Re: I feel guilty....thanks everyone!

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Thank you for your advice and support, everyone.

I'm going to digest your words. God, as one of you said, the clarity I have in

stepping back is scary and astounding. How the f**k did I get to this place with

her?????

Again, thanks so much, tribe!

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> > > > I know I shouldn't. Most days I feel perfectly wonderful about it.

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> > > > And then other days, like last night, and today, I feel guilty about it.

I couldn't sleep last night thinking about how she is, is she ok, is she afraid

of the thunderstorm tonight, things like that. I feel responsible for her, and

like I'm letting her down somehow. Does anyone else feel like their nada won't

be ok unless they are involved in their lives? I know it's not realistic and

not based on reality and untrue, but I feel like, unless I'm involved in her

life, she won't be ok.

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> > > > On the other hand, I totally get what someone else said here, " she steps

on my foot, but I'm expected to say I'm sorry. " I want an apology from her

after our argument 2 weeks ago and for her to initiate reconciliation for once,

but I don't think that's going to happen.

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> > > > Can I tell you how weird I have been feeling the past 2 weeks??   Even

though I've been so proud of being " LC " with her - talking once a day for a few

minutes and seeing her for an hour and a half each Sunday - it really isn't all

that LC. She is still so in my life that I resent having to explain on days I

take off from work that I'm not at work and make up some reason. I resent having

to visit her every, single Sunday. I resent that it's expected.

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> > > > I don't mind having her in my life, entirely. I do mind that she expects

and feels entitled to our rote " schedule. "

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> > > > I really want this to change if we ever talk again.

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> > > > Any advice?

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