Guest guest Posted March 4, 2012 Report Share Posted March 4, 2012 Oh my. Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. Now, the nerves are really strong! I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now it's flipped. Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. Mia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 4, 2012 Report Share Posted March 4, 2012 You will be great at this, Mia, because you are well-prepared to do this job and because you care very much about doing a good job. Your nada's opinions about you are less than meaningless. You can shut off the mental " tape player " that replays her negative opinions to you. Such as, you can " record over " her ugly remarks by saying positive, encouraging things to your self whenever you " hear " one of nada's old comments. Or you can have fun with it and make rude, obscene gestures at her in your mind when you think of one of her ugly, denigrating comments, or mentally have a gigantic grand piano fall on her when you " hear " one of her insulting comments in your mind. Oops! Poor nada. Gosh that was a big piano! Once you get that first day under your belt, I predict that your anxiety level will drop tremendously. And keep remembering that we're all rooting for you. Best wishes to you, and thumb's up! -Annie > > Oh my. > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > it's flipped. > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > Mia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 4, 2012 Report Share Posted March 4, 2012 Good luck Mia. You can do it! On Sun, Mar 4, 2012 at 10:05 AM, anuria67854 wrote: > ** > > > You will be great at this, Mia, because you are well-prepared to do this > job and because you care very much about doing a good job. > > Your nada's opinions about you are less than meaningless. > > You can shut off the mental " tape player " that replays her negative > opinions to you. Such as, you can " record over " her ugly remarks by saying > positive, encouraging things to your self whenever you " hear " one of nada's > old comments. > > Or you can have fun with it and make rude, obscene gestures at her in your > mind when you think of one of her ugly, denigrating comments, or mentally > have a gigantic grand piano fall on her when you " hear " one of her > insulting comments in your mind. > Oops! Poor nada. Gosh that was a big piano! > > Once you get that first day under your belt, I predict that your anxiety > level will drop tremendously. And keep remembering that we're all rooting > for you. > > Best wishes to you, and thumb's up! > > -Annie > > > > > > Oh my. > > > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > > it's flipped. > > > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > > > Mia > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 4, 2012 Report Share Posted March 4, 2012 Thanks Annie & Millicent. Annie, I love the piano idea, that made me grin, thanks! I know I'll be ok, but yeah, the nerves are high today. Though, I suspect that's pretty normal for any new nurse the day before s/he starts his/her first job! But I think I'll use a combination of your suggestions, Annie ;-) Great idea, thank you much! Mia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 4, 2012 Report Share Posted March 4, 2012 Mia, You can do this! My son is doing his student teaching and he is as anxious as you. He is bi-polar and takes his medication religiously. He loves teaching but worries, worries, worries. He is maturing through his illness and now when he makes a mistake he can deal with it better. Remember you are new at this, it takes three years to get really good at a job. You will have your ups and downs but you are still learning. You will see a lot of BPD patients as well as a lot of normal ones. When I had my knee replacement my first roommate was an 82 year old woman who was absolutely wonderful and she too had had a knee replacement. She told me we were on a great adventure, when she left I got this old woman who had to be BPD, she wanted the male nurse to bathe her, her children were huddled around her bed constantly and they did everything for her. The aide left her on sitting on the edge of the bed and she almost fell off, she did absolutely nothing to help herself, and I finally complained to the nurse and asked them not to leave her sitting unattended because if she fell I sure wasn't in any shape to get out of my bed fast enough to catch her. Anyway be prepared you will see Fadas and Nadas and then you will have the wonderful patients but you can do this. I have read your posts and you are working towards becoming whole in spite Nada. We all have the ability to heal ourselves, getting off disability going back to work, you are a miracle of self healing and a tribute to resiliency. We are here for you and you can check in with us. Tell us about your triumphs and struggles in your new career we will listen. Have a great first day! Sending you prayers and love and good vibrations and all the positive thoughts I can. Kay > > Oh my. > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > it's flipped. > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > Mia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2012 Report Share Posted March 5, 2012 Hey Congrats on the new job! 5 years! It takes a lot of courage to go back to work after five years for anyone! Well, hats off! You're very courageous. I'm sure you'll do a great job because you CARE about doing a great job. Caring is the best thing a nurse can offer to patients. I had an oncology nurse friend who was depressed for a while, because most of the patients were terminal and died. But then she realized, that if she did anything, anything at all to make that person's day a little brighter, then she had done a good job that day. I always try and remember the bad messages nada sent me had nothing to do with me, or who I was. She couldn't see who I was. They were her own fears and anxieties, put onto me. It's not a true statement. You are taking care of yourself, stupid people don't do that. You got through nursing school, again proving that you have what it takes. You're going to be fine, and congrats again! It's a huge step and you should be proud! Terri > > Oh my. > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > it's flipped. > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > Mia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2012 Report Share Posted March 5, 2012 As someone who works in the long term health care field but not nursing side let me say caring is the most important part of your job. The miracle of medical advances let people live longer but not necessairly quality lives. So many have no families the smile you give is the only one they're going to see all day. When I was in the hospital having my son (6 weeks early) it was the nurses soothing touch and " its going to be ok) that meant so much more to me than the drs. mumble jumble.  