes > on them so he can only have them when mama is close, like 1 foot away. My > pets are Cowboy, Girlscout and the new one is Armor of GAWD, which makes me > laugh every time I say it. HA HA HA I sort of wish I had named him Chaos > Theory though. That also makes me laugh. I knew two dogs at the dog park > named darwin and bacchus. I thought that was funny too. > > > > >> ** >> >> >> Our animals always come first. Got 6 feral kittens (now 10 weeks) that >> are now looking for homes and my son doesn't understand why I don't want >> another (we have 2 cats, 3 dogs) although I'm really not opposed to another >> animal, I just don't financially that's its a such a good move since I might >> be needing to move soon. >> >> I had a cocker spaniel eat a whole box of peanut brittle, I made him stay >> out in the yard(this was nice weather) I just wasn't into the clean up. >> >> If you do make it up this way please let me know, I'll be happy to show >> you around. I assume you do mean by Upstate Rochester? >> >> >> ________________________________ >> >> To: WTOAdultChildren1 >> Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 2:39 PM >> Subject: Re: feeling crappy >> >> >> I live in the Rocky Mountains Long way away, but I am applying to grad >> school in your neighborhood for next year >> >> Thank you >> >> Yeah its a crappy day. Our old dog, who we thought was arthritic was >> miraculously cured this morning and he got up on the counter and broke my >> (full) bread machine into about 15 pieces while I was at the vet. i was >> making cranberry bread (he ate the dough for a whole loaf) and now I'm >> dealing with cran barf. >> >> And my little dog is at the vet I think she has seasonal affective, but >> the vet wanted to do blood work. Ugh spensive. >> >> Oh well, they are my pals. I guess we are all having a bad day. I'm proud >> of >> myself for canceling my obligations and just doing self care. >> >> >> >> > ** >> >> > >> > >> > You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night when >> my >> > nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is >> great. >> > Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. It >> > certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical ills. >> > Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can help. >> > >> > >> > ________________________________ >> > >> > To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > >> > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM >> > Subject: feeling crappy >> > >> > >> > >> > >> > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time like >> > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems >> > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, shoulder >> > and >> > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she >> sent >> > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought >> that >> > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I >> > might >> > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. >> > >> > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 hours >> > per >> > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is >> > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . >> anyway >> > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. . >> . I >> > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha ha. >> > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. >> > >> > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for most >> of >> > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may be >> > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class I >> > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted >> to >> > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. >> > >> > Booo >> > >> > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 to >> 100 >> > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without >> being >> > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my >> parents >> > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist >> and >> > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all started. >> We >> > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. They >> > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are often >> > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had >> trauma >> > in >> > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME TOO!!! >> AHH >> > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid >> with >> > daily emotional and physical trauma. >> > >> > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a >> little >> > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know if >> I >> > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of a >> > real >> > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - >> even >> > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. >> > >> > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go >> with >> > it? HA HA >> > >> > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 14, 2011 Report Share Posted October 14, 2011 Haaa I know I was laughing the whole