understand

July 19, 2010

In 1972 my ex - the idjut - was Rifted - Reduction in Force - we sold the house here in town and went to Ballwin, MO - he left me and the oldest son with his mom for a month - not only did he forget to tell me that our cocker had survived the fight with the chow - collie - he decided not to tell me my grandfather had died in England and Grace went for the funeral - I had called down a few times - Dad went along with it - he told his mom when he got back to St Louis before he told me - that started a donnie brook

Then when my least one was born in December 1976 - the little one went into respiratory distress and went to a NICU further into St Louis - initially diagnosed with Hyline Membrane Disease like JFK's son - my oldest one was out in washington with the dogs and the babysitter - I was in Town and country at the hospital - my inlaws were loose on the interstates - grandma was in Ballwin - when they left the hospital the blizzard of 1976

the 3rd night the docs gave him up to God - nobody told me - I was in hospital from the 28th to the 1st or 2nd - allegedly due to the blizzard - you know how an OB - nursery floor is - try it for 5 days alone not knowing fully how your baby is doing - my ex took the long way down town and hemmed and hawwed telling me everything - they had tried to get him on room air for since they got him - at close to 8 pounds - well his room mates were less than 5 pounds - when we got upstairs - I had already gotten weak and dizzy beside the elevators - white as a sheet actually - we got up to the NICU - having worked in hospitals - my stomping ground - NICU is another world - I was weaving by the time I got there - they wanted me to wash hands and use betadine - which I am seriously allergic too - try getting checked for labor and feeling the whelps and itching start as soon as the gloved hand went in

I asked one of the nurses if I could just use soap and water because of the allergy and she saw how white and wobbly I was

they got me into the unit and was on an OHIO table - the special beds - I was holding on really hard to stay upright as his nurse filled me in - just before the room turned into a ferris wheel someone else shoved a chair under me

he had gone on room air just as we left Baptist Hospital that morning

that was the final straw for me trusting my ex - it took 6 years of a downhill slide and another two to file for divorce

July 19, 2010

Oh Jeez Anne. So sorry.

~*~Hugs~*~

~*~Akiba~*~

-- understand

In 1972 my ex - the idjut - was Rifted - Reduction in Force - we sold the house here in town and went to Ballwin, MO - he left me and the oldest son with his mom for a month - not only did he forget to tell me that our cocker had survived the fight with the chow - collie - he decided not to tell me my grandfather had died in England and Grace went for the funeral - I had called down a few times - Dad went along with it - he told his mom when he got back to St Louis before he told me - that started a donnie brook

Then when my least one was born in December 1976 - the little one went into respiratory distress and went to a NICU further into St Louis - initially diagnosed with Hyline Membrane Disease like JFK's son - my oldest one was out in washington with the dogs and the babysitter - I was in Town and country at the hospital - my inlaws were loose on the interstates - grandma was in Ballwin - when they left the hospital the blizzard of 1976

the 3rd night the docs gave him up to God - nobody told me - I was in hospital from the 28th to the 1st or 2nd - allegedly due to the blizzard - you know how an OB - nursery floor is - try it for 5 days alone not knowing fully how your baby is doing - my ex took the long way down town and hemmed and hawwed telling me everything - they had tried to get him on room air for since they got him - at close to 8 pounds - well his room mates were less than 5 pounds - when we got upstairs - I had already gotten weak and dizzy beside the elevators - white as a sheet actually - we got up to the NICU - having worked in hospitals - my stomping ground - NICU is another world - I was weaving by the time I got there - they wanted me to wash hands and use betadine - which I am seriously allergic too - try getting checked for labor and feeling the whelps and itching start as soon as the gloved hand went in

I asked one of the nurses if I could just use soap and water because of the allergy and she saw how white and wobbly I was

they got me into the unit and was on an OHIO table - the special beds - I was holding on really hard to stay upright as his nurse filled me in - just before the room turned into a ferris wheel someone else shoved a chair under me

he had gone on room air just as we left Baptist Hospital that morning

that was the final straw for me trusting my ex - it took 6 years of a downhill slide and another two to file for divorce

July 19, 2010

it's ok - I told you I understood idjuts - hang in there

smoke and prayers for both of you

To: MSersLife Sent: Mon, July 19, 2010 6:49:32 PMSubject: Re: understand

Oh Jeez Anne. So sorry.

~*~Hugs~*~

~*~Akiba~*~

-- understand

In 1972 my ex - the idjut - was Rifted - Reduction in Force - we sold the house here in town and went to Ballwin, MO - he left me and the oldest son with his mom for a month - not only did he forget to tell me that our cocker had survived the fight with the chow - collie - he decided not to tell me my grandfather had died in England and Grace went for the funeral - I had called down a few times - Dad went along with it - he told his mom when he got back to St Louis before he told me - that started a donnie brook

Then when my least one was born in December 1976 - the little one went into respiratory distress and went to a NICU further into St Louis - initially diagnosed with Hyline Membrane Disease like JFK's son - my oldest one was out in washington with the dogs and the babysitter - I was in Town and country at the hospital - my inlaws were loose on the interstates - grandma was in Ballwin - when they left the hospital the blizzard of 1976

the 3rd night the docs gave him up to God - nobody told me - I was in hospital from the 28th to the 1st or 2nd - allegedly due to the blizzard - you know how an OB - nursery floor is - try it for 5 days alone not knowing fully how your baby is doing - my ex took the long way down town and hemmed and hawwed telling me everything - they had tried to get him on room air for since they got him - at close to 8 pounds - well his room mates were less than 5 pounds - when we got upstairs - I had already gotten weak and dizzy beside the elevators - white as a sheet actually - we got up to the NICU - having worked in hospitals - my stomping ground - NICU is another world - I was weaving by the time I got there - they wanted me to wash hands and use betadine - which I am seriously allergic too - try getting checked for labor and feeling the whelps and itching start as soon as the gloved hand went in

