Guest guest Posted October 17, 2011 Report Share Posted October 17, 2011 Mia, that is just freaking awesome. If your nada was mentally healthy she would be SO proud of you and would let you know. Alas, that is one of the most tragic aspects of this horrible mental illness: that some nadas will actively try to destroy their child's sense of self-worth, try to cripple their child's potential for happiness and success out of a fear of abandonment, or a fear of thinking themselves inferior to their child in some way. I've often thought that we KOs do as well as we do in life IN SPITE OF the mistreatment or neglect inflicted on us during our formative years, and you (and other members here) are living proof that it is possible for former abused or neglected children to go on to achieve success and happiness in life in spite of our emotional injuries and damage. I am so happy for you. And I wouldn't blame you if you fantasized about sending your nada an invitation to your graduation ceremony; hey, I think its a good fantasy! -Annie > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating high > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making me > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go on to > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let alone > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to tell > them I had " changed my mind " . > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. I'm in > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this program > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a 99%. > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I have > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I sit > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with nada > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any good. > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > become a great nurse. > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree on > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong and > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and good > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how nada > tried to shape & mold me. > > Mia > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 17, 2011 Report Share Posted October 17, 2011 Thanks Annie, and I agree 110% with you. We can prevail and overcome all the wickedness that was done to us. We can be healthy, happy and STOP the " cycle of abuse " . We can dream and we certainly can achieve. Now that's not a bad fantasy at all... imagining sending her an invite to my graduation. But, in reality she'd never come anyway. And it's ok, I don't want her there. If she did go, she would only try to take credit for my accomplishments anyway. So no, no thank you. She can stay 200 miles away far, far away from me. Besides, my real family will be there. My dad, step mom, maybe even my much younger half sibs. My hubby, his family, and my friends. Why would I want nada there hehe. But just for one moment, yeah, it would be nice to imagine actually sending her a copy of my transcripts and seeing the look on her face when she opened them. It's a good day. It's been a good past few years tbh. And I believe things will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* place anymore, you know? Just 2 more clinicals left and I'm officially done! But the testing part is over... for now. Then, I get to wait patiently to get approval to test lol. That can take time. But do you think I'll stop reviewing & studying? Nope! Because I love what I'm doing and can't WAIT to be a nurse =) Mia On Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 11:00 PM, anuria67854 wrote: > > > Mia, that is just freaking awesome. If your nada was mentally healthy she > would be SO proud of you and would let you know. > > Alas, that is one of the most tragic aspects of this horrible mental > illness: that some nadas will actively try to destroy their child's sense of > self-worth, try to cripple their child's potential for happiness and success > out of a fear of abandonment, or a fear of thinking themselves inferior to > their child in some way. > > I've often thought that we KOs do as well as we do in life IN SPITE OF the > mistreatment or neglect inflicted on us during our formative years, and you > (and other members here) are living proof that it is possible for former > abused or neglected children to go on to achieve success and happiness in > life in spite of our emotional injuries and damage. > > I am so happy for you. And I wouldn't blame you if you fantasized about > sending your nada an invitation to your graduation ceremony; hey, I think > its a good fantasy! > > -Annie > > > > > > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating high > > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making me > > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go on > to > > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let > alone > > > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to tell > > them I had " changed my mind " . > > > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. I'm > in > > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this > program > > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a > 99%. > > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I > have > > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I sit > > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with > nada > > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any > good. > > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > > become a great nurse. > > > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree on > > > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong > and > > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and > good > > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how > nada > > tried to shape & mold me. > > > > Mia > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 17, 2011 Report Share Posted October 17, 2011 Mia I am so proud of you !!! I would LOVE to be taken care of you as a nurse! I think you are fantastic and I'm so proud. It has been so cool to watch you take on nursing school here and see how awesome you are and how passionate you are. And I'm glad you said this " And I believe things will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* place anymore, you know? " Because for a moment tonight I WAS in that place, work left me in a horrible mood. But I spent some time doing some things I enjoy. I talked to my friends here and my honey and came up with some ideas to