Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 these days are so unfair..no one should have to go through them..and most do not have to..I have these days too..sometimes too many of them..you are not alone, nor crazy...you have, we have, been given the hardest job...tomorrow you will pick up where you left off just as determined to help your son...so vent, scream, yell, pray to statues..whatever it is that gets it at of you so you can fight another day... Thanks for reminding me that I am not alone. ps..wish I could follow my own advice but...im a glutton for punishment...big hugs and prayers to your family..jv > > let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. > my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. > i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. > for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. > i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. > i am broken. .in every way i can say. > the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) > then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. > my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. > i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. > > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. > the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. > i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. > ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead > i just called out that my son was autistic. > so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. > > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. > i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. > if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. > this one really sucked for me. > anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. > channa > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 i am sitting here at 2am - i live in israel- wondering as usual why my child isn't sleeping it is all so difficult and painful and like one big marathon that just never seems to end try to take some comfort in knowing you are not alone. i don't think there is one person on this list who doesn't shed tears regularly and at some point felt the need to pray. i know going out with friends or a partner feels only like temporary release but it sounds like you need a break take it easy To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, September 8, 2011 1:38 AMSubject: strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 oh God I feel for you Channa Hope someone has some practical advice for that. I can just offer sympathy and hope it goes away soon. Hang in there! Natasa > > let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. > my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. > i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. > for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. > i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. > i am broken. .in every way i can say. > the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) > then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. > my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. > i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. > > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. > the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. > i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. > ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead > i just called out that my son was autistic. > so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. > > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. > i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. > if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. > this one really sucked for me. > anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. > channa > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 jv, big hug back to you..you made me laugh at that one..and is nice to hear some encouragement about expression.. for so long i felt like i couldnt express my feelings to anyone or i might get in trouble. after i posted i was worried it wasnt appropriate.for this group. but the group is all i have. always scared my crazy might show and people will take it the wrong way. but we have to express our pain one way or another..I write in a blog and that usually helps..but this time i needed to pray to a statue and cry on you guys shoulder.lol. To: mb12valtrex Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 7:05 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic these days are so unfair..no one should have to go through them..and most do not have to..I have these days too..sometimes too many of them..you are not alone, nor crazy...you have, we have, been given the hardest job...tomorrow you will pick up where you left off just as determined to help your son...so vent, scream, yell, pray to statues..whatever it is that gets it at of you so you can fight another day... Thanks for reminding me that I am not alone. ps..wish I could follow my own advice but...im a glutton for punishment...big hugs and prayers to your family..jv>> let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.> my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.> i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.> for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.> i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.> i am broken. .in every way i can say.> the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)> then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.> my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.> i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.> > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.> the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..> i started yelling at him he can never hit other people..> ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead> i just called out that my son was autistic.> so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.> > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.> i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.> if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.> this one really sucked for me.> anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.