strep probiotic

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let me just say this is going to be more a rant then anything.

my son who was doing so well these last couple months has digressed horrible

since i started him on the water kefir with the strep bacteria in it.

i was hoping it would work. i believe in the health properties of water kefir.

but my son is going aggresive and violent on me.

for the last couple days i have had my hair pulled out jumped on things thrown

at me..i carry him into time out but am losing strength as the last four years

has takin such a toll on my body.

i am so tired to fight the old aggresive autsim that i thought was gone.

i am broken. .in every way i can say.

the worst part was today...i thought i could get some errands done mistake

number one (with my son)

then i bought him a plastic long eraser thingy that is perfect for whipping it

at people.

my son whipped it at my head as i put him in the car seat. then i threatened to

throw it away he screamed begged me not to.

i couldnt take the screaming so i gave in.

he wipped it at my head one more time while i was driving.

the worst part was i was got him out of the car was walking him to the store and

he whipped it at a ladys bag of grocerys..

i started yelling at him he can never hit other people..

...anyways

this lady looks at me and calls out its ok its ok..he only hit my

bag.....and she is looking at me like I am a crazy..I told her i was trying to

teach my son not to hit people she still looks at me like some bad mother..i

wanted to tell her I had been hit five times in my face and head in just the

last hour alone.instead

i just called out that my son was autistic.

so she lookes at me like my son is autistic AND has a crazy bad mother.

i was so upset i drove around trying to find a place to scream that the cops

wouldnt be called but there was no place i live the city.

i instead drove to a catholic cemetary and cried in front of some saint holding

a baby while my son sat in the car.

if you read this Jeni, you not alone in your bad days.

this one really sucked for me.

anyone who read this whole stinkin post bless you for witnessing my pain. worse

then going thru all of this is going thru all of this alone.

channa