Congratulations, and where ever you are working is lucky to have you ________________________________ To: WTOAdultChildren1 Sent: Monday, March 5, 2012 7:58 AM Subject: Re: Here comes the anxiety!  Hey Congrats on the new job! 5 years! It takes a lot of courage to go back to work after five years for anyone! Well, hats off! You're very courageous. I'm sure you'll do a great job because you CARE about doing a great job. Caring is the best thing a nurse can offer to patients. I had an oncology nurse friend who was depressed for a while, because most of the patients were terminal and died. But then she realized, that if she did anything, anything at all to make that person's day a little brighter, then she had done a good job that day. I always try and remember the bad messages nada sent me had nothing to do with me, or who I was. She couldn't see who I was. They were her own fears and anxieties, put onto me. It's not a true statement. You are taking care of yourself, stupid people don't do that. You got through nursing school, again proving that you have what it takes. You're going to be fine, and congrats again! It's a huge step and you should be proud! Terri > > Oh my. > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > it's flipped. > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > Mia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2012 Report Share Posted March 5, 2012 Thank you so so much everyone. Today is THE day and reading these nice notes was a great way to kick off my day, as I'm getting ready to head out the door in 5. Kay, it sounds like your son is a great young man! I bet he'll be an AWESOME teacher! Especially since he does care. I saw a small handful of students in my nursing program who just didn't care. One got kicked out of the program because she was very immature & cocky, liked to mouth off. The ones I got close to & became friends with are the ones who care, who want to do a good job & be there for their patients. I think eventually we'll all be good nurses. And I think your son will be a good teacher! I couldn't agree more about showing a caring attitude towars patients. I've had some AWFUL nurses in my experience, and I don't want to be like them. I like to smile, I have a pretty perky, cheerful attitude (to the point I probably need to key it down a bit LOL), but I'm also very sarcastic! So I have a good " BMF " (Brain-to-mouth filter lol). I had a patient in clinicals that the nursing staff laughed about when I said I was assigned to this patient. The patient, I was told, was very " snarky " . So I allowed myself to be both caring & a little jokingly sarcastic with the patient. We got along famously! The nursing staff was telling me to stick around just so they didn't have to " deal with " this patient. I'll never forget that person, ever. ly, I remember all my patients I had in nursing school. Ok, deep breath. I'm off TO WORK now! Thanks again for all your encouragement & caring, it means so much =) Mia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 5, 2012 Report Share Posted March 5, 2012 ((((Mia))))) I'll be thinking about you and praying for you today. It's such a fantastically big day for you; it's the fulfillment of so many dreams. You did it!! Can't wait to hear how it went. Big hugs!! it's an honor to share this day with you. Fiona > > Oh my. > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > it's flipped. > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > Mia > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 7, 2012 Report Share Posted March 7, 2012 Thanks Fiona! =) It went well! LOTS of paperwork Mon & Tues, today I started to feel like a real nurse lol. Got checked off on vitals (means I proved to my supervisor I know how to take them) and got to shadow a nurse and actually help this time hehe. Still going kinda slow but that's probably a good thing. I feel more & more like a real nurse every day ;-) Very excited to be there. The entire staff is really great. Nice people and they seem to like hiring new nurses. Am finding that of all of us who work there, I'm the 4th one who's started there totally new. That rocks, because everyone has seemed really patient and encourages me to ask for help if I need it. I think I hit the nursing gold mine, honest. I'm really thinking I'm going to love it there. Plus, the patients are awesome =) Mia > > > > ((((Mia))))) I'll be thinking about you and praying for you today. It's > such a fantastically big day for you; it's the fulfillment of so many > dreams. You did it!! > > Can't wait to hear how it went. Big hugs!! it's an honor to share this day > with you. > > Fiona > > > > > > > > Oh my. > > > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > > it's flipped. > > > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > > > Mia > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 7, 2012 Report Share Posted March 7, 2012 There *goes* the anxiety, flying away! I'm so happy for you! -Annie > > Thanks Fiona! =) It went well! LOTS of paperwork Mon & Tues, today I > started to feel like a real nurse lol. Got checked off on vitals > (means I proved to my supervisor I know how to take them) and got to > shadow a nurse and actually help this time hehe. Still going kinda > slow but that's probably a good thing. I feel more & more like a real > nurse every day ;-) > > Very excited to be there. The entire staff is really great. Nice > people and they seem to like hiring new nurses. Am finding that of > all of us who work there, I'm the 4th one who's started there totally > new. That rocks, because everyone has seemed really patient and > encourages me to ask for help if I need it. > > I think I hit the nursing gold mine, honest. I'm really thinking I'm > going to love it there. Plus, the patients are awesome =) > > Mia Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 8, 2012 Report Share Posted March 8, 2012 SO happy to hear it's been going well. Woo hoo! Big hugs! Fiona > > > > > > Oh my. > > > > > > Well today is my last day off before starting my first nursing job > > > tomorrow. Not only that, but it's my last day off since going on > > > disability FIVE years ago for severe depression & PTSD. > > > > > > I'm very excited to be starting my first nursing job but nervous too. > > > Now, the nerves are really strong! > > > > > > I keep thinking about nada when I was 19 & first wanted to be a nurse. > > > She said, " You? A nurse? I wouldn't let you take care of my dog, let > > > alone me. You're too stupid to be a nurse. " > > > > > > I know that's not true, but given the anxiety of the situation, it > > > keeps popping up in my head. I'm just going to try & spend today > > > doing things I enjoy and plan to meditate later and see if that calms > > > the nerves any. Before today, it was more excitement than nerves, now > > > it's flipped. > > > > > > Such a huge day tomorrow. Huge huge. GIGANTIC! First day back to > > > work after 5 years off and to top it, hello new nurse. Ugh. > > > > > > Mia > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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