> channa> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 I'm sorry for what you are going thru. My daughter suddenly regressed a few weeks ago and things we haven't seen in awhile have all come back and I don't ever remember things being so crazy.Not sure if a strep strain in liquid q10 didn't cause it. It's also a full moon on Monday and full moons throw everything out of wack here. Our natural doctor had us use antimonium crudum 30c for full moon issues. For the first time after a dose 2 nights ago she was calm and happy. Didn't give a dose last night and things started up again. Also using parasite medicine but it didn't work on its own today. hang in there. Hope things get better. PS- sometimes I just yell in the car away from traffic on days like this. strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. i am broken. .in every way i can say. the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. ...anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead i just called out that my son was autistic. so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. this one really sucked for me. anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 Couldn't those aggressive behaviors be a sign that it's working? Could it be a yeast die off or a bacteria die off reaction.. where the child becomes violent/aggressive during the die off phase and then it gets much better after 5 -7 daysI've been there and I still have those days as well. . I'm so sorry you have to go through that pain. Never give up! <font face="verdana" color="#7f3f00"></font> & nbsp;To: mb12valtrex Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 7:03 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic I'm sorry for what you are going thru. My daughter suddenly regressed a few weeks ago and things we haven't seen in awhile have all come back and I don't ever remember things being so crazy.Not sure if a strep strain in liquid q10 didn't cause it. It's also a full moon on Monday and full moons throw everything out of wack here. Our natural doctor had us use antimonium crudum 30c for full moon issues. For the first time after a dose 2 nights ago she was calm and happy. Didn't give a dose last night and things started up again. Also using parasite medicine but it didn't work on its own today. hang in there. Hope things get better. PS- sometimes I just yell in the car away from traffic on days like this. strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. i am broken. .in every way i can say. the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. ...anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead i just called out that my son was autistic. so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. this one really sucked for me. anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 lol yes my son just started preschool. so next time i am alone in the car... thanks lisa To: mb12valtrex Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 8:03 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic I'm sorry for what you are going thru. My daughter suddenly regressed a few weeks ago and things we haven't seen in awhile have all come back and I don't ever remember things being so crazy.Not sure if a strep strain in liquid q10 didn't cause it. It's also a full moon on Monday and full moons throw everything out of wack here. Our natural doctor had us use antimonium crudum 30c for full moon issues. For the first time after a dose 2 nights ago she was calm and happy. Didn't give a dose last night and things started up again. Also using parasite medicine but it didn't work on its own today. hang in there. Hope things get better. PS- sometimes I just yell in the car away from traffic on days like this. strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 Chana I am a Mum from Australia and wow what a hard day you have had, the strength you showed in everyway i feel your pain and you are only human to go a little crazy once in a while probably is what is going to keep you sane. Just so you know i think all us Mums with children with ASD do go off the deep end because we are tired, we fill beaten,hopeless at times and to go through it alone must be the hardest part of all. Try to be kind and know that someone from OZ os sending you {{hugs}} and lots of positive energy your way Rosetta To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, 8 September 2011 8:38 AMSubject: strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 Of course you are not alone Channa!! I'm sure that every single parent here have had not one or few, but a lot of days like that.The big majority go thru regression stages, in our home we have had them at least in 3 different times in one year and a half and they seem to last forever, but they don't, things do get better!!I tent to cry in the shower about 3 times per week.Keep yourself strong, God bless you, your little one and all of us who deal with this type of situations,SashaTo: "mb12valtrex " <mb12valtrex >Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 8:08:17 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic lol yes my son just started preschool. so next time i am alone in the car... thanks lisa To: mb12valtrex Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 8:03 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic I'm sorry for what you are going thru. My daughter suddenly regressed a few weeks ago and things we haven't seen in awhile have all come back and I don't ever remember things being so crazy.Not sure if a strep strain in liquid q10 didn't cause it. It's also a full moon on Monday and full moons throw everything out of wack here. Our natural doctor had us use antimonium crudum 30c for full moon issues. For the first time after a dose 2 nights ago she was calm and happy. Didn't give a dose last night and things started up again. Also using parasite medicine but it didn't work on its own today. hang in there. Hope things get better. PS- sometimes I just yell in the car away from traffic on days like this. strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 ohhh...so sweet Rosetta! most the time i am all biomed warrior and such.. then once in a while autism sucker punches me flat on my ass ."tired beaten and hopeless" just as you said. so so nice to hear your kind words...thank you... To: "mb12valtrex " <mb12valtrex >Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 9:25 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic Chana I am a Mum from Australia and wow what a hard day you have had, the strength you showed in everyway i feel your pain and you are only human to go a little crazy once in a while probably is what is going to keep you sane. Just so you know i think all us Mums with children with ASD do go off the deep end because we are tired, we fill beaten,hopeless at times and to go through it alone must be the hardest part of all. Try to be kind and know that someone from OZ os sending you {{hugs}} and lots of positive energy your way Rosetta To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, 8 September 2011 8:38 AMSubject: strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 Hi there, I think we all can relate to you as we all go through these rough periods. I recently started curcumin and immediately noticed improvement in my son in several areas. This week he regressed again and today he cried all evening and was extremely anxious. I was trying to figure out what could have caused it but then suddenly became extremely frustrated and felt like there was no hope. I saw your post and I don't feel so lonely anymore. I love being a member on this forum as I feel so encouraged and also salute all of you for being such courageous parents. Hopefully, your son's symptoms will be temporary and I would also suggest to take him off coQ liquid as I also experienced regression after using probiotic with strep. Good luck. is > > let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. > my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. > i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. > for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. > i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. > i am broken. .in every way i can