Re: Everyone almost ready for the holidays?/ for Cait

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What Kate said, Cait!Love,nTo: MSersLife Sent: Fri, December 17, 2010 12:28:42 PMSubject: Re: Everyone almost ready for the holidays?

Wow, Cait, I don't think I knew of your Christmas that was hijacked from you! That's just horrible (I get depressed around Christmas also...just never the way I'd like it to be.You're not being a Scrooge. Things are tight--for everyone; I think it's lovely that you give gifts at all! Your family plans for lunch sound nice.Sorry to hear of Jana. Miscarriages are so painful emotionally. I had one once, and it broke my heart. It was after I had 5 kids already, and was overwhelmed thinking of another, but my heart was full to have another...gentle hugs to you, we are here for you!KateTo: MSersLife Sent: Thu, December 16, 2010 10:26:22 PMSubject: Everyone almost ready for the holidays?

I feel like Scrooge this year. The few gifts that I've bought were on sale and the others 'gifts in a jar' or knitted items. I doubt I'll even put up the tree again this year ... I can't get it down myself and says don't bother in his humbug way. I'll be spending Christmas with 's family. Jana is coming in town on the 26th and we'll have them over for lunch on the 27th. My son-in-law has to work Christmas.

Poor Jana just had a miscarriage ... they decided to try for another baby after the tumor on her adrenal gland had been removed and her bp had gone down quite a bit. However she'd still be high-risk and 37 by the time any baby would be born. I can't help but worry.

And can I admit to you all because I've never told anyone else, I get very depressed at Christmas. I hate having to put on a happy festive face when I really feel like hiding under the covers. Christmas still makes me feel how I felt when I came home for Christmas to find my house and belongings ransacked and stolen by my two girls and their father. The anger is gone now but the hurt and betrayal is so strong at this time of year.

Anyway, enough tonight. I've so much catching up but going to try to sleep. has to have the dye put in his eyes in the morning. Yes he's diabetic and no, he doesn't take care of himself as he should ... hugs, Cait