subtle sabotage

[Guest guest]

I'm wondering if any of you experienced this too. Somehow it seems my nada just

knows exactly what to say to say if I'm on a diet to undermine it or if I'm

avoiding a food that I love that makes me sick to encourage me to eat it. If

I'm having a life challenge that is hard for me but I'm just managing it, she

encourages me to be weak and give up, give in. If I have doubts and fears she

magnifies them with her " concern " . She's been doing this in one form or another

all of my life and in some areas I've been strong enough to shake off the

influence. But in other areas I think this negative stuff has had real

detrimental effect. And then I'll get angry at myself because really don't I

have free will? How can she have so much influence??? Aaaargh. I do avoid

sharing tons of sensitive information with her, but somehow even the things that

seem safe aren't safe enough. Sometimes I don't even share anything and she

just seems to know what to say to undermine anyway.

So I wonder what's up with this? Is she wanting to sabotage me or is it that

she just wants me to be as miserable as she is and misery loves company?

Eliza