say. > the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) > then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. > my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. > i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. > > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. > the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. > i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. > ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead > i just called out that my son was autistic. > so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. > > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. > i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. > if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. > this one really sucked for me. > anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. > channa > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 yes but you guys are really the only friends i have. i have not one friend in my life and no family. the only social i get is with my four year old son and he doesnt say much. i talk to commercials on tv but i dont think that counts. i left my sons very abusive father three years ago and i havent been able to make connections with anyone. i work from home and i have PTSD. so it is not easy to try and form friendships with my local mom groups. i couldnt bring my son thier anyway.. i really appreciate the support of this group..know that the kind responses are the only kind words i hear in my life. now im gonna start crying..blasted full moon.. To: "mb12valtrex " <mb12valtrex >Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 9:30 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic Of course you are not alone Channa!! I'm sure that every single parent here have had not one or few, but a lot of days like that. The big majority go thru regression stages, in our home we have had them at least in 3 different times in one year and a half and they seem to last forever, but they don't, things do get better!! I tent to cry in the shower about 3 times per week. Keep yourself strong, God bless you, your little one and all of us who deal with this type of situations, Sasha To: "mb12valtrex " <mb12valtrex >Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 8:08:17 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic lol yes my son just started preschool. so next time i am alone in the car... thanks lisa To: mb12valtrex Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 8:03 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic I'm sorry for what you are going thru. My daughter suddenly regressed a few weeks ago and things we haven't seen in awhile have all come back and I don't ever remember things being so crazy.Not sure if a strep strain in liquid q10 didn't cause it. It's also a full moon on Monday and full moons throw everything out of wack here. Our natural doctor had us use antimonium crudum 30c for full moon issues. For the first time after a dose 2 nights ago she was calm and happy. Didn't give a dose last night and things started up again. Also using parasite medicine but it didn't work on its own today. hang in there. Hope things get better. PS- sometimes I just yell in the car away from traffic on days like this. strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 thank you is, maybe it is the full moon and parasites making us all nuts? i am so disappounted about the strep.i jjust wanted the water kefir to work so much i know its back to the batcave we go again....dont lose hope is..we are warrior moms To: mb12valtrex Sent: Wednesday, September 7, 2011 9:39 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic Hi there,I think we all can relate to you as we all go through these rough periods. I recently started curcumin and immediately noticed improvement in my son in several areas. This week he regressed again and today he cried all evening and was extremely anxious. I was trying to figure out what could have caused it but then suddenly became extremely frustrated and felt like there was no hope. I saw your post and I don't feel so lonely anymore. I love being a member on this forum as I feel so encouraged and also salute all of you for being such courageous parents. Hopefully, your son's symptoms will be temporary and I would also suggest to take him off coQ liquid as I also experienced regression after using probiotic with strep. Good luck.is>> let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.> my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.> i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.> for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.> i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.> i am broken. .in every way i can say.> the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)> then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.> my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.> i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.> > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.> the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..> i started yelling at him he can never hit other people..> ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead> i just called out that my son was autistic.> so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.> > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.> i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.> if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.> this one really sucked for me.> anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.> channa> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 Dear Channa,I think there is enough evidence that you are not alone in these occurrences. We have our good days and bad days. Sometimes i am hopeful, and there are times that i lost all hopes and I do not see the end of it. Its been 7 years my son was diagnosed, and it has not been a day that i did not cry since. I have no one to turn to, no family sometimes a few friend that show up when they want to.I am so thankful for this group, to see that everyone else are dealing with something similar i am experiencing. Better days will come to your ways. Be strong!!!! and Know you are a great mom.Tunde  Hi there, I think we all can relate to you as we all go through these rough periods. I recently started curcumin and immediately noticed improvement in my son in several areas. This week he regressed again and today he cried all evening and was extremely anxious. I was trying to figure out what could have caused it but then suddenly became extremely frustrated and felt like there was no hope. I saw your post and I don't feel so lonely anymore. I love being a member on this forum as I feel so encouraged and also salute all of you for being such courageous parents. Hopefully, your son's symptoms will be temporary and I would also suggest to take him off coQ liquid as I also experienced regression after using probiotic with strep. Good luck. is > > let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. > my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. > i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. > for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. > i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. > i am broken. .in every way i can