make the next few weeks more pleasant. I have the skills to bring myself BACK from that place, and you do too. And you are right, even when its bad, its not bad THAT way, not like THAT at all. Because we now know the way back. Thank you mia, i know this is 100 percent your achievement, but it really helps me right now to see that as KOs WE OWN THE WORLD, We are the future. Planet earth and human kind need us - because we have done the work, we are the post test of child abuse and we know the way out of THAT place, and we can show others the way out too - just like you did for me tonight. > Thanks Annie, and I agree 110% with you. We can prevail and overcome all > the wickedness that was done to us. We can be healthy, happy and STOP the > " cycle of abuse " . We can dream and we certainly can achieve. > > Now that's not a bad fantasy at all... imagining sending her an invite to > my > graduation. But, in reality she'd never come anyway. And it's ok, I don't > want her there. If she did go, she would only try to take credit for my > accomplishments anyway. So no, no thank you. She can stay 200 miles away > far, far away from me. > > Besides, my real family will be there. My dad, step mom, maybe even my > much > younger half sibs. My hubby, his family, and my friends. Why would I want > nada there hehe. > > But just for one moment, yeah, it would be nice to imagine actually sending > her a copy of my transcripts and seeing the look on her face when she > opened > them. > > It's a good day. It's been a good past few years tbh. And I believe > things > will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* > place anymore, you know? > > Just 2 more clinicals left and I'm officially done! But the testing part > is > over... for now. Then, I get to wait patiently to get approval to test > lol. > That can take time. But do you think I'll stop reviewing & studying? > Nope! > Because I love what I'm doing and can't WAIT to be a nurse =) > > Mia > > On Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 11:00 PM, anuria67854 <anuria-67854@... > >wrote: > > > > > > > Mia, that is just freaking awesome. If your nada was mentally healthy she > > would be SO proud of you and would let you know. > > > > Alas, that is one of the most tragic aspects of this horrible mental > > illness: that some nadas will actively try to destroy their child's sense > of > > self-worth, try to cripple their child's potential for happiness and > success > > out of a fear of abandonment, or a fear of thinking themselves inferior > to > > their child in some way. > > > > I've often thought that we KOs do as well as we do in life IN SPITE OF > the > > mistreatment or neglect inflicted on us during our formative years, and > you > > (and other members here) are living proof that it is possible for former > > abused or neglected children to go on to achieve success and happiness in > > life in spite of our emotional injuries and damage. > > > > I am so happy for you. And I wouldn't blame you if you fantasized about > > sending your nada an invitation to your graduation ceremony; hey, I think > > its a good fantasy! > > > > -Annie > > > > > > > > > > > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > > > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating > high > > > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making > me > > > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go > on > > to > > > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > > > > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > > > > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let > > alone > > > > > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > > > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to > tell > > > them I had " changed my mind " . > > > > > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > > > > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. > I'm > > in > > > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > > > > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this > > program > > > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a > > 99%. > > > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > > > > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I > > have > > > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I > sit > > > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with > > nada > > > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any > > good. > > > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > > > > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > > > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > > > become a great nurse. > > > > > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > > > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree > on > > > > > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong > > and > > > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > > > > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and > > good > > > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how > > nada > > > tried to shape & mold me. > > > > > > Mia > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 17, 2011 Report Share Posted October 17, 2011 Aw thanks GS! And I'm so glad you can see it too, that we are NOT in *THAT* place anymore =) Thanks so much for your kind words, they mean so much =) Mia On Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 11:22 PM, Girlscout Cowboy < girlscout.cowboy@...> wrote: > > > Mia I am so proud of you !!! I would LOVE to be taken care of you as a > nurse! I think you are fantastic and I'm so proud. It has been so cool to > watch you take on nursing school here and see how awesome you are and how > passionate you are. > > And I'm glad you said this " And I believe things > > will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* > place anymore, you know? " > > Because for a moment tonight I WAS in that place, work left me in a > horrible > mood. But I spent some time doing some things I enjoy. I talked to my > friends here and my honey and came up with some ideas to make the next few > weeks more pleasant. I have the skills to bring myself BACK from that > place, > and you do too. And you are right, even when its bad, its not bad THAT way, > not like THAT at all. Because we now know the way back. > > Thank you mia, i know this is 100 percent your achievement, but it really > helps me right now to see that as KOs WE OWN THE WORLD, We are the future. > Planet earth and human kind need us - because we have done the work, we are > the post test of child abuse and we