Vulnerability was Re: Sorry I haven't been around much

[Guest guest]

It's really wonderful you've found something that helps and you're shifting in a

different place. I'm so pleased that you reached out and got helping hands.

I was really struck when you mentioned vulnerability, hiding and not reaching

out - it describes me really well in a way I haven't been able to articulate

before so I wanted to thank-you. I've hidden myself for most of my life and not

received much support (I'm reading The Emotionally Absent Mother which touches

some deep points for me) and I'm still hiding now. However because of the

discussion about therapy on this board and in the books I finally managed to get

some courage, reach out and started therapy a couple of months ago. Recently I

was asked when I last was vulnerable and I didn't have a clue what to say - a

real blank - my feelings and memories don't register unless really strong. I

guess like you I've been hiding my vulnerability but I don't know how to even

start thinking about it let alone how to start unhiding. I was wondering how to

get over this roadblock of not being able to think about vulnerability. Do you

have any tips?

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> Contacting you guys here and then my meditation leader in itself was a new

step for me---as a KO, I do not usually reach out. I normally hide when I am ill

(i.e., never show a vulnerability).