Re: Warning DNR if depressed( debbi brant)

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sorry you are not feel good, i hope you get better soon, you do not have to answer me, just know i care...i wish you peaceSubject: Warning DNR if depressedTo: MSersLife Date: Wednesday, November 3, 2010, 6:40 PM

Sorry I've been so quiet but I've not been feeling very well for the last month or two. Also am just getting over a bout of ON which for me, makes reading and writing impossible. Its like double vision except with stain glassed windows with cracks of piercing painful light rays passing through.

And fatigue ... I've had days when I've literally slept 20 out of 24 hours. And of course not been eating right, etc. Add to that I've finally admitted I've downright depressed and worried about money ... this house is like a ? (forget the word) on my back and I don't have the $'s to finish the upgrades to sell it. has offered to lend me some money which I'd repay when it sold but I keep remembering my mother's words "never lend to a friend or relative". I felt really bad but I had to borrow enough to pay this month's mortgage.

I look around at all the 'things that have to be done' and I get so down that so many of them are things I used to be able to do with no thought. Like hanging new verticals on the empty patio door, etc. I'm worried about ... his back condition is degenerating and his neck has been really bad lately despite chiropractic and acupuncture.

Today is my middle daughter's 34th BD and it's been 10 yrs since we've spoken. And I'm feeling twinges of the old agoraphobia since I'm so stuck in the house. And last one, my mobility is getting worse as in the incontinence . I used to do the Kiegels regularly but it's like there's no feeling anymore. Sorry maybe TMI

Sorry for all 'babble'. I was not going to mention it all but not mentioning it feels wrong. I think of you all and to any newcomers, a big hello from NW Ontario, Canada. Hopefully I'll get a chance to wade through my 6000+emails ... why do I still stay in stitching groups when I haven't picked up a needle in ages! ... hugs, Cait