know the way out of THAT place, and we > can show others the way out too - just like you did for me tonight. > > > > > > Thanks Annie, and I agree 110% with you. We can prevail and overcome all > > the wickedness that was done to us. We can be healthy, happy and STOP the > > " cycle of abuse " . We can dream and we certainly can achieve. > > > > Now that's not a bad fantasy at all... imagining sending her an invite to > > my > > graduation. But, in reality she'd never come anyway. And it's ok, I don't > > want her there. If she did go, she would only try to take credit for my > > accomplishments anyway. So no, no thank you. She can stay 200 miles away > > far, far away from me. > > > > Besides, my real family will be there. My dad, step mom, maybe even my > > much > > younger half sibs. My hubby, his family, and my friends. Why would I want > > nada there hehe. > > > > But just for one moment, yeah, it would be nice to imagine actually > sending > > her a copy of my transcripts and seeing the look on her face when she > > opened > > them. > > > > It's a good day. It's been a good past few years tbh. And I believe > > things > > will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* > > place anymore, you know? > > > > Just 2 more clinicals left and I'm officially done! But the testing part > > is > > over... for now. Then, I get to wait patiently to get approval to test > > lol. > > That can take time. But do you think I'll stop reviewing & studying? > > Nope! > > Because I love what I'm doing and can't WAIT to be a nurse =) > > > > Mia > > > > On Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 11:00 PM, anuria67854 <anuria-67854@... > > >wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > Mia, that is just freaking awesome. If your nada was mentally healthy > she > > > would be SO proud of you and would let you know. > > > > > > Alas, that is one of the most tragic aspects of this horrible mental > > > illness: that some nadas will actively try to destroy their child's > sense > > of > > > self-worth, try to cripple their child's potential for happiness and > > success > > > out of a fear of abandonment, or a fear of thinking themselves inferior > > to > > > their child in some way. > > > > > > I've often thought that we KOs do as well as we do in life IN SPITE OF > > the > > > mistreatment or neglect inflicted on us during our formative years, and > > you > > > (and other members here) are living proof that it is possible for > former > > > abused or neglected children to go on to achieve success and happiness > in > > > life in spite of our emotional injuries and damage. > > > > > > I am so happy for you. And I wouldn't blame you if you fantasized about > > > sending your nada an invitation to your graduation ceremony; hey, I > think > > > its a good fantasy! > > > > > > -Annie > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > > > > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating > > high > > > > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making > > me > > > > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me > go > > on > > > to > > > > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > > > > > > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > > > > > > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let > > > alone > > > > > > > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > > > > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to > > tell > > > > them I had " changed my mind " . > > > > > > > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > > > > > > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. > > I'm > > > in > > > > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > > > > > > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this > > > program > > > > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got > a > > > 99%. > > > > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > > > > > > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, > I > > > have > > > > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I > > sit > > > > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC > with > > > nada > > > > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any > > > good. > > > > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > > > > > > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will > go > > > > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully > eventually > > > > become a great nurse. > > > > > > > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my > nada. > > > > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree > > on > > > > > > > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you > wrong > > > and > > > > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > > > > > > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and > > > good > > > > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of > how > > > nada > > > > tried to shape & mold me. > > > > > > > > Mia > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2011 Report Share Posted October 18, 2011 way to go Mia! I to had to deal with the your not as good or smart as your sister, she gets to go to ivy league you get a state college. Fast forward 20 years, ivy league sister lives in a trailer in the middle of no where montana, existing on handouts or illegal activity because every regular job is below her. I studied in England, did an internship in dc and am director of housing services for a large nursing home. Sometimes being told we're not good enough just makes us work harder and the proof is in our accomplishments ________________________________ To: WTOAdultChildren1 Sent: Monday, October 17, 2011 11:46 PM Subject: Re: Re: When I was 19... Aw thanks GS! And I'm so glad you can see it too, that we are NOT in *THAT* place anymore =) Thanks so much for your kind words, they mean so much =) Mia On Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 11:22 PM, Girlscout Cowboy < girlscout.cowboy@...