say. > the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) > then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. > my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. > i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. > > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. > the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. > i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. > ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead > i just called out that my son was autistic. > so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. > > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. > i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. > if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. > this one really sucked for me. > anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. > channa > -- " Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter. " MLK Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 7, 2011 Report Share Posted September 7, 2011 Channa, I totally get it. We're going through a major bout of clostridia right now...enough said...I'm so drained, too. So, so, so, SOOO drained.  let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. i am broken. .in every way i can say. the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. ...anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead i just called out that my son was autistic. so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. this one really sucked for me. anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 8, 2011 Report Share Posted September 8, 2011 It doesn't have to be the strep probiotic that's causing the trouble. maybe you're killing something off. strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. i am broken. .in every way i can say. the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. ...anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead i just called out that my son was autistic. so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. this one really sucked for me. anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 8, 2011 Report Share Posted September 8, 2011 you guys rock! only in this group can i find understanding in my lowest moments God bless all of you for caring so much even thou this was way way OT but so glad to hear from all my buddies here. i hope in the future i can help you guys also in any way possible. love, love ,love channa and big hug to all you guys To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, September 8, 2011 3:13 AMSubject: Re: Re: strep probiotic Hang in there Channa... mid August was a serious low point for me. Things are better.Don't give up. HUGS! Channa,You are not alone. I went and cried about autism on my 47th birthday - in a Catholic Church by myself. I have often asked God why. I have stopped asking that question. Today I cried when a priest asked me something and I told him about my daughter. Nothing like the tears of a mother, the blessing she is, and be strong were what I heard him say. You are not alone Channa. The tears you cried in front of the Catholic statue of the saint is significant- there are saints that have gone before us, that hear our prayers and will intercede for us. Draw close to Him, find a community of Catholic believers who will pray with and for you, keep the faith and fight the good fight, You are not alone.In Christ,Sara-- Toni------Mind like a steel trap...Rusty and illegal in 37 states. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 8, 2011 Report Share Posted September 8, 2011 Are you using OLE Channa?Sent from my iPhone let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. i am broken. .in every way i can say. the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. ...anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead i just called out that my son was autistic. so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. this one really sucked for me. anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 8, 2011 Report Share Posted September 8, 2011 > > I'm sorry for what you are going thru. My daughter suddenly regressed a few > weeks ago and things we haven't seen in awhile have all come back and I > don't ever remember things being so crazy.Not sure if a strep strain in > liquid q10 didn't cause it. It's also a full moon on Monday and full moons > throw everything out of wack here. Our natural doctor had us use antimonium > crudum 30c for full moon issues. For the first time after a dose 2 nights > ago she was calm and happy. Didn't give a dose last night and things started > up again. Also using parasite medicine but it didn't work on its own today. > hang in there. Hope things get better. > PS- sometimes I just yell in the car away from traffic on days like this. > > > > > > > > strep probiotic > > > > > let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. > my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible > since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. > i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water > kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. > for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things > thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last > four years has takin such a toll on my body. > i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. > i am broken. .in every way i can say. > the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake > number one (with my son) > then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping > it at people. > my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened > to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. > i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. > > he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. > the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store > and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. > i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. > ..anyways > this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my > bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying > to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad > mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head > in just the last hour alone.instead > i just called out that my son was autistic. > so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. > > i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops > wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. > i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint > holding a baby while my son sat in the car. > if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. > this one really sucked for me. > anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. > worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. > channa > > > > > > > -- Cotter 4 Pollerton Manor Carlow 059 9134964 087 2637921 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 8, 2011 Report Share Posted September 8, 2011 thanks karen, i dont have OLE but i loaded him up on mms which is antibacterial and today he had antibacterial chinese herbal blend...he is a diffrent kid today...definintly bacteria related...or maybe the saint helped me out. and being the nut case i am i gave more water kefir today because i really want to know is this die off..or