help?

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Hi everyone, First I want to clarify.. I joined this group because I was hoping

to get some answers or suggestions on what my next step would be. I suspect my

mother has BPD, yet she has not officially been diagnosed with anything other

than depression and ptsd. This is partially my fault, as none of our family

members have allowed her in our lives because we just cannot handle the years

upon years of chaos, manipulation, lies, instability, hospitalizations, etc. I

met a woman with BPD and I sware I was talking to my own mother. I recently

started therapy with my mom after 20+ years of either no relationship or periods

of an extremely chaotic one. This is our first attempt and we have only had a

few sessions and I already feel like I have had the life sucked out of me. It

has become apparent that this I cannot begin to attempt to mend a relationship

if I don't understand who she is. I understand the past is in the past, however

the lies and stories do not stay in the past and they continue into the future

as well as new ones. As I continue to research low-functioning BPD I find more

and more characteristics of my mother. And more and more characteristics of

adult children of BPD parents that I strongly identify with. If I decide to

continue this journey I am not sure what to do with this information or how to

sort things out in my head. any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Please

help?!!