> wrote: > > > Mia I am so proud of you !!! I would LOVE to be taken care of you as a > nurse! I think you are fantastic and I'm so proud. It has been so cool to > watch you take on nursing school here and see how awesome you are and how > passionate you are. > > And I'm glad you said this " And I believe things > > will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* > place anymore, you know? " > > Because for a moment tonight I WAS in that place, work left me in a > horrible > mood. But I spent some time doing some things I enjoy. I talked to my > friends here and my honey and came up with some ideas to make the next few > weeks more pleasant. I have the skills to bring myself BACK from that > place, > and you do too. And you are right, even when its bad, its not bad THAT way, > not like THAT at all. Because we now know the way back. > > Thank you mia, i know this is 100 percent your achievement, but it really > helps me right now to see that as KOs WE OWN THE WORLD, We are the future. > Planet earth and human kind need us - because we have done the work, we are > the post test of child abuse and we know the way out of THAT place, and we > can show others the way out too - just like you did for me tonight. > > > > > > Thanks Annie, and I agree 110% with you. We can prevail and overcome all > > the wickedness that was done to us. We can be healthy, happy and STOP the > > " cycle of abuse " . We can dream and we certainly can achieve. > > > > Now that's not a bad fantasy at all... imagining sending her an invite to > > my > > graduation. But, in reality she'd never come anyway. And it's ok, I don't > > want her there. If she did go, she would only try to take credit for my > > accomplishments anyway. So no, no thank you. She can stay 200 miles away > > far, far away from me. > > > > Besides, my real family will be there. My dad, step mom, maybe even my > > much > > younger half sibs. My hubby, his family, and my friends. Why would I want > > nada there hehe. > > > > But just for one moment, yeah, it would be nice to imagine actually > sending > > her a copy of my transcripts and seeing the look on her face when she > > opened > > them. > > > > It's a good day. It's been a good past few years tbh. And I believe > > things > > will be good from here on out, even when they're bad. I'm not in *that* > > place anymore, you know? > > > > Just 2 more clinicals left and I'm officially done! But the testing part > > is > > over... for now. Then, I get to wait patiently to get approval to test > > lol. > > That can take time. But do you think I'll stop reviewing & studying? > > Nope! > > Because I love what I'm doing and can't WAIT to be a nurse =) > > > > Mia > > > > On Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 11:00 PM, anuria67854 <anuria-67854@... > > >wrote: > > > > > > > > > > > Mia, that is just freaking awesome. If your nada was mentally healthy > she > > > would be SO proud of you and would let you know. > > > > > > Alas, that is one of the most tragic aspects of this horrible mental > > > illness: that some nadas will actively try to destroy their child's > sense > > of > > > self-worth, try to cripple their child's potential for happiness and > > success > > > out of a fear of abandonment, or a fear of thinking themselves inferior > > to > > > their child in some way. > > > > > > I've often thought that we KOs do as well as we do in life IN SPITE OF > > the > > > mistreatment or neglect inflicted on us during our formative years, and > > you > > > (and other members here) are living proof that it is possible for > former > > > abused or neglected children to go on to achieve success and happiness > in > > > life in spite of our emotional injuries and damage. > > > > > > I am so happy for you. And I wouldn't blame you if you fantasized about > > > sending your nada an invitation to your graduation ceremony; hey, I > think > > > its a good fantasy! > > > > > > -Annie > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > > > > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating > > high > > > > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making > > me > > > > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me > go > > on > > > to > > > > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > > > > > > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > > > > > > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let > > > alone > > > > > > > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > > > > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to > > tell > > > > them I had " changed my mind " . > > > > > > > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > > > > > > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. > > I'm > > > in > > > > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > > > > > > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this > > > program > > > > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got > a > > > 99%. > > > > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > > > > > > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, > I > > > have > > > > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I > > sit > > > > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC > with > > > nada > > > > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any > > > good. > > > > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > > > > > > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will > go > > > > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully > eventually > > > > become a great nurse. > > > > > > > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my > nada. > > > > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree > > on > > > > > > > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you > wrong > > > and > > > > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > > > > > > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and > > > good > > > > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of > how > > > nada > > > > tried to shape & mold me. > > > > > > > > Mia > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2011 Report Share Posted October 18, 2011 Becoming a nurse is NOT easy. I have friends who've been through the process and it was grueling. I'm so proud of you, Mia. You done good, kid. " it is cleansing and good to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how nada tried to shape & mold me. " You said it perfectly; and as Doug likes to say, " May we all heal. " Fiona > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating high > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making me > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go on to > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let alone > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to tell > them I had " changed my mind " . > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. I'm in > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this program > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a 99%. > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I have > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I sit > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with nada > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any good. > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > become a great nurse. > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree on > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong and > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and good > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how nada > tried to shape & mold me. > > Mia > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2011 Report Share Posted October 18, 2011 Congratulations, Mia. You have truly earned this moment. > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating high > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making me > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go on to > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let alone > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to tell > them I had " changed my mind " . > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. I'm in > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this program > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a 99%. > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I have > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I sit > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with nada > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any good. > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > become a great nurse. > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree on > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong and > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and good > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how nada > tried to shape & mold me. > > Mia > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 18, 2011 Report Share Posted October 18, 2011 GO MIA!!! You're amazing. On Tue, Oct 18, 2011 at 1:54 PM, clefairy_looking_for_moonstone < clefairy_looking_for_moonstone@...> wrote: > ** > > > Congratulations, Mia. You have truly earned this moment. > > > > > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating high > > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making me > > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go on > to > > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let > alone > > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to tell > > them I had " changed my mind " . > > > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. I'm > in > > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this > program > > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a > 99%. > > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I > have > > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I sit > > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with > nada > > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any > good. > > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > > become a great nurse. > > > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree on > > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong > and > > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and > good > > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how > nada > > tried to shape & mold me. > > > > Mia > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 20, 2011 Report Share Posted October 20, 2011 Thanks so much everyone for the kind words =) I had my last clinical today and turned in all of my paperwork. So now, just waiting for my exit interview on the 2nd and then I am officially D-O-N-E! That's when I'll get all the other stuff I need to send my application to take boards too. Woot! It's really exciting and hard to believe this part of my adventure in nursing school is over. I really hope to be back in school by next fall =) Mia On Tue, Oct 18, 2011 at 2:58 PM, Holly Lipschultz < hollymichellebyers@...> wrote: > GO MIA!!! You're amazing. > > On Tue, Oct 18, 2011 at 1:54 PM, clefairy_looking_for_moonstone < > clefairy_looking_for_moonstone@...> wrote: > > > ** > > > > > > Congratulations, Mia. You have truly earned this moment. > > > > > > > > > > Nada was a dream-squasher. She squashed every dream I ever had. I had > > > wanted to go on into music education when I was 17, after graduating > high > > > school, & be a high school music/band teacher. She forbade it, making > me > > > turn down a huge scholarship & everything. She wouldn't even let me go > on > > to > > > college for the longest time, but finally she did. > > > > > > Then, when I was 19, I wanted to be a nurse. > > > > > > " You? A NURSE??!! *heh* I wouldn't let *YOU* take care of my dog, let > > alone > > > ME! Dammit, Mia. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " That was nada's > > > response. So, I stuck my tail between my legs & called the school to > tell > > > them I had " changed my mind " . > > > > > > 14 years later.... October 20, 2011... > > > > > > I had a gigantically huge comprehensive state-board-like exam today. > I'm > > in > > > my externship of the nursing program... aka, my last class. > > > > > > I am on cloud 9 right now. I have worked my ass off throughout this > > program > > > and have enjoyed every minute of it, and today on that exam... I got a > > 99%. > > > And I will be graduating my program with a 4.0/4.0 GPA. > > > > > > No, I'm not perfect nor am I striving to be. I am NOT a know it all, I > > have > > > SO VERY MUCH that I need to learn, and that I WANT to learn! But as I > sit > > > here & write this, I almost wish for one brief moment I was not NC with > > nada > > > so I could shove my transcripts in her face. Not that it would do any > > good. > > > But for one brief moment, it might feel good. > > > > > > " Too stupid " , huh? Well, nada, I beg to differ. I did it, and I will go > > > out to be a good nurse after I pass my boards and hopefully eventually > > > become a great nurse. > > > > > > So in some weird, twisted way... I also have to say thanks to my nada. > > > Because those words... well, they motivated me to some *small* degree > on > > > this journey. So thanks, nada. I'm so very glad I could prove you wrong > > and > > > more importantly prove to myself that you were wrong. > > > > > > Please consider this post as a catharsis. Because it is cleansing and > > good > > > to be able to know the truth & see myself as I really am instead of how > > nada > > > tried to shape & mold me. > > > > > > Mia > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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