time even though it sucked. I'll individual message you pictures of the whole thing, I tend to photo document. So it ended w Scout coming home from the vet having snuggled with a cat, which triggered an asthma attack so bad I had to go to instacare. I'm allergic to cats. UGH shitty day, but the pics are funny, I even have some of the oxygen mask and weird medical inhaler thing. And yes, I am Totally fine now, just very grateful for modern medicine and albuteral. Shittiest full moon ever! > ** > > > ok I'm sorry, youre day was crappy but you sure brightened mine! Couldn't > stop laughing, because cowboy didn't get hurt. I have so many stories to > tell. Usually involving my 3 legged terrier mix that always not only gets > out of my fenced in yard but thorough about 6 more before always landing in > the same yard, on the other street and I have to walk her, correction carry > her back because now she's too tired to walk. The neighbors laugh at my > cursing.. > > > ________________________________ > > To: WTOAdultChildren1 > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 6:22 PM > > Subject: Re: feeling crappy > > Ok Addendum - I went and got scout. She may have a thyroid problem ee gads. > Plus they cleaned her teeth (which is good) but she is still > semi anesthetized and I hate to see her like that. > > So cowboy rode with me to get her, it is like 4 blocks away and he loves to > go in the truck. Anyway, I got her and brought them home, no drama. Then I > left Cow in the truck and brought my poor little sleepy girl inside. Then I > went to get Cow and my truck was ROLLING down the driveway FAST!!! > > I was freaking - because of Cowboy being in there my baby. If I had a brain > i would have been freaking about it heading for my gorgeous garage door. > Anyway, I managed to shove him aside and pulll the emergency brake. It > stopped really sudden and basically gave me whiplash, but side to side not > front to back. > > So now I think my gear must be going out because that's never happened > before - I don't always set the brake. > > Dear day of poo, anesthesia, thyroid probs, general malaise and bread dough > barf, you are more than welcome to end now. > > On Fri, Oct 14, 2011 at 3:55 PM, Girlscout Cowboy < > girlscout.cowboy@...> wrote: > > > Upstate would be either Syracuse or Keene New Hampshire. I won't know for > > about 8 months aggh. I'm trying to get a second master's in family > therapy > > of all things HA HA There is one program in my state at my alma mater (I > > hope they take me back) and then another at a strictly LDS school that > > wouldnt take me with my tattoos and peircings and lack of belief in their > > religion in a million years. > > > > On that topic, do you think I should mention my background as a KO in my > > essays to the schools? I am wrestling with that and I am going to discuss > it > > with my T. I was thinking of presenting it not emotionally, but the way > one > > of the theorists would have looked at it. . . > > > > About animals ha ha. When i met my boyfriend I had a rescued hound dog > > sumthin sumthin mut of some sort (about 60 lb) and a show dog Welsh > Terrier > > (20 lbs). My Airedale had just died and I loved her SO much and anyway. . > . > > my new dogs (I call them The Replacements sometimes) they were both pups. > > And he has an old rottweiler mix. so we had three dogs, 2 rescued. That > went > > on for 6 years. > > > > Then about 3 weeks ago I saw a male Airedale pup about 4 hours from my > home > > who needed a home really badly. He was only 15 months old. I drove all > > night, got him and now I have four dogs, 3 rescues. I know its a lot but > it > > isn't bad when they are your babies. In fact, a coworker of mine just > > rescued a dog from an animal hoarder and I joked that I was one. He said, > No > > you are not, I've seen that side and your dogs are adored and cared for - > I > > happened to have my airedale w me right then. that made me feel good, esp > > since he usually has nothing nice to say about me. Anyway, I gave up > going > > to the coffee shop in trade for the universe letting me have my male > > airedale, I figure out I will end up money ahead. In fact right now I am > > typing while extracting a rawhide from his throat. He loves them but > chokes > > on them so he can only have them when mama is close, like 1 foot away. My > > pets are Cowboy, Girlscout and the new one is Armor of GAWD, which makes > me > > laugh every time I say it. HA HA HA I sort of wish I had named him Chaos > > Theory though. That also makes me laugh. I knew two dogs at the dog park > > named darwin and bacchus. I thought that was funny too. > > > > > > > > > >> ** > > >> > >> > >> Our animals always come first. Got 6 feral kittens (now 10 weeks) that > >> are now looking for homes and my son doesn't understand why I don't want > >> another (we have 2 cats, 3 dogs) although I'm really not opposed to > another > >> animal, I just don't financially that's its a such a good move since I > might > >> be needing to move soon. > >> > >> I had a