feeling down

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Yes, there are down days for me. But overall I'm happy and satisfied with life. Sometimes MS gets pretty miserable but it's better than not being here. I almost died in 2002 after I rolled my van. I floated between life and death for days. I wanted to live and that pulled me through. I value my life. Yes, I wish I felt wonderful all the time but at least I'm here to be with my kids and my eight grandkids. hugs to you ... you are such a sweet friend! SharonThis email is a natural hand made product. The slight variations in

spelling and grammar enhance its individual character and beauty and in no way are to be considered flaws or defects. To: MSersLife Sent: Sat, January 8, 2011 6:08:11 PMSubject: Mixing watercolors & feeling down

Hi Donna, Sharon & CaitNow Donna, you mean I have too much paint in my silly little water color paint set of 24 colors? LOL Now even with the 24 colors, everything on my paper looks flat/dull, whatever you want to call it. So I guess I'll leave the painting to the talented ones, like yourself, and just stick to chameleons. But I must admit, the painting is fun, even though it looks like a 5 year old's painting. LOL It's relaxing and I guess that's the only thing that counts. Just 7 colors!!! Ooh, now count me out with the color thing. LOLThanks and please send more of the paintings our way.Sharon & Cait, now one thing that I've discovered over and over again, is that feeling down makes MS worse. It's the big sad fact about it. I know, I speak from experience. When I feel down,

everything just seems worse. So please hang in there, try not to give in to the darkness. With the situation in SA, I've felt so scared, anxious and just wanted to disappear. While I was feeling that way, everything just got worse. All the bad news on TV, just made me more afraid. I've reached the point where I bailed out of the group that I love so much, because I couldn't see any hope. And while I was in that dark place, I knew that I couldn't be any use to anyone. If I can't cheer myself up, hey, I won't be of any use to try and cheer you up. Now that I'm trying to just put it out of my mind, I feel better. The situation is still the same in SA and all over the world, but at least I'm living again. Believe me, I was breathing for a long time, but not living at all. I've found that the pain from MS is bad, but when I try to be happy (and the funny thing is that I've heard that the brain is a bit stupid, it doesn't know the difference between real

happiness and make believe happiness) I can handle it. So please, ladies, you mean a lot to me, so hang in there. My MS is bad at times, I must admit the ants are the worst. Can't handle it at all. But now that I'm "home" again and can share all my silly stories with you, hey, I feel wonderful. So I hope that when I tell you about my silly adventures with the chameleons, that maybe, for that little while you feel a bit happy. Have a smile and think to yourself, oh that silly girl. You know, when I got my walker, I felt it was the end of the world. And somehow you all pulled me through. By telling me that it's a good thing, I'm not giving up, I'm actually saving my energy and I'm still on my feet. So thanks for giving me the support when I needed it so much, now I hope I will be able to repay the favor one day. If you want to talk, you know where to find me.Oh yeah, and thanks Cait for saying hi to me and the warm welcome back. I really appreciate

it. Take care all my sweet friends and don't give up. Love you all