I asked one of the nurses if I could just use soap and water because of the allergy and she saw how white and wobbly I was

they got me into the unit and was on an OHIO table - the special beds - I was holding on really hard to stay upright as his nurse filled me in - just before the room turned into a ferris wheel someone else shoved a chair under me

he had gone on room air just as we left Baptist Hospital that morning

that was the final straw for me trusting my ex - it took 6 years of a downhill slide and another two to file for divorce

July 20, 2010

Oh Anne.... You have been through so darned much. You are such a strong woman:)love SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSers Life egroup <MSersLife >Sent: Mon, July 19, 2010 4:32:35 PMSubject: understand

In 1972 my ex - the idjut - was Rifted - Reduction in Force - we sold the house here in town and went to Ballwin, MO - he left me and the oldest son with his mom for a month - not only did he forget to tell me that our cocker had survived the fight with the chow - collie - he decided not to tell me my grandfather had died in England and Grace went for the funeral - I had called down a few times - Dad went along with it - he told his mom when he got back to St Louis before he told me - that started a donnie brook

Then when my least one was born in December 1976 - the little one went into respiratory distress and went to a NICU further into St Louis - initially diagnosed with Hyline Membrane Disease like JFK's son - my oldest one was out in washington with the dogs and the babysitter - I was in Town and country at the hospital - my inlaws were loose on the interstates - grandma was in Ballwin - when they left the hospital the blizzard of 1976

the 3rd night the docs gave him up to God - nobody told me - I was in hospital from the 28th to the 1st or 2nd - allegedly due to the blizzard - you know how an OB - nursery floor is - try it for 5 days alone not knowing fully how your baby is doing - my ex took the long way down town and hemmed and hawwed telling me everything - they had tried to get him on room air for since they got him - at close to 8 pounds - well his room mates were less than 5 pounds - when we got upstairs - I had already gotten weak and dizzy beside the elevators - white as a sheet actually - we got up to the NICU - having worked in hospitals - my stomping ground - NICU is another world - I was weaving by the time I got there - they wanted me to wash hands and use betadine - which I am seriously allergic too - try getting checked for labor and feeling the whelps and itching start as soon as the gloved hand went in

I asked one of the nurses if I could just use soap and water because of the allergy and she saw how white and wobbly I was

they got me into the unit and was on an OHIO table - the special beds - I was holding on really hard to stay upright as his nurse filled me in - just before the room turned into a ferris wheel someone else shoved a chair under me

he had gone on room air just as we left Baptist Hospital that morning

that was the final straw for me trusting my ex - it took 6 years of a downhill slide and another two to file for divorce

July 21, 2010

I had to go through it to be me now - so if I come down hard on something ...

I don't want anyone hurt like I was

been there

done that

wore out the tee shirt

To: MSersLife Sent: Tue, July 20, 2010 6:13:46 PMSubject: Re: understand

Oh Anne.... You have been through so darned much. You are such a strong woman:)love

SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects.

From: Anne Whitworth <reikiladyinswok@ att.net>To: MSers Life egroup <MSersLife@yahoogrou ps.com>Sent: Mon, July 19, 2010 4:32:35 PMSubject: understand

In 1972 my ex - the idjut - was Rifted - Reduction in Force - we sold the house here in town and went to Ballwin, MO - he left me and the oldest son with his mom for a month - not only did he forget to tell me that our cocker had survived the fight with the chow - collie - he decided not to tell me my grandfather had died in England and Grace went for the funeral - I had called down a few times - Dad went along with it - he told his mom when he got back to St Louis before he told me - that started a donnie brook

Then when my least one was born in December 1976 - the little one went into respiratory distress and went to a NICU further into St Louis - initially diagnosed with Hyline Membrane Disease like JFK's son - my oldest one was out in washington with the dogs and the babysitter - I was in Town and country at the hospital - my inlaws were loose on the interstates - grandma was in Ballwin - when they left the hospital the blizzard of 1976

the 3rd night the docs gave him up to God - nobody told me - I was in hospital from the 28th to the 1st or 2nd - allegedly due to the blizzard - you know how an OB - nursery floor is - try it for 5 days alone not knowing fully how your baby is doing - my ex took the long way down town and hemmed and hawwed telling me everything - they had tried to get him on room air for since they got him - at close to 8 pounds - well his room mates were less than 5 pounds - when we got upstairs - I had already gotten weak and dizzy beside the elevators - white as a sheet actually - we got up to the NICU - having worked in hospitals - my stomping ground - NICU is another world - I was weaving by the time I got there - they wanted me to wash hands and use betadine - which I am seriously allergic too - try getting checked for labor and feeling the whelps and itching start as soon as the gloved hand went in

I asked one of the nurses if I could just use soap and water because of the allergy and she saw how white and wobbly I was

they got me into the unit and was on an OHIO table - the special beds - I was holding on really hard to stay upright as his nurse filled me in - just before the room turned into a ferris wheel someone else shoved a chair under me

he had gone on room air just as we left Baptist Hospital that morning

that was the final straw for me trusting my ex - it took 6 years of a downhill slide and another two to file for divorce

July 21, 2010

The trials and tribulations we face do make us stronger and wiser for sure.hugs SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Wed, July 21, 2010 5:18:39 AMSubject: Re: understand