cocker spaniel eat a whole box of peanut brittle, I made him > stay > >> out in the yard(this was nice weather) I just wasn't into the clean up. > >> > >> If you do make it up this way please let me know, I'll be happy to show > >> you around. I assume you do mean by Upstate Rochester? > >> > >> > >> ________________________________ > >> > >> To: WTOAdultChildren1 > >> Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 2:39 PM > >> Subject: Re: feeling crappy > >> > >> > >> I live in the Rocky Mountains Long way away, but I am applying to > grad > >> school in your neighborhood for next year > >> > >> Thank you > >> > >> Yeah its a crappy day. Our old dog, who we thought was arthritic was > >> miraculously cured this morning and he got up on the counter and broke > my > >> (full) bread machine into about 15 pieces while I was at the vet. i was > >> making cranberry bread (he ate the dough for a whole loaf) and now I'm > >> dealing with cran barf. > >> > >> And my little dog is at the vet I think she has seasonal affective, > but > >> the vet wanted to do blood work. Ugh spensive. > >> > >> Oh well, they are my pals. I guess we are all having a bad day. I'm > proud > >> of > >> myself for canceling my obligations and just doing self care. > >> > >> On Fri, Oct 14, 2011 at 11:48 AM, Batty > wrote: > >> > >> > ** > >> > >> > > >> > > >> > You're entitled to reach out for support, I did on the other night > when > >> my > >> > nada went pyscho the other day. And just being able to reach out is > >> great. > >> > Not sure where you are but in my area I know a great accupunturist. > It > >> > certainly makes sense that emotional abuse would lead to physical > ills. > >> > Anyway if you're anywhere close to upstate ny let me know if I can > help. > >> > > >> > > >> > ________________________________ > >> > > >> > To: wtoadultchildren1 <WTOAdultChildren1 > > >> > Sent: Friday, October 14, 2011 12:47 PM > >> > Subject: feeling crappy > >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > > >> > So I just want to whine. If I had a mom, I might call her at a time > like > >> > this. Anyway, I am in physical therapy because I have severe problems > >> > (probably fibromyalgia) that are concentrated in my right neck, > shoulder > >> > and > >> > upper back. I finally found a doctor who understands mind body and she > >> sent > >> > me to her personal PT. I'm extremely excited about this!!! The thought > >> that > >> > I might heal is completely out of the question. But the thought that I > >> > might > >> > improve!!! Well, that's exciting. > >> > > >> > Anyway, I had PT yesterday. It is very time consuming, like 4 to 6 > hours > >> > per > >> > week in clinic plus at home work and all during biz hours. It also is > >> > somewhat painful, but it hurts in a good way. But the aftermath. . . > >> anyway > >> > I went yesterday and felt pretty rundown after, but today . . . well. > . > >> . I > >> > can barely function - its like my brain maybe was affected a bit ha > ha. > >> > Relearning how to move - and stand and hold my tension is MENTAL work. > >> > > >> > Despite my problems I have managed to be very physically active for > most > >> of > >> > my life. I had to cancel the kids dance class I teach today and I may > be > >> > canceling yoga tonight and maybe even the mother daughter dance class > I > >> > teach tomorrow. I'm also not able to do all the little things i wanted > >> to > >> > do, like grocery store and house cleaning. > >> > > >> > Booo > >> > > >> > And the reality is that most of my problems are probably at least 99 > to > >> 100 > >> > percent a result of childhood trauma. I personally realized (without > >> being > >> > enlightened by research or literature) in my mid twenties that my > >> parents > >> > should have put my in PT, had MRIs, sent me to a pediatric neurologist > >> and > >> > all the stuff I'm doing now done when I was NINE when this all > started. > >> We > >> > had health insurance, we had access to care. But they didn't do it. > They > >> > didn't CARE!!! Then I learned that fibro and chronic headaches are > often > >> > caused by childhood trauma. And then my doctor asked me if I'd had > >> trauma > >> > in > >> > my life and I said I'm the daughter of a borderline. she said ME > TOO!!! > >> AHH > >> > someone who gets it. And she said yep, this is what happens to a kid > >> with > >> > daily emotional and physical trauma. > >> > > >> > So yes, things are going very well for me right now. But I'm still a > >> little > >> > broken, injured, hurt and not functioning at least for today. I know > if > >> I > >> > had a real mom would at least send me a nice note. I guess instead of > a > >> > real > >> > mom I have an army of REAL MOMS who aren't my mom, but they are moms - > >> even > >> > if we don't have kids, we have raised ourselves. > >> > > >> > Anyway, i guess I'm whining, can anyone send me a little cheese to go > >> with > >> > it? HA HA > >> > > >> > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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