Guest guest Posted June 28, 2011 Report Share Posted June 28, 2011 You can read my Nada Meltdown post to get the backstory on this. Today Nada refused to come out of her room and when fada went to knock on her door she started screaming at him. She said that wasn't going to talk to anyone and basically told us to go to hell at the top of her lungs. When she gets into those moods she looks downright demonic, I remember that used to terrify me as a child. Now I stand my ground defiantly but that only seems to anger her more. The odd thing is that I had a nightmare a few nights back in which I saw her possessed by a dark entity. I sure hope it wasn't a portent of what's to come. In the dream we were eating dinner and she suddenly looked at me with pure hatred in her eyes. She said horrible things in the most evil voice imaginable and then she tried to physically attack me. In the dream I cried for help and 4 psych ward employees restrained her and she was taken away. If she doesn't get better and shuts herself away for days I may have to call for professional help this time, for her own good. She may never forgive me for it but oh well. See, my father has anxiety disorder but he goes to his Psychiatrist and takes his meds. My mother is in complete denial with regards to her own mental illness so voluntary treatment is out of the question. I think I've reached my limit now after years of putting up with her horrible moods swings and insults. I don't want to jump the gun though... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2011 Report Share Posted June 28, 2011 I'm so sorry you and your dad are having to go through this. And nada. (Mine is hallucinating all the time now, and oddly enough she's nicer to be around when she's psychotic.) Yours sounds like she's having a rage/tantrum/meltdown like my nada has had. This behavior truly is terrifying, particularly to a small child. At least yours shuts herself in her room when she's raging, that's actually rather thoughtful and responsible of her, seems to me. Mine would rage AT my little Sister and me, meaning she would grip me by the arms and clamp me an inch from her her face to scream vitriolic verbal abuse and accusations at me, and literally scare the crap out of me. Sometimes she'd work herself up into physically assaulting us as well; slapping, spanking, jerking us about by the arm, shaking us, or even beating us with dad's belt. My suggestion is to just let her have her rage in her room without trying to talk her out of it or responding to her insults. Just let her be and let her work through it on her own. But if her rage-tantrum lasts more than 24 hours, or gets worse (she threatens/attempts to harm herself or physically attacks you or your dad) then in my opinion that's the time to call 911 to come and take her in for an psychiatric observation period and evaluation. I wish none of us had to deal with these things. Its just so damned sad. -Annie > > You can read my Nada Meltdown post to get the backstory on this. Today Nada refused to come out of her room and when fada went to knock on her door she started screaming at him. She said that wasn't going to talk to anyone and basically told us to go to hell at the top of her lungs. When she gets into those moods she looks downright demonic, I remember that used to terrify me as a child. Now I stand my ground defiantly but that only seems to anger her more. The odd thing is that I had a nightmare a few nights back in which I saw her possessed by a dark entity. I sure hope it wasn't a portent of what's to come. In the dream we were eating dinner and she suddenly looked at me with pure hatred in her eyes. She said horrible things in the most evil voice imaginable and then she tried to physically attack me. In the dream I cried for help and 4 psych ward employees restrained her and she was taken away. If she doesn't get better and shuts herself away for days I may have to call for professional help this time, for her own good. She may never forgive me for it but oh well. See, my father has anxiety disorder but he goes to his Psychiatrist and takes his meds. My mother is in complete denial with regards to her own mental illness so voluntary treatment is out of the question. I think I've reached my limit now after years of putting up with her horrible moods swings and insults. I don't want to jump the gun though... > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 28, 2011 Report Share Posted June 28, 2011 Mine would also get abusive when I was a child but that was not very often. I remember two incidents, one time my parents got into a fight and nada threatened to divorce fada. She said if I visited his family someone was going to molest me and that I had to pick whose side I was on. Later on she hit me really hard while I was sleeping and screamed at me saying that I was a whore. I was only 7-8 years old at the time mind you. NO normal mother does that to her child, especially not at that age so it was at that point that I realized that she was nuts. Later when I was in my early teens and we went to church one evening. I do remember that she was already in a bad mood. I forgot what I did that bothered her (IIRC I bumped a pew absentmindedly) but she claimed I did it on purpose which was a complete lie. I couldn't even explain myself and as we walked home she kept hitting me from behind and spewing more verbal abuse. Other people saw her but she later claimed I had been behaving very badly and she was just disciplining me. She also cut her hand after breaking both panes of my bedroom window during one of her rages. She never paid me for the repairs either... I feel you and I think that only people with BPD parents can truly understand what it's like to deal with them on a day to day basis. What sickens me is that everyone else thinks they are SO 'nice'. Half of them may be but the other half is EVIL! > > > > You can read my Nada Meltdown post to get the backstory on this. Today Nada refused to come out of her room and when fada went to knock on her door she started screaming at him. She said that wasn't going to talk to anyone and basically told us to go to hell at the top of her lungs. When she gets into those moods she looks downright demonic, I remember that used to terrify me as a child. Now I stand my ground defiantly but that only seems to anger her more. The odd thing is that I had a nightmare a few nights back in which I saw her possessed by a dark entity. I sure hope it wasn't a portent of what's to come. In the dream we were eating dinner and she suddenly looked at me with pure hatred in her eyes. She said horrible things in the most evil voice imaginable and then she tried to physically attack me. In the dream I cried for help and 4 psych ward employees restrained her and she was taken away. If she doesn't get better and shuts herself away for days I may have to call for professional help this time, for her own good. She may never forgive me for it but oh well. See, my father has anxiety disorder but he goes to his Psychiatrist and takes his meds. My mother is in complete denial with regards to her own mental illness so voluntary treatment is out of the question. I think I've reached my limit now after years of putting up with her horrible moods swings and insults. I don't want to jump the gun though... > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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