the kefir itself. channa To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, September 8, 2011 9:26 AMSubject: Re: strep probiotic Are you using OLE Channa?Sent from my iPhone let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 9, 2011 Report Share Posted September 9, 2011 *hugs* ~Antiviral Therapy 101~ gryffinstail.wordpress.com/ ~~ @Gryffins_Tail ~ let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything. my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it. i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me. for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body. i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone. i am broken. .in every way i can say. the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son) then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people. my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to. i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in. he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving. the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys.. i started yelling at him he can never hit other people.. ...anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.instead i just called out that my son was autistic. so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother. i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city. i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car. if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days. this one really sucked for me. anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone. channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2011 Report Share Posted September 10, 2011 Channa,My heart goes out to you. We've all been there. Many times. I just got back from laying on my bed and crying and then opened my computer to your post. I just pray we can stay strong and keep fighting to lift the ugly veil of this tragic curse.Hang in there.Sylvia i am sitting here at 2am - i live in israel- wondering as usual why my child isn't sleeping it is all so difficult and painful and like one big marathon that just never seems to end try to take some comfort in knowing you are not alone. i don't think there is one person on this list who doesn't shed tears regularly and at some point felt the need to pray. i know going out with friends or a partner feels only like temporary release but it sounds like you need a break take it easy To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, September 8, 2011 1:38 AMSubject: strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2011 Report Share Posted September 10, 2011 Sylvia, Thank you...I was worried that my post would bring other people down after I wrote it in a very emotional state. ....but I think it does help to hear other people go thru similar pain. we all need to be strong in this battle of our kids lives..but there is a time to put down our armor and cry...and then after we will put our armor back on for another day of fighting....we are warrior moms that is what we do. ..and as long as there is life in us and our children we have hope. To: mb12valtrex Sent: Saturday, September 10, 2011 2:18 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic Channa, My heart goes out to you. We've all been there. Many times. I just got back from laying on my bed and crying and then opened my computer to your post. I just pray we can stay strong and keep fighting to lift the ugly veil of this tragic curse. Hang in there. Sylvia i am sitting here at 2am - i live in israel- wondering as usual why my child isn't sleeping it is all so difficult and painful and like one big marathon that just never seems to end try to take some comfort in knowing you are not alone. i don't think there is one person on this list who doesn't shed tears regularly and at some point felt the need to pray. i know going out with friends or a partner feels only like temporary release but it sounds like you need a break take it easy To: mb12valtrex Sent: Thursday, September 8, 2011 1:38 AMSubject: strep probiotic let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir. but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years has takin such a toll on my body.i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.i am broken. .in every way i can say.the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake number one (with my son)then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it at people.my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to throw it away he screamed begged me not to.i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..i started yelling at him he can never hit other people....anyways this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the last hour alone.insteadi just called out that my son was autistic.so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding a baby while my son sat in the car.if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.this one really sucked for me.anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.channa Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2011 Report Share Posted September 10, 2011 Yes! Today I had a freak out after my son had a freak out. Then I curled up on the floor and cried uncontrollably. I stayed near tears the rest of the day and then poured my hopeless heart out to my husband after the kids went to bed. And then I put myself back together and reminded myself of all the blessings I have to be thankful for. Humaworm die-off for everyone isn't helping my perspective right now... Cathy > > Sylvia, > Thank you...I was worried that my post would bring other people down after I wrote it in a very emotional state. > ...but I think it does help to hear other people go thru similar pain. we all need to be strong in this battle of our kids lives..but there is a time to put down our armor and cry...and then after we will put our armor back on for another day of fighting....we are warrior moms that is what we do. ..and as long as there is life in us and our children we have hope. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 11, 2011 Report Share Posted September 11, 2011 well....as i always say better out then in, parasite..emotions...ect To: mb12valtrex Sent: Saturday, September 10, 2011 10:55 PMSubject: Re: strep probiotic Yes!Today I had a freak out after my son had a freak out. Then I curled up on the floor and cried uncontrollably. I stayed near tears the rest of the day and then poured my hopeless heart out to my husband after the kids went to bed. And then I put myself back together and reminded myself of all the blessings I have to be thankful for.Humaworm die-off for everyone isn't helping my perspective right now... :)Cathy>> Sylvia,> Thank you...I was worried that my post would bring other people down after I wrote it in a very emotional state.> ...but I think it does help to hear other people go thru similar pain. we all need to be strong in this battle of our kids lives..but there is a time to put down our armor and cry...and then after we will put our armor back on for another day of fighting....we are warrior moms that is what we do. ..and as long as there is life in us